Speck is just too, too cute!! I have been resisting the urge to bring a new pet into the family after having to put Nicole's pup down in December. I hear you about that grooming part! Our pup was part Cocker, part Springer. Beagles are so cute! Love them runts too! Have a feeling Charlie will love having a partner around. Chris, give our pup a hug for us up there, ok? I sure hope she is having fun with all of you.
MCS
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Today's page....Beck and Speck
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Hey chris- Hope things are going good with you. I have't worke up the guts to come nd see you yet, but I will. Lately I've been sick and now It's gotten worse. We all think that it's because of my thyroid so something roband I are gonna try and get it looked at. I had meds for it but it just makes me even more angry and touch, not to menchon sicker. this week will be hectic. It's time for prom yeah, and I'm still sick. Theres way to much to do. I just hope that everything is okay with my thyroid. It's been aciting up almost 2 tomes a day. Rob's getting really sick of my arguing. I can't help it. It just makes my nerves really touchie. I really wish that I could have seen you at prom. I know a few people who where going to ask you. I miss you alot and sometime I'll send you the pictures from new years eve with you in the bacement of kelli's house. See you around Laura
Laura Squeaker <AshenRose18@aol.com, Laura916@aol.com>
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Dear Chris,

I hope we haven't made a big mistake. We're attempting to fill a void that's impossible to fill. At the very least it will hopefully add SOME life to this house.

Two days after you were killed, before you were even buried, Adam asked if we could get a puppy. At the time I told him I wounln't dismiss the idea completely but just the thought was more than I could deal with at the time. I told him to wait until Spring. April came and he began asking," so when are we going to get the puppy?" I told him if he was really serious he'd find the cage in the basement. We hadn't used the cage for Charlie in years. I wasn't even sure it was down there. I figured that would be the end of the puppy. When I cane home from work that afternoon the cage was in the mud room. Now I knew he was serious!

We started looking at the shelters but there were no puppies to be had. We looked at a few pet stores but I would never buy from a pet store and their prices were unbelieveable. Then there was the matter of what kind of puppy. Since I knew it would eventually become mine, I wanted a say in the matter. While I dearly love Charlie.....he's been the best dog in the world ,I didn't want the grooming involved. I talked to some people and decided a Beagle would be a good choice (I hope.)

On May 8th we picked out our puppy from a litter of nine! Adam wasn't with us. He said he trusted us since we'd done such a good job picking Charlie.We picked the male runt of the litter just like Charlie was. We picked him up and brought him home today. Since the route we took was the same route we took to Port Huron every summer I couldn't help but think of you. You would have been soooo happy....another puppy! You loved animals but I think like me, dogs were your favorite. Adam is very taken with him. Since he is just six weeks old he is still VERY small. The first thing Adam said when he saw him was "I didn't think he'd be THIS Small!" As a result he thinks he'll name him Speck.

People at work told me Charlie would be very jealous and very territorial. I told them I couldn't imagine Charlie being anything but gentle and loving. You and Charlie were the sweetest hearts in the house. He still is. I was right! He's been home now for six hours and Charlie has been wonderful... not even a growl so far. I wish you were here to love and enjoy him with us but I bet you have numerous pets, including many dogs, in heaven. I miss you so much. Your birthday is just a few short weeks away! I love you ,
Mom
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To the man who left the letter at the Memorial on Fri. 5/25.

Thank you for your kindness sir. I hope you're right. I hope all those who pass the Memorial on a daily basis as you do, are moved to kindness and compassion as you were, rather than anger. I hope God blesses you and your wife with a child some day soon. They truly are the most joyous blessing!
Fran Kempa
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hey chris. i dont really know what to say right now i just felt like i had to write something. i couldnt stop thinking about you tonight. i was at this party and these kids were gonna fight and i was just thinkin how stupid it was becuase i just think of how much more i should care for others because i know how much i miss you. the fight didnt happen. me and this other kid convinced them it wasnt worth it. i miss you so much chris and i never stopthinking about you. always smile down on us and look after everyone. cya when i get there buddy. save me a spot next to you. until then you will always be on my mind and in my heart. i luv u buddy. night luv woody
jason <avsrule1449>
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Chris,

The notice came in today's mail. You and Adam are due for your eye exams. You were so looking forward to yours this year. You were going to try contacts! Not only were you going to try them......you WERE going to wear them. Adam couldn't get used to them so you considered it a very easily won challange!

Adam found out today he gets his braces off next month! Even though yours had been on for only a year we would joke that they'd most likely come off before Adam's....his had been on much longer than anyone anticipated. I'm afraid he beat you there Chris....his come off next month, yours will be on forever. Missing you much more, not less. Love,
Mom
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Chris, I miss you so much it actually hurts. if it hurts me this bad what must your family feel like? Some days I thinkk it's worse than 6 months ago. Then it didn't seem real now IT"S REAL. I hate this feeling I get it every time I think of you. I thinkk about you all the time so I feel this way a lot. I hate what happened to you! I will never forget you . like your Mom, i'll never get over it. i miss you sooooooo much.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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hey there, Chris. I just wanted to stop in and say I love ya. When I was up at Franklin yesterday I saw people wearing your pin. It was hard for me being up there visiting people, and knowing that I wouldn't be able to walk into the art room and see you in there. It seems like whenever I wanted to find you, all I had to do was peek in the window, and there you were. You always had 4 or 5 different projects going, and somehow still always had something new to show me. I remember at lunch, you would pull me over to the computers to show me a new movie you had made. We would sit in there together, just you and I. I would check my email, and you would make more movies. You always listend to my daily problems with "the boy" (you know who I'm talking about!). I miss you bringing me new CD's to listen to. Telling me "you're going to LOVE this band, Tracy". I miss it, and I miss you. I miss you so much, Chris. It just doesn't seem fair, after all this time it still isn't fair. It never will be. You were such a special person, and I feel so honered to be able to have known you. You made my senior year special. I'll never forget the support you gave me when I needed it. I wish I still had you here to talk to. Take care up there, I know you're having a blast. You're making them all smile up there, becuase that is what you did down here. You made everyone around you feel special. Thank you for doing that for me.....Love and Hugs,
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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Hey there chris. This past month has been very strange. Like every summer I get sick and can't talk, but this year your not here to laught at me and such. I went to the docters again they still don't know what's wrong. But later I'm gonna go to a hospital where my docter relocated and get chected again. I miss you making fun of me befor school because I make noises. This will be a strange summedr not workin with you at larry's. anyways... I am finally leaving franlkin and I have no idea where I'm gonna end up at my mom's again, in PA, or somewhere up north. But ethor way I will have to tell you that you'll always be in my heart. I feel bad that somethings wheren't figured out between us earlier, but I'm glad that we got to talk and become friends again instead of ignoring eachother like everyone else ends up; happeneing. anyways.. I hope I get to visite you soon. Wish me luck at Honors night, I have to sing a solo and with my voice I need to get better soon. Lov you lots Squeaker
Laura Squeaker <AshenRose18@aol.com>
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Chris!! The ducks were swimming in the pool cover today! You always loved that! Every year we would wonder if they'd be back and they never disappointed us. Dad saw them in the morning and they were back at dinner time. After dinner we went to get our flowers. This weekend is my traditional planting weekend but you won't be here to help me as you so often did. Be with me in spirit o.k.? Send me a butterfly! I think we'll wait one more week for the pool. I love you so much!
Mom
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Hey Chris... This is the first time I've actually written anything on here to u. I couldn't before, this guestbook has moved me to tears so many times already just by reading. I felt you today during lunch in the chior room. Before they played "Magic" I felt your spirit move through me and I felt so weak, it was so hard to keep the tears from falling again. Chris I love you so much buddy.. I can't ever get you out of my heart or soul, ur always there with me, please don't go ... ur spirit is what keeps us sane down here. Thank you for the strength... Missing Your Song, ~Christine
~ Christine ~ <MistiqueToriDiva@cs.com>
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Hey, Chris, guess what? my mom had her baby. A baby boy. Named Paul Michael or Connor. They can't decide on a name yet. I love Paul Michael cause its after you and Paul. Duh. (And my dad of course). Any way, I know you were so excited for me when I told you that she was preggers. I hope that your okay right now. I miss you wit all my heart and soul and I love ya. Love Katy
Katy <Kitten5384@yahoo.com>
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Dear Mrs. Kempa-My mom asked me to come with her today to help her pick out flowers for our backyard. It reminded me of the way you talk about gardening with Chris.I hardly ever help my mom with her flowers in the backyard and it was odd to find my self in your and Chris' position today,having read so much about it.From what I read, you love your garden. I know Chris is somewhere in heaven gardening a planting away. What a beautiful sight it must be. You and your family are in my prayers each day. Enjoy this wonderful weather!
Colleen Baidoon <blondbabe1385@yahoo.com>
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Chris, we just got back from the annual choir trip to Mackinac...you were often thought of by your friends and you also joined the Bel Canto tradition this year thanks to Liz!:) Our love grows for you each day and we know that you are watching us from above! Take care of your Mom...she needs those signs kiddo! With love and prayers to all who love you...
Ms. Hillman
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Dear Chris,

Today, (5/21/01) I had to go to Franklin to drop off the completed certificates for the Chris Kempa Memorial Art Scholarship. Mr. Rheault made them and I picked them up late last week. They look very official! Dad and I had to sign them along with Mr. Willenborg and Mrs. Welsh. I went around 3:30, long after school got out. Today was a bad Chris day...not as bad as some but bad none the less. I didn't want to run into a lot of your friends for fear I'd lose it badly. It was hard enough just seeing Mr. Willenborgh's secretary Sandy.

After Franklin we had to go to the cemetary. We had to sign and recieve the deed to your grave....I never knew there was such a thing and God knows I wish I'd NEVER found out. As the woman handed it over I said, "This is really something I wish I never had to have." We then started looking into grave markers. We want yours to be special. While "Forever in our hearts" is nice, it's on almost every marker in the cemetary. We'll put much thought into yours, it truly will be personalized.

When we got home the mail had come. Your Fedral income tax refund was among it. It was made out to "Christopher Deceased Kempa." Not exactly something you like coming home to. While I still do at least one Chris related thing a day, none of them are happy and fun like they were before you were killed. They are all very sad and glaring reminders that you are GONE and nothing will ever bring you back. I miss you and your energy Soooo much! I love you. Please keep sending us the signs! Love,
Mom
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Hi..I have a favor to ask you...Could you please tell me where I could get a Chris Kempa button? I go to Franklin High School but I'm not sure how to get one....If you could e-mail that would be greatly appreciated! Thank you very much and Lots of love!
Abby <Spunkysilver70@aol.com>
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hi chris! so the weezer cd came out last week. i bet you got a copy of it early, and you were rocking out to it. we always talk about the little girl dancing from that movie, you would have liked it. i had a christmas present for you this year, it was as john lennon figure. you were talking about it on the chicago trip. but i know that you have all that you want and more where you are now. i better get going. see you in our dreams.
moriah and marley <brokenxgirl@yahoo.com>
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i dont understand how six months have already passed. it seems as though you've been gone forever and at times i think i will see you tomorrow. i feel as though i've lived a lifetime and that i've grown up and i feel old. but sometimes its like it was all just yesterday that we met at my locker and i was late for second hour everyday! well i just want you to know that i think about you everyday and i'm sure that i always will. you have changed me so much for the better, in life and in death. you always included me. and i felt very special. Mrs. kempa you do that now also so not only do i see where he got it from, i am very grateful as well. all day yesterday whenever i thought of you i saw butterflies...and it made me smile through my tears. thank you chris. i miss you we all do. save a jones for me.
Dana <gloomypeaches8403@msn.com>
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, I was surfing the internet all night and saw the Jones Soda page info on your son. I was interested in seeing his art work. He was a very gifted young man, such beauty he created. I read every posting on your board here. I was very moved, i broke down in tears for you. You seem like a very wonderful mother and person. Chris sounds like he got that from you and your husband. I am a father of 2, I cannot imagine losing one of my own kids...My older cousin lost 2 kids at young ages in freak accidents like Chris. So i do feel deeply for you. I will have my Cousin look at this page. Her and her husband had a really hard time, they are Christians and found that turning the pain over to God helped them alot. But i will let Janet tell you her own feelings. What i'd like to share with you is this, Your son Chris is still painting. I live in Seattle on the water, the Sunset was so beautiful tonight. I believe your son painted the sunset. And that is why i ended up on your site. He did a wonderful job, he is painting for God now. And i believe he is letting you know. You have really touched my heart, I hope you find comfort in his passing. I am 41 years old and have lost both of my parents,not a day goes by that i don't think of them. I am so very very sorry for your loss. Adam please have at least one child for your mother so she can be a grandmother. She sounds like she a wonderful woman. You are very lucky to have a mother like her. I miss my mother so much. God Bless your family, and Chris keep painting wonderful sunsets for us all to enjoy.
James Read <jamesdread@home.com>
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I heard a song that is so true when you listen to the words - it sort of helps me with my feelings - it's called "Just Once More" and it's sung by the Nelson Brothers.
A Mom
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Mrs Kempa, You dont know me but I know Chris friend Jason. I read in this guest book before that you had a butterfly visit you before and you thought it was a sign from Chris. Well a little over a year ago I had a friend who I had known my whole life kill himself. One day shortly after he died I went to his grave and started crying and I asked god to send me a sign that my friend also named Chris could see me and all the people that loved him. Right after I said that the most beatuiful butterfly came outta know where and landed on my shoulder, it then flew around me and my friends grave for like 5 min and something just told me in my mind that that was my Chris. I would like to tell you that I am very sorry for your lose. From what Jason tells me you are a very strong person I hope god and Chris help you through your hard time I'm sure that the butterfly you saw was him. I would also like to say that coming to this site in some weird way helps me deal with the death of my own friend becuase their is no web site or ne thing like this for him. Mrs Kempa I wish you the best and Chris friends too I know it's hard for all of you guys I have been through what you are going through god and Chris are watching over all of you.Best wishes to the Kempa Family and Chris friends
Christina <aeangel33550@aol.com>
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Dear Chris,

Last night I had the most wonderful/horrible dream. Wonderful in that I felt it was your way of showing me on the day that marks six months since you were killed you ARE o.k. It was not my mind playing tricks on me again. Horrible because I shouldn't have to be looking for signs. I should still be able to see for myself you're o.k. You never should have died. I hate waking up with a start in the middle of the night trying to figure out what's real and then realizing once again you are indeed gone and are never coming back. I hate it but it happens often.

I don't remember what you looked like or what you had on. I just remember you came and got me. I don't remember where I was. You said,"Mom, you HAVE to come and see this garden I've found." That's all you said but you repeated it at least four times. The next thing I knew I was standing looking at vast open areas in front of me. The lawn was the greenest, most perfect lawn I'd ever seen. It looked like a plush green carpet. It was peppered with trees of every variety known. Many were flowering. The lawn was also dotted with vibrant colored flowers of every kind known to man. The flower gardens were sculptured and perfect. When I looked to my right, I could see a stately old house off in the distance. I could also see figures of children playing on the lawn. "Isn't this the most beautiful garden you've ever seen Mom?" you said. Before I replied I looked to my left and saw a cemetary. The head stones were very clear. I don't think I answered you in the dream. The next thing I knew I was awake, trying to figure out what had taken place. I thought maybe knowing how much I loved gardens you used them to show me just a little glance at heaven and to let me know you are o.k.! This is what I choose to believe. It was a wonderful dream!

If the rest of my life passes as quickly as the last six months, we'll be together again soon. It truly seems like yesterday we were lying on the bed working on drivers Ed. questions. Ironicly, one of the last things you ever wrote was a sentence about pedestrian safety! I remember every minute of that Sunday night and the following horrible morning SO VIVIDLY! Peoples names, faces, and exactly what was said to me. It is etched in my brain forever. It is replayed more times than I'd like but I can't stop it. I have no control over it. It's like instant replay and I never know when it will start. Much of what happened after is a blur. But I will vividly remember every second from the time I woke you up that morning until we walked out of the hospital for the rest of my life!

I will miss you and love you forever! If I'm fortunate enough to some day have grand children they will know all about their wonderful "Uncle Chris" who God couldn't wait to have back in heaven. I am still so proud of you . Thank you for the butterfly....he was back today and visited me and Mrs. Allen! Love,
Mom <Notfranny@aol.com>
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Wow. 6 months, that's so hard to believe. It seems like it was just yesterday, because I remember it so vividly, but then I remember so many days going by and me thinking about you. wow.
cori
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If you own or work for a company that would like to sponsor or make a donation to the CHRIS KEMPA BENEFIT SHOW at Wilson Barn on JUNE 17th. Please email me.
Cyndi <CKBenefitShow@yahoo.com>
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Weezer on saturday night live Chris!!! did you watch it from heaven? I bet you get every channel in the world in heaven! I miss you and love you tons and bunches!
A Weezer Fan Thanks To You! <==========================>
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On Wednesday, November 22,00 the first day of the viewing, a boy gave me this poem. There was no title or author, just the poem. He said it had been found on a computer at Churchill High School. I thought it was so descriptive of Chris I said I wanted it included in the program for his funeral.

On Friday, November 24,00 the second and last day of the viewing, a girl came up to me and gave me a framed poem. It was the same poem but this time with a title and author. After I thanked her I explained about the program and apologized for not giving her credit for the poem. When it was time for the programs to go to the printer I still didn't know who the author was. Megan Discher wrote this poem as well as the one posted yesterday. I keep it in it's frame above the kitchen sink and read it often.

A BETTER PLACE

By Megan Discher

Your bright and shining smile

Is not easily forgotten

for it brightened someone's day

And made sad things not so rotten

The way you wrote a poem

The way you sang a song

The way you said hello

Never did anything wrong

Every time someone would see you

It put a smile on their face

Just to know you were happy

but now you're in a better place

A better place is where you are

even though it may seem far

Safer than you would be here

Even if it brings us tears

It hurts to think what might have been

If the time you kept was off by ten

Would you still be here with us today

We'll miss you Chris Kempa

In our hearts you will stay

In Memory of Chris Kempa

November 20, 2000
Fran Kempa
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As I cleaned my room this afternoon, I took a special look at your painting. I see it and am reminded of you every day. I miss you, Chris, just wanted to let you know that I am still thinkin of you, and praying for your family
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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~*Happy*~ By Megan Discher

Sometimes at night When I close my eyes I can see you take flight See your wings glow so bright

I can see you look up You say "don't be scared of me" I am here to protect you Be happy, dance with glee

For I am happy too Just thinking of you The way you have helped me And how you have brought me to be

Next time you're sad When you're feeling all pain Just look in the sky And watch me fly by

For I am happy too Just thinking of you And knowing that you Can be just as happy too

Mrs. Kempa, I know that this poem is not the greatest...but I was sitting just thinking of Chris, and decided to write one. I thought that you might like to read it. It made me feel better to think of him as I wrote it! I hope that you are doing well and wish you all the best...Love always,

~*Megan Discher*~
Megan <xxxx>
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This was written by one of Chris' school friends. It was given to us on that most horrible day, Monday November 20th 2000. At the time I just put it aside even though I was very touched by it. I had forgotten about it until recently when I did his room.

CHRIS KEMPA

BY EMMA DALE-HENCH

Dearet Chris, I will miss you so much. You were always so nice to me and you were a kind and loving young man. Please always look down on me and Ms. Phimister from Heaven. Chris, you were always happy and bright. May the angels guide you into Heaven and God keep you Chris. I will visit your grave every day Chris. I love you Chris.

Yours truly,

Emma Cleyre Dale Hench
Fran Kempa
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Thanks for your good wishes everyone. Chris- I DROVE out to the tri-high yesterday!! isn't that crazy! I'm finally driving,I remember we used to talk all the time about when I finally got my license...we knew that I would get mine before you, but that didn't matter. Well, to me it didn't, but you were a little bitter about it. We always said that when I got my license, that the first thing that we would do it go out to Ann Arbor and shop for houses together. That was our dream, to live in Ann Arbor. I remember the first time I ever talked to you, we realized that both of us wanted to live in New York when we got older. So, from that day forward, we were going to move to New York together! After a while we came to realize that even though New York was our first dream, it was going to be too expensive for us to live there and go to college. So, instead, we decided to move to Ann Arbor. We thought that it was the coolest city around anyway. You said that you were going to go to CCS and commute back home, and I would go to UofM. We would move in my sophmore year of college and your junior year of college. And, as soon as I got my license, we would drive out there and scope things out. I think that you'd even started to save some money. And that was our dream. Whenever we would argue (which was often) you would always ask me "Are we still going to Ann Arbor?" And, of course I would say "YES, why wouldn't we??" When you went to Chicago this year, you brought me back a few things, one of which being "red letter day" by the Get up kids. That is the CD with Anne Arbour. And from that day on, it was our theme song. We had everything planned out, from how we wanted the floor plan to look, to the fact that we were going to paint the ceiling navy blue, and put up a million of those glow in the dark stars. We would talk on the phone all night long, and whenever we ran out of things to say, we would talk about Ann Arbor, and how awesome it was going to be. I figure, one day I'll have to drive out there alone, and see if I can find the one we would have wanted. I know it's there. I LOVE YOU Chris, and I miss you
Cori <curcusenvy@aol.com>
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I thought about you Chris the other night as I putting out the Weezer CD's at 12:01. Weezer is pretty big here at our house. Weezer screen saver, new Weezer CD and Nicole spent all last week on the phone trying to win tickets to the Weezer show in Roseville. Alas, she was always caller #5. Keep a good watch over your family and friends. Summer vacation is almost here and everyone could use a little bit of your extra special care!
MCS
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, Thank you sooo much for the e-mail. Once I got it I couldn't stop crying. I miss both of them very much. I will take you up on your advice and maybe talk to you within the next week. I will let you know. To Cory, You probably don't know who I am but congrats on your drivers license. I am sure that Chris will be with you every time you get behind the wheel. Be careful. To Jenny, Chris will always help you whenever you need it. I pray to him whenever I need help. I hope he answers you every time. Love to all,
Katy <Kitten5384@yahoo.com>
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DON'T THINK I DO NOT GRIRVE

Don't think I do not feel, because you see no tears. A river rages deep inside of grief, and loss, and fears.

Just because I do not cry now, don't think that my heart's not broken. I keep inside the misery of words not to be spoken.

Sometimes I smile or crack a joke, so you won't see the pain; or notice how my hands will shake,or how I've gone insane.

Each time I think of him, my heart is ripped asunder. The loss I feel is mine alone, you will not see my thunder.
Brenda Penepent
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Chris, A few days ago I went up to the corner and left you a few things. I know it was nothing at all, but I at least had the chance to express myself. I hope you understood it. Today was the Tri-High Ruckus. That was the last time I seen you. It was strange, walking into that room again. I remember the last time so clearly and I am so lucky that I do. I just wish that you could have played it again. I wound just standing just where I had the last time; but this time you weren't directly in front of me. The WEEZER cd came out a few days ago. I bet you were excited for that, but it's a shame that you arn't here to have the chance to listen to it. I bet you are in Heaven though. I know you are. All your dreams are coming true up in Heaven. We miss you like crazy Chris. Look down on us all and help us get through the rough days, we need you too.
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hey chris, i just wanted to say thank you very much and that i love you!! today (5/16) i had an orchestra concert in the theatre. well i had a solo that i was really nervous about. before i went to play my solo, i said to chris, please help me and let me do good. well when i did my solo, i played it perfect!! i know chris was watching me from up above, helping me through every note. so thank you chris. i love you so much and i miss you. i can't wait until we are together again. goofing off and chasing each other. thanks again. i love you. love always, jenny
jenny <msbanana37@hotmail.com>
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My Mom Is A Survivor

My Mom is a survivor, or so I've heard it said. But I can hear her crying at night, when all others are in bed. I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand. She doesn't know I'm with her, to help her understand.

But like the sands on the beach that never wash away, I watch over my surviving Mom, who thinks of me each day. She wears a smile for others....a smile of disguise. But through Heaven's door I see tears flowing from her eyes. My Mom tries to cope with death to keep my memory alive. But anyone who knows her knows, it's her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving Mom....through Heaven's open door, I try to tell her that angels protect me forever more. But I know that doesn't help her or ease the burden she bears. So if you get the chance go visit her ....and show her that you care. For no matter what she says....no matter what she feels, my surviving Mom has a broken heart that time won't ever heal.
MY MOM IS A SURVIVOR <Kaye Des'Ormeaux>
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wow, there's really a lot to say. Chris was a very special person, and a great friend. It was great knowing him for the 3 years we've had together. I'm hoping to go to the cemetry to visit you soon. I go to Larry's a lot and everytime I go in there I think about all the times we would goof off at work, and it brings a smile to my face. We were all really close at Foodland, and we'll always have that special bond. I say a prayer for you everynight, hoping that your listening to me. I miss you a lot and hope that your happy where your at, because thats all that matters to me. I hope you never for get the fun bus rides we had together to the career center, you were acting really goofy that day:) (Nov.17th) I remember calling you a crackhead, and all you did was smile at me. You'll always be very special to me, and I will never forget you. I can't wait until that day comes where I can see you again. I love you and your family. Please watch over all of us and your family. Take Care. Love you buddy :)
Dawn Balint <RdoggO69@cs.com>
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It's been almost 6 months since Chris' death. Yet, not a day goes by when I don't think o him. But lately he's been on my mind more and more. Today is the Tri High Ruckus...too bad Chris isn't here to perform again. It would have been a blast... I met him at the Autumn Bash last October...it was a great show. Tonight at the Tri High we will be honoring Chris with a moment of silence. ...I only wish I could have known him longer. Every time I come to this site, I am more and more amazed by the work that is posted. Even the comic book from when he was younger. At least he is in a better place now...happy and watching over all of us.
A friend <BumbleBuzzie@yahoo.com>
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Congratulations to Cori Smith! Scott tells me as of today you are an official driver! Chris would have been so proud of you! I know he will watch over you as you journey behind the wheel. BE SAFE!! Love,
Mrs. Kempa
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as a student that had no relation with this young man, i would like to spend this time to send my condolences. my friend told me to look at this site and it is truly inspiring for me. my friend passed on this past summer and his death really hit the community and the school hard. but it brought people from every social group with totally different interests to unite as just people. no one knows what its like to lose something until it happens and that is the terrible truth. the only thing i have left to say is that chris's passing should never be forgotten and can only be a wake up call for all whos never felt the pain of losing a loved one. never forget him, and what he accomplished, for he is an inspiration to all. much love.
sander <sander2001@yahoo.com>
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HEY MOM, I'M STILL HERE

Hey Mom, I know you are hurting, I see your pain and your tears. I want to hold you and just tell you, Hey Mom, I'm still here.

I have never lost a child but I feel the pain of your loss. Oh,I loved your child too Mom. Can I help you carry this cross?

You know that you still have me and I thank God I am still alive. I want to be like you Mom,I want to learn how to survive.

I may not accept the loss, but I'll be here when you cry. I don't know what to do for you, but if you help me, I'll try.

I lost someone that I love too Mom ,it's a pain I feel each day. My best friend throughout my life....my brother has suddenly passed away.

Today when I write this to you...I feel the wet drop of a tear. For when I think about your loss Mom...I Say, "Hey Mom, I'm still here!"
Author Unknown
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mrs. kempa, happy mothers day!! sorry it is a day late. i was at cedar point and i got home at 2:00 in the morning. and then i slept until 4:00 and was at work at 5:00. so i hope that you had a very wonderful mothers day. lots of love always and forever, jenny
jenny <msbanana37@hotmail.com>
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We felt the gentle presence of Chris at the Players banquet on Friday...we knew that he was watching over us...so we sent greetings back up to him as a group! He will always be a special part of our family and we are proud to say that. We miss him and love him very much. Mrs. Kempa~keep the faith and know that your beautiful butterfly friend was a Mother's Day gift from Chris~ You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday...Love, Ms. Hillman ~Ms. Hillman
Ms. Hillman
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Dear chris- yesterday I went to your mom's house and delivered our gift to her, I know you weren't here to help give it in person but you were here in spirit and memory. She liked it, don't worry. My mom met her and they chatted a little about plants then we left. Do you remember that day that me, you and jen walked home from school to your house and I told you my uncle was mving in near you guys and that whenever I went to their house that I would come over to your house? Well I told your mom and that whenever I visit my uncle that I am going to walk overto your house to see your mom and just plain hang out! I won't be able to hang out with you but I will be close to those you loved the most and with those that I care about. I will feel reassured and calm knowing that I will be in a place you once walked in. I miss you so much that my mom thinks that I am cutting people out of my life.........what do you think? I know I've changed but I don't know. Sometimes I just feel like I can't talk to people about anything because they don't know, but really they probably do in some way. I get attitudy towards my mom and so bitchy and I wanna chang that and be myself again but I could only be that if you were here to help me. Why can't you come back? I asked my mom that a while ago and her reply was, "how would you like it if you got to go to heaven for a month and then got taken away until the rapture? you probably wouldn't like it, would you?" And I know that sounds reasonable but I just can't help but be selfish with you about this! I want you back, chris! you always helped me with everything. maybe I need to get a grip and start lookin at other stuff but I just can't. Well, I better go! But don't forget me, please promise you won't. I wanna be able to walk into heaven and have you run up to me with open arms! I luv luv luv you!!! Love, your friend for always and forever----->>me
"punk <rocker">
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Yesterday was a pretty tough day for Moms who have lost their children and for children who have lost their Moms. Wishing you much love and peace everyday. You are in my thoughts and in my prayers.
MCS
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Dear Chris, Guess what? I miss you like crazy right now. For the first time in almost 6 months, I went to our spot this morning. The spot where if you ever saw me crying or sad at the least little bit you would pull me over and talk to me about whatever was wrong. We have always been friends no matter what you know that right? I loved the fact that you and I could always talk about everything. I really wish you were here this past week to help me out with a few things. My life would have changed completely. Yesterday, I just sat there all day thinking about my Mom. I miss her sooo much. I hope that you two are getting to know one another. I used to talk to her about all of my friends all the time so she would know in case something happened to one, she was supposed to watch over that person until the rest of his/her family was there. I really wish that you and her have already seen each other and met. I hope that she is helping your family as much as she helps the rest of everyone else. She loved to help people. Anyway, I just sat there thinking about how much I missed her and how much I missed you. I almost picked up the phone to call your mother to wish her a happy Mother's Day possible but I realized that she would probably not have remembered me. That's okay though. I am sure we will get to know each other when the time is right. I miss you Chris. I can't believe that God would want to take you away so early, but if that is his wish, it must be done. I hope that Mommy is doing okay. I haven't talked to her in a long time. I just really wish that I could see both of you again. I would rather be with you two than anyone else in the world. I have tried really hard to not cry yesterday. But I always cry in May. Partly cause my birthday was May 3rd and then Mother's Day. Usually I have such a good birthday. You know me and Moriah have the same birthday right? Well she and I weren't really feeling like it was the funnest. Partly because both of us wanted you to be there so bad. I really hope that your with your mom all the time. And your brother and father too. They all need to know that your okay so bad. 6 months is a very long time Chris. I hate to say this but, Where did the time go? It seems still like yesterday, I was just at your funeral. I am really sorry that I didn't go to the funeral home to say goodbye. I couldn't bear to see you in those clothes though. You weren't a person to dress like that and I wanted to say goodbye to you, not your physical being. I also heard from some people that you didn't even look like yourself. I couldn't just cope with that either. You know, now that I think about it, I never said goodbye to my Mommy either. She was cremated. I haven't visited you two in a long time. Maybe I will just go and have Sanish take me to the Cemetary today. You know that you aren't that far away from Mom. She is in the building off to the side. I went to go and see your grave on February 14th and it scared me because there was just two stakes in the ground that said your name. So I was the one to leave all those roses. I remember that in 7th grade you once brought me roses to cheer me up one day. Right fresh out of a lawn somewhere. You said that fresh flowers out of the ground were always the prettiest than those store bought ones. I laughed so hard at that. Anyway, I do have to go now Chris. But I love you. I miss you. And I hope that you are watching over all of us. Espacially your mom. She misses you sooooo much. To the family: I hope that you all are feeling much better. Don't worry about Chris. My mom is watching over him. Love you all.
Katy <kitten5384@yahoo.com>
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To the Kempa Family : I wanted to let you know you are still always in my thougts and prayers...Chris is always on my mind, he is missed and loved very much! Happy Mother's Day...and may God be with you today :)
...::a friend::....
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Mother's Day Chris,...While I can't honestly say it's my first with out you .....I did celebrate five with Adam before you were born. I can honestly say however, it is the saddest. I'm afraid every holiday and special event for the rest of my life will be clouded by sadness. I'm sitting in the cemetary as I write this under the willow tree right by your grave. Off to my left is the pond, they have the fountains on today,it's beautiful. But right in front of me is your still fresh looking grave and that is not beautiful. A couple of older women have already approached me. Looking at the freshness of the grave one said," your mother must have died recently" "yes" I said, "it was recent but it was my son, not my mother." She put her hand over her mouth and said,"oh my" and walked away not quite knowing what to say. Another elderly woman asked," visiting your mother?" and I replied,"No actually, my son" She said "Oh dear, he must have been very young" And I said, "Yes, just sixteen" and we both started crying. There are so many people here today, it truly resembles a park. People are roller blading, biking, and walking their dogs. I do hope you like it, I think you do. The ducks and geese are around too. Next time maybe I'll bring cheerios. Remember how we would feed the ducks at Hines Park when you were little?

I'm wearing the black turtle neck sweater we bought at Old Navy as part of your going back to school clothes.I took it over right after you were killed.I didn't buy you much,just this sweater, another one and the jeans you were killed in. I wanted to buy you more that day but you were in a hurry .....big plans of some kind or other. So you said, "This is fine Mom, it's plenty." So we left and you were on your way. It's hard to believe the school year you barely started is almost over and you've been gone almost half of a year. I try to think what you'd be doing now.....what we'd be doing. You might be driving now I don't know. We'd be thinking about Senior pictures and you would have attended the Players banquet the other night. Your art and computer graphics would have grown some more and you'd be preparing for Camp Portfolio at CCS this summer....you couldn't wait for that! You were so looking forward to Senior year. We even found where you had written in one of your note books,"Can't wait to be a Senior!"

A few weeks ago at the Compassionate Friends balloon launch we attached messages to our balloons. I wrote, "Do you miss us as much as we miss you?" After I let mine go I thought,"Oh God. I hope not" That would be much too painful. I wouldn't want you to feel even a fraction of the pain we're feeling. I hope you are blissfully happy. I keep looking for the signs and I'm starting to see them!

Over the years, during my frequent conversations with Mrs. Allen....most about our kids, once in a while the subject of "what would we do if anything ever happened to one of our kids?" would come up. We didn't dwell on the subject, it was much too uncomfortable to think about. But each time we would arrive at the same conclusion. If anything ever happened to one of our kids we would just die. Then I would always say,"Now Claudia, we just have to trust, we have to trust that they'll be ok." Dad always said I was too trusting and now I believe him. Since Nov. 20th I have lost complete trust in many people and many things. The cruel joke is I didn't die. I just felt like I did and have been sentenced to live the rest of my life with two bricks tied to my heart and my insides ripped out. I never worried about you walking to school. When you went off in your friends cars I worried. When you went on long trips with out us I worried, but not when you walked to school.

I never really cared what people thought of me. I taught you and Adam to be the same. Go with your heart and do what's right for you. I care even less now. We still go to the Memorial every night to light candles and I'm sure that irks some people. My response to them is a big,"OH WELL" I want the world to know you're still thought of...even if it's just our little world. I think some people thought that morning you were "just some kid" and you'd be forgotten in a week or two. What they didn't realize at the time was you were MY kid. The sweet,gentle,multitalented boy who had inspired and was loved by so many. A boy who at sixteen had accomplished much more than most people accomplish in their liftime. WE will NEVER let you be forgotten.

I still get the occasional,"are you over it yet?"And when I reply, "No I'm not" some reply, "really..still??" I don't bother to respond but I am positive I will never get over it. Used to it maybe, I hope, but never over it. I will always feel cheated out of the future you lost and as a result the future I lost. What a waste of talent and such a kind, loving boy.

I've come to realize the most tragic victim in this whole horrible ordeal , besides you of course is Adam. Not only did he lose his little brother and only sibling but truly his best friend. A part of him died that day too. No one will ever know him like you did. He also has to live and deal with permanently altered parents. In the future when we're gone his immediate family will be gone. Rob was over the other night and while I didn't hear the whole conversation I heard him say,"My brother is...." Then and there it hit me. The only way Adam can ever refer to you is in the past tense," My brother was....." The only thing he can say about you in the present tense is," My brother is dead." And there is no future tense, there's nothing new to report about a dead boy and that breaks my heart. He also has to shoulder the burden of all the hopes and dreams we have as parents for our children. If he does have children they'll have no uncle, aunt or cousins form their father's side. Everytime he leaves the house now I have an anxiety attack. Not to the point I'd ever tell him he couldn't do something. I'd never interfere with his life that way but to the point where I don't relax until I know he's safe. Once you've lost one, it becomes a horrible reality that you COULD lose another. That truly would do me in, I would give up. As it turns out, no one will be graduating in 2002. Adam was so devastated by your death he dropped all of his Engeneering classes last semester. I encouraged him to do so. Who could concentrate on such intense subjects with a hole in your heart? I'm glad now he won't be graduating that year. If he did it would have been over shadowed by sadness. We wouldn't have been able to help feeling Chris should be graduating too and the party was to have been for two. The only good thing about this whole tragedy where Adam is concerned is I think it will be easier for him to accept my death. If I am able to speak to him at the time I can say,"Don't be sad, I'm going to see Chris and I'm happy" I know that will comfort him.

Our tradition on Mother's days past was to wash and put out the deck and porch furniture. You were always willing to help with that chore. That meant we were getting close to opening the pool! The house is still so quiet without you. You truly were the energy. I still cry every day. Some days for a few minutes and some days for hours.I think about you all the time and miss you every day. Keep sending me the signs. Most days they help and then some days nothing helps. I promise I will live out the rest of my life so you'd be proud of me, just as you lived your much too short life so I was always proud of you. I will love you for a life time and beyond and keep your spirit alive......I promise! Love,
Mom
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Dear Fran, The symbol for "resurection", or life after death, is the butterfly. You are not the first person who has said they have been visited by a butterfly who would stay with them for hours. You are not losing your mind Fran. Working for Angela Hospice where the symbol of the butterfly is every where you look, you can believe me when two or three, sometimes four people in one day hears a voice calling their name and we ask out loud, "who keeps calling me"? We all look at each other and smile as we wonder outloud who has come to visit us today? Yes, I'm sure that was Chris in the garden, a place you both love very much. The more you believe in these "visits" the more frequent they will occur. What a wonderful Mothers Day gift Chris has given you. Love to ALL of you,
Nancy
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Mrs Kempa I just wanted to take a moment to wish you a happy mother's day. I know that Chris loved you very much, and I can tell just what a wonderful mother you are. Hope you have a wonderful day
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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Mrs. Kempa, We've never met, but I'm a friend of Adams. Knowing how much he loves and admires you, I'd just like to wish you a peaceful Mother's Day.
sarah fabian <nevendmath@aol.com>
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Dear Fran, Thank you for displaying the very beautiful hand-made card from a Mother's Day gone by. It's a beautiful treasure of a loving bond that you shared. I only wish he was still here to give you your wish in person today, but I know he is with you always even if you cannot see him at this time. The butterfly story and the photograph today are also lovely. I know you were going to the cemetary. I called you this afternoon and suspect that's where you'd gone when I got the answering machine. God Bless. LOVE, Kathy
Kathy
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Dear Fran, I know you'll find some peace and love today....you're just that kind of person. You have been so strong through your grief and sadness. KNOW that Chris is with you today and always....he loved you so much and still does!
A Friend Who Loves You Very Much <Don't Want Any Unwanted Mail>
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Happy Mother's Day Mrs. Kempa. See, i said that even though Chris isn't here to tell you Happy Mother's Day to you, he'll be here in someway of form on this day to let you know that he still loves you. I think that butterfly was Chris in some form to let you know he's still here. Well gotta go. Love Always, Katie B.
Katie B.
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Today's "Art" (5/13/01....Mother's Day) is obviously a card Chris made for me one year. Unfortunatly, I don't recall what year. I would guess maybe fourth grade. He made me many cards over the years but I'm very sorry to say I saved very few and now I regret that very much. But who knew.

Today's picture was taken in late August last year. We were in Buffalo for my parent's 50th Wedding Anniversary, less than three months before he was killed. That's the second last picture we had taken together. The three of us were SO CLOSE.

Yesterday I worked in the garden for a good three hours. There was a butterfly that stayed with me the whole time. At one point it even landed on my sweatshirt. I told my husband it was Chris. At first I know he thought I was crazy again. But every time he came out the butterfly WAS STILL THERE! At one point we went out front and the butterfly followed. I think even my husband was convinced in the end! And believe me, he's a tough one to convince.
Fran Kempa
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I can imagine how hard of a day this must be for you. But if little messages from Chris don't seem to be coming to you today I'm sure its because he is right there with your family...but it's just hard to tell. May your day be as wonderful as possible. You and your family are in my prayers each day.
Dear Mrs. Kempa: <blondbabe1385@yahoo.com>
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, My thoughts and prayrs are with you daily as I'm sure many others are too. On this mothers day know that Chris is looking over you and loving you more than ever. I know that you are loved by many and a lot of the kids love you like a mom, so I know you will be surounded by lots of love today. Love, Jill
Jill Sandulowich <Jlsandul@aol.com>
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Mrs.Kempa! I know its not much, but I just want you to know that every single one of Chris' friends (and theres LOTS of us) are thinking about you. Happy Mother's Day Love- US! <3
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We hold them in our parent arms for days or weeks or years. Now we hold them in our hearts and cry the darkest tears.

The cord attached to children, eternally fine and strong. We never leave the missing; It holds us all life long.

Our children now inside us - our souls tattooed with gold. Their love,their words, caresses, are hugs that we still hold.

If we open to the knowledge, that they aren't completely gone, we will sometimes feel their touching, sometimes soft and sometimes stromg.

When they show us nature's rainbows, we can feel their proud delight,sending signs to show they're living,only far beyond our sight.
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Dear Mrs. Kempa- I pray that the Lord will comfort you in your time of sadness, depression, and maybe hate! We all love you, and I hope your mother's day goes better than you think it will, Yes it will be hard I bet but you do know that you are still chris' mother and he your son, he loves you and always will I know! He's just not here to tell you in words that you can actually hear (which would be way better!) he's cellebrating it up there with his heavenly father. And I am sure that you will cherish the time with adam tommorrow. I put a little something together for you and hope to get it to you soon!!! I've been waiting until I could, I get impatient when I have something I wanna give to someone. When I went on line to see the site, I didn't expect to see the painting! It was really odd, because I almost didn't go on but then something told me I should it just happens that I go on the day you posted it! I am glad that you like the painting! I couldn't go to sleep one night after his death so I had to get my anger and love and sadness out without waking up my parents. so I painted and then it occurred to me "Mrs. Kempa" I always wanted to do something for you before that but it never entered my mind totally. You and your family will always remain in my thoughts and prayers! I love you all. Love in Christ-->>a friend
"punk <rocker">
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Fran: God Bless You today and give you the strength you need for a very special Mother's Day. We think of you often and hope each day well get easier. You and your family have been a very special friend to Franklin High School.
A Friend of a Franklin Friend
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Dear Ms. Kempa, All thought I have never actualy met you....I have wanted to say somthing to you, however I never knew what to say. And today I would like to wish you a happy mothers day! Chris was such a wonderful friend and person!! I am lucky that he was a part of my life and he will always hold a place in my heart! I love ya Chris!!!!! Love Erin!
Erin <Eringrl2001@yahoo.com>
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Happy Mother's Day Fran. Hoping that Chris and all the kids and Moms who have gone before us paint the skies with a beautiful day to behold everyone's cherished memories of their loved ones.
Mary Stanczyk <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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Today's painting (5/12/01)was not done by Chris but of Chris,shortly after he was killed.It was done by his good friend and fellow artist Moriah Nixon. She gave it to me during the Memorial controversy just when I needed a lift. I think she did a wonderful job and even though I thanked her then, I thank you again Moriah! That was so thoughtful.

Today's picture is of a garden stone given to me yesterday by my dear friend Nancy Leist. It's difficult to read on the page,it says: IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY AND MEMORIES A LANE, I'D WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN AND BRING YOU HOME AGAIN. I'm sorry I missed you yesterday Nancy, you were right though, the first thing I did after I read it was cry! I've picked out a spot in the pool yard for it. A place we both loved so much. He loved the pool, I loved the garden. I know I'll be talking to you soon. Thank you so much for such an unexpected, wonderful gift. It was truly yesterday's "hello from Heaven" Love,
Fran Kempa
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Dear Fran: Our thoughts are with you this Mother's Day....as always, With Love,
JoAnne and Bill
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Letter To Mom

Mom, please don't feel guilty, It was just my time to go. I see you are still feeling sad, and the tears just seem to flow.

We all come to earth for our lifetime and for some it's not many years. I don't want you to keep crying, you are shedding so many tears.

I haven't really left you, even though it may seem so. I have just gone to my Heavenly home and I'm closer to you than you'll know.

Just believe that when you say my name I'm standing next to you, I know you long to see me, but there's nothing I can do.

But I'll still send you messages and hope you understand, that when your time comes to "cross over", I'll take you by the hand.
Happy Mothre's Day <>
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He was my son - He was my best friend forever. Not long God's had his precious soul, though it seems as if forever.

I wish I'd been his soul-pilot,to guide him gently on his way. And when we'd got to Heaven,I do believe I'd stay.
He Was My Son <John Tidball>
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I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard Him say.

A Mother has a baby this we know is true but God can you be a Mother when your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can He replied with confidence in His voice. I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a life time and others for a day and some I send to feel your womb but there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this God, I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared his throat and then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile with other children and say;

"We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear. My Mom loved me so much I got to come straight here."

"I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me,I learned my lesson very quickly my Mom set me free."

I miss my Mom oh so much but I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep on her pillow's where I lay."

"I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear, Mom don't be sad today,I'm your baby and I'm here."

So my dear sweet one, your child is ok. He is here in My home and this is where he'll stay. He'll wait for you with Me until your lesson is through. And on the day that you come home he'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother, it's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of right from the very start.
Author Unknown
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What a great idea to split the scholarship! This way Chris is helping two other artists. Thoughts and prayers with you all always.
A Franklin Parent
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I was just wondering if anyone knows when the plaque will be put up in cemetary? thanks
a friend <->
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, I was just hoping to wish you the happiest Mother's Day possible. That is definitly hard, I know. I hope you feel better Mrs. Kempa. Chris wouldn't want you to not be happy. Love always, Katy
Katy <kitten5384@yahoo.com>
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There were two applicants for the first annual Christopher Kempa Memorial Art Scholarship. Both cover letters mirrored Chris' love of art. It was clear it was their heart just as it was Chris'. The examples of art work each submitted were exceptional. As a result, the committee found the selection very difficult.

The final decision was made to split the Scholarship. Each applicant will recieve a one-time $500.00 award. While this may not be the case in future years, this year we are very happy with the decision.

Mr. Kempa, Adam and I would like to congratulate Marty Moszcynski and Jaclyn Devericks. I know Chris is smiling down on both of you girls.I hope he will be an inspiration to you in your future pursuits in the art field. We hope to see you both May 30th at Honors Night. Congratulations again. Love,
Mrs. Kempa
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I know it's like a cupple days early but I just want to say Happy Mother's Day to Mrs. Kempa. I hope everything will be alright since you have one less family member in your house to tell you these words "Happy Mother's Day mom" I know it will be hard for you to not see Chris there to say those words to you...but i know he will tell you either in anything that reminds you of him or in your dreams. My thoughts, love and support goes out to you. Love Always, Katie B.
Katie B.
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I will chares the picture you gave mrs.Kempa and it will go into my collection of clipings that I have from the accadent and will never forget any one of his lesons he has though me and his friends. I hope who ever got the Chris Kempa shoclar schip uses it wisly. I will always know what he wanted to do in life and I have some picutes he took and those are so pricles and so good they have so much feeling in them. I hope you can pull through this sunday. I know the one day I will not be able to go completly through without crying is his birthday however I will go see him as much as I can over the summer. I will always love him with all my heart and will keep you and your family in my heart forever.
cid swarthout <sonofadamlover@yahoo.com>
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hey chris. hows heaven going. im sure ur happy up there but we are so sad down here without you. everybody trys to think that you wont want us to cry but we just cant help the tears. your parents told me the Chris Fest is set for june 17. thats so cool. i talked to dan and he told me all the bands that are playing. its gonna be huge. man chris, our junior year is almost over. we would be seniors next year and you would get your car. wed all graduate together and have a great time. it would be tough say goodbye at graduation, but not as tough as this goodbye. i mean when we graduated we could talk on the phone and visit, but now all we have is memories and friends. high school is going by so fast and i cant believe that in a few months ill be a senior. i cant believe your not going to be there on graduation day. now i have no idea why this graduation thing came up i just think it and write it. i just wish you would be able to graduate with us in 02. im sorta scared to graduate next year and leave everyone, but it will be cool. there are many memories and many of you. i know when i graduate in a year and a month ill move away and miss everyone and may forget alot of people, but i will still miss you the most and will never forget you. i wont see you for a while, god willing, but when i do it will be great just like back in "the day" man chris its just sad to think you wont be there with us all at the graduation parties and what not. we will definately throw you a huge party next year. i miss you buddy. dont think that i dont think about you everyday. we all miss you chris. Happy mothers day mrs Kempa. i know it will be your worst one yet but you had the best son ever!! you should and im sure you are proud to have raised such a kid. chris take care of your mom dad and brother and i cant wait to see your smiling face again when we chill in heaven. im waitin for that day when we meet again. i love you buddy and i miss you more than you will ever imagine. keep shinin down buddy love woody
jason <avsrule1449@aol.com>
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Dear Cindy,

Thank you for your Mother's Day wishes. I can honestly say it will be the saddest, worst Mother's Day I've ever celebrated but some how I will try to make the most of it.

We met this afternoon at Franklin to determine the recipient of the Chris Memorial Art Scholarship. The results will be announced at Franklin tomorrow and on the web site this weekend. I'm very pleased the way things went and I know Chris is too.

Cindy, I gave Mr. Rheault the picture of Chris you've waited so long and patiently for. If he forgets to give it to you please ask him for it. Love,
Mrs. Kempa
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You will always be in my heart and I will aways look to you for advice in what ever I need help with and I need a lot of help. To Mrs.Kempa thank you for rising chris the way you did he was the best friend a girl could ask for and want and from what I heard he was the best son and brother. so from the bottom of my heart have a happy mothers day and I hope you stay the way you are
cid Swarthout
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I just want to say that I am very excited about the Roadside Memorial Plaque; the photo of it is awesome. I am anxious to see it in person next time I'm in Michigan. I know the recipient of the very first Chris Kempa memorial art scholarship will be truly blessed and honored. How wonderful that there will be another memorial benefit concert next month ! What a wonderful group of teens. Finally, to the author of today's poem, I WISH. Thank you for such a poignant, thought-provoking poem. Most of us do not know the emotional journey that my sister walks. I shared the poem with a co-worker whose 19 year old daughter died in a car accident last weekend. Wren's mom is just beginning her journey that Fran has been on for nearly 6 months. LOVE and Blessings.
Aunt Kathy <mskatep@aol.com>
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hEY CHRIS-guess what! I went to my first "elliott" show on sat! It was awesome! I didn't really even know that they were gonna be there, I just went for "the Juliana Theory" and when I got there my friend steve and justin told me that "elliott" was there too. I was hoping to get a hoodie like yours that says "kentucky elliott" but they didn't have one so I got a baseball tee instead. I wish I could show it to you! I miss ya tons. I put the photo of you that your mom gave me by the head of my bed so I can look at it whenever I start to forget your face...............don't worry I never fully do, but it's just that after a while of not seeing someone your image of their face sort of changes in a way......ha ha I am probably making absolutley no sense am I? HA Ok well, I luv luv luv you so much! LATER------>>moriah Mrs. Kempa- I was wondering if I could stop by on firday the 11th? I made you something. I will have to bring it over before 4:30 unless you aren't home, because I have to go to my church for a meeting for my missions trip. Or if I can't then could I bring it over after 9 on saturday? If not that's ok, just wondering, but I WILL get it to you sooner or later! I hope you like it! Oh!! My mom says "hi" she tells me to say "hi" all the time, but I always forget to write to you! I luv you and you will ALWAYS be in my prayers--ALWAYS! Ditto, Adam, and Mr. Kempa. I guess I will talk to you later, Laove in Christ>>moriah
punkrocker <sk8erchic02@juno>
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We will be meeting at Franklin tomorrow ,(5/9) to choose the recipient of the first Chris Kempa Memorial Art Scholarship! I'm very anxious to see all the great work and who the recipient will be. I know Chris will be with us too, guiding the process along.
Fran Kempa
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I Wish

I WISH..you would feel free to speak my son's name, don't remove his memorabilia or his photo from your frame.

I WISH.. you would understand I have tears to shed. It's not what you've done nor what you may have said.

I WISH..that you would know when I have a real bad day, I don't need counseling nor for you to stay away.

I WISH..you knew the frustration, depression and hopelessness I sometimes feel. His death plays an important part in how I cpoe and deal.

I WISH..you knew the passing of a child is viewed seperatly from another,that cannot be compared with the loss of a sister or a mother.

I WISH..you could understand that I am in no way a contagious disease; so if you have kept away from me;in comfort, together we could feel at ease.

I WISH..you understood the physical reactions that I'm going through...gaining weight, sleepless nights to you these are just a few.

I WISH..you would still remember that my son is still around. His soul will always be with us; only his body is in the ground.

I WISH..you to still say a prayer on the anniversary of his death, on the holidays in between, on the day we celebrate his first breath.

I WISH..you wouldn't console us with your invitations to party out, this would be a temporary crutch, that is not what healing is all about.

I WISH..you would understand I must get through this sorrow I feel. I must experience it to the fullest, I must feel hurt before I can heal.

I WISH..you wouldn't put a time on the healing of my grief, the first few years will be traumatic, like an alcaholic recovery is never brief.

I WISH..you understood that grief changes people and they will never be the same again. If you're waiting for that person to return your waiting could be in vain.

I WISH.. that our questioning of values and beliefs will not be inspected. I will have many traumatic days, it is part of grief that is to be expected.

I WISH..you took the time to get to know the new me. I am not the same person I was before my son died, I have new aspirations, thoughts and dreams, I know you could like me if you really tried!
TCF
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Today's picture (5/7) was also taken in Chicago 11/9/00.Who would have ever guessed we'd only have him for 11 more days! That sweet face is gone from this earth now and I'll never be the same.
Fran Kempa
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I was never one of the lucky people to be part of Chris's life but my boyfriend was he worked with Chris and went to school with and. I read the site and just could not stop crying I know what it's like all to well to lose a close friend last year I had someone very close to me die. And I havent been the same since my heart goes out to the Kempa family and friends.You may think that you will never get over something like this and you never will Chris will always be a part of you in lasting memories.You will learn to life life one day at a time and always know that their is an angel watching over you.My thoughts and prayers go out to Mr and MrsKempa and Chris's friends*~
Christina <aeangel33550@aol.com>
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My Beautiful Brother

You were my best friend, my other half. Every night I dream of your beautiful smile and laugh. My heart aches for you every day, God why did you have to take my brother away? Even though we are physically apart, your soul and spirit remain in my heart. I know one day we will be together again, and I will be heart broken and sad until then.
Mary Elizabeth Herrick <In Loving memory Of Steven Michael>
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Just wanted to let you know the memorial plaque is really beautiful. It is comforting to know the plaque will always be at the memorial site just like chris will ALWAYS be in our hearts and memory. No one can take that away. Love Claud
Claudia Allen <CLU455>
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The picture today of Chris's memorial plaque is very nice. I am so happy that it is finally a reality. Something permanent to remind everyone of a wonderful human being. Lot of love always Chris.
JoAnne <jgvpri@aol.com>
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Just when you get excited about ONE benefit show this summer...another comes along! More info to come!
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A Mother's Tear

A single tear trickles down my cheek,

It tells a tale I dare not speak.

Of days gone by that have been stilled,

It tells of dreams left unfulfilled.

It's wetness holds "What might have been."

Not going to the Senior Prom,

No more, "I love you Mom."

No cap and gown on graduation day,

NO wedding bells in the month of May.

No more family birthday celebrations.

No voting for the leader of our nation.

Gone the dream of horse and farm.

Never mine to hold his babes in arm.

You followed the path of my lonely tear.

It speaks of the one that I hold most dear.

Now, you'll hear this mother cry,

Why God, did my son die?
Karen Bell
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You forgot the S
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I'll have to visit chris's grave too....
A. K.
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Hello Chris. Today Jenny, Kelly and I went you visit you at the cemetary for the first time. The lady knew right where you were without even looking. I guess you must have had lots of visiters. Even though, we still had a hard time finding you because there was no marker. Just a rectangle of dirt. It looked do lonly. I couldn't believe that that's where you are now. The grave looked so new. Like you were just barried. It doesn't seem like it's been five months. I hope you liked the flowers and little gifts. I didn't know what to say to you, but I think you know what I meant. I'm begining to realize more and more that your actually gone, and it makes the pain worse. I miss you so much. I will always pray for you and everyone. God bless you forever.
Janine <Heartshappedboxx@aol.com>
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ALRIGHT!!!! I'm so happy that Chris Kempa Fest is going to be in the area of Livonia! WOOHOO! It's soooo close to home! I know for sure that i'm not going to miss this one!!! Chris i know you're going to be there when this whole thing is up and ready!!! Well gotta go. Katie B.
Katie B.
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Wilson Barn is booked for Chris Fest 2001! Date and details to follow soon!
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It's so sad to think each one of those balloons in the last picture represents a child! Prayers for all of you.
A Sad Parent
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Balloon Lift

Balloons......Balloons....Gaily colored shapes of plastic and helium......Twisting and tumbling as if anxious to hurry aloft and swiftly bear Our special thoughts and personal messages. With tears and markers we gently inscribe Names, dates,hearts, hugs.We kiss the smooth surfaces.....feverishly wishing that they could be instead....the living flesh of certain dear faces. On many a wing and a prayer We hoist our bouncy emissaries way beyond reach....into the azure desert sky, Then strain our sight to watch till not the smallest speck remains visable.Though in our minds eye we see them still.....our precious messages..tender thoughts are conveyed- oh so carefully....via the iridescence of God's atmosphere.....flowing smoothly from our hearts and minds....on the whispered stirrings of angel's wings....Arriving safely....to lovingly reach and touch the eager and receptive souls Of our beloved children.
Vicki Douglas-Otto <TCF Tuson, Az.>
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Today's picture was yesterday's "Hello From Heaven." The balloon launch last night was very beautiful but very emotional. I loved the idea of sending a message to Chris, but having to do it that way really hurts. I'd so much rather walk into his room, give him a hug and tell him whatever it is I need to in person.
Fran Kempa
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This is a poem that I wrote for chris a few days after he died an I finally feellike I can share it with you. Goodbyes By: Laura Evans No more smiles, no more laughter N more hugs from this day after My friend is lost, no an angel in the sky I’m left here alone, to cry Why did you disappear, why did you go away TO a place where you must stay You died today, by someone’s hand They said they have done everything then can But it’s too late and you’re gone…. Pain the last picture for me, not that you’re gone Pain it in the sky, write it in a song Sketch the shapes, to be your face Draw and shade in the perfect place Send it in the wind, telling me it’s you As a shape with the backround so blue Oh angel friend that I once knew Why did this have to happen to you? You disappeared and went away To a place where you must stay I’m missing you already Through you haven’t been gone long I know it wasn’t your choice to leave So I mist now keep strong You where a great friend to me Through our tough times You where they’re when I called And time of laughter I now find
Laura <AshenRose18@aol.com>
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The big Nankin Mill Pavillion in Hines Park costs $100 to rent for a day 9am-9pm(8pm?). There is electricity, when it works properly. Parking there and across the street at the Nankin Mill. Park closes at 10pm. It's the most popular pavillion for large crowds and gets booked fast. It also floods after a good rain!
MCS
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I think having the Chris Fest at Wilson barn or Hines Park would be a great idea! I think at Hines you could hold more people then you would at Wilson Barn...but you have to ask the city of Westland if it's alright to do something like that at a park. Chris: Sup Chris? I've been thinking about you a lot lately, more then i ever had. I went into Ms. Hillman's room today to say hi to her like i normaly do now, and she had the veriety show tape going and Scott and Calebs' performance of magic was on...just watching it again almost put me into tears...but i didn't want to cry infront of everybody in the room. But everyday that i see something that reminds me of you, i know in away it's you saying hi to me and telling me that your alright...i like those little reminders from you everyday. Well Chris i gotta go. I love you and i miss you. The Kempa family my prayers, love and support is always with you guys! Mrs. Kempa i'm happy that you're doing alright! Talk to you later Chris! Love, Katie B.
Katie B.
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I just wanted to say that Caleb and Scott did a beautiful job singing and playing "Magic" at the Variety Show...I had tears streaming down my face before Scott even started to sing. I know that Chris was there with us that night...I miss you buddy, more than you will ever know. Mrs. Kempa~you have been in my prayers...just wanted you to know that I've been thinking about you. Is there any way that I could possibly get a copy of the picture from Chicago? Well, Chris, I miss you and love you tons. Hope everyone has a safe spring evening. Michele
Michele <shelly613@hotmail.com>
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Bless you Sara Casper for today's "Hello From Heaven." It came in today's mail....another picture! Taken fall of Sopohmore year during IS THERE A COMIC IN THE HOUSE. It's a picture of Chris,Zach Storey and David Stollings. Sara, it really brightened my day and made me feel better. Thank you so much! If anyone else stumbles across any Chris pictures PLEASE send them my way! LOVE,
Mrs. kempa
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I agree with Ryan, the Wilson Barn would be a fantstic place to hold the benefit. What about somewhere in Hines Park?
corinne <curcusenvy@aol.com>
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Dear Chris,

Today (5/2) is the day you would have started asking your most pressing question for the month of May."Mom, when are we going to open the pool??" My reply to you would have been the same as in previous years,"in a few weeks." We'll still open it this year but it won't be used much. It has to be the coldest pool in the world but that never stopped you. Lips blue, teeth chattering I'd ask,"Don't you want to get out?" and you always replied, "No Mom, it's nice." I'm glad we had it for you to enjoy for nine summers.

Thank you for protecting Adam last week. Even though they totaled his car, thank God (and you) he was unharmed.....You'd like his new car! Who knows, by now you might have been able to drive it but I bet he wouldn't let you!

Tonight is our Compassionate Friends meeting. We're doing the annual balloon launch in memory of you....be watching for them O.K.?? I love you,
Mom
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I'll have to check on Schoolcraft....good suggestion!
Cyndi! <ckbenefitshow@yahoo.com>
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Would Schoolcraft College be workable for a benefit?
MCS
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i am interested in helping to get the benefit show going somewhere in Livonia... has anyone considered Wilson Barn? I know that you can rent it out for things sometimes, and it wouldn't be a band place to have the show... the RSB camp could probably provide the PA and whatnot... the only thing is that it costs money to rent out the space... maybe if we worked on getting a sponsorship like was acheived in Grand Rapids, the cost would be cut a bit... also, has anyone considered the room the Tri-High Ruckus thing is held in over at Churchill? it's a great space, and there is a stage too... cyndi, email me if you want to talk about this more.
rallen <ryanrawk@hotmail.com>
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First they make them rip down the Memorial.....now they won't provide a venue for a benefit show......what kind of city DO we live in?? I thought Livonia was all about "Famlies First". That motto certainly hasn't applied to this family now has it?
Again, Sorry to be a citizen of Livonia
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Ok guys we need your help! (you too Chris!) We're looking for a place to hold Chris Kempa Fest in the Livonia area and are getting no where fast. Go out and Pull every string you can! If your dad, grandpa or whoever is a member of the Elks or VFW and can help us email me. If your aunt owns a theater, if grandma has a big yard and no neighbors, if your uncle owns an empty building/parking lot, if mom happens to work in city hall...EMAIL ME! This thing can be incredible, we just need a venue.
Cyndi! <Ckbenefitshow@yahoo.com>
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Dear Chris,

TODAY IS MAY DAY.....HURRAY!.....exactly thirty years ago today when I was your age, 16 and a Junior in High School I first heard that phrase. My friend Cathy Pignataro and I were in a class,(I don't even remember which class)paying no attention to the Nun. (I don't even remember which Nun.) We were busily sending notes back and forth.The subject of the notes was not the date or the month, but all of a sudden she passed me one that said,"Today is May Day HURRAY!!" And I loved it! It made me smile. I know the phrase means other things to other people but to me it said the essence of Spring! It said hurray for the birds, the trees ,the flowers, the sunshine and the warmth.

Every May 1st since then I have said that many times during the day. When I firt started to say it to you when you could understand ,you thought it was dumb. You would say, "Oh Mom...." But the last two years I said it to you, you said "YEAH!" Like you were getting it, you understood,and that made me happy!I wasn't able to say it to you in person this year but I did say it to you and I know you heard me.

I hope it's always spring time where you are. I still think about you every minute of every day. I'm dreading Mother's Day...........Love,
Mom
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'Magic' is by Ben Folds Five on the album 'Rheinhold Messner'
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First off...Caleb and Scott were amazing Friday night! I envy their talent... Secondly, this is probably a stupid question, but who sings "Magic"? It was a wonderful song and a beautiful tribute to Chris... My prayers are with the Kempa family...
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chris, i spent some timer thinking about you and your family today. its been a while since ive talked to adam, other than momentarily on AIM, and i hope they are all well. i'll be shooting a DV project this summer with my fellow filmmakers of Ved Bok Entertainment, and I hope we have a bit of your creativity in the project. Hope you look down on us and grace us with your talent.
joe.cwik <joe@joecwik.com>
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Dear Chris,

4/30/01, a VERY BAD CHRIS DAY. Please help! LOVE,
Mom
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This poem was written for friends facing what must be the most painful of all events....TO LOSE A CHILD

Tears without end.....Days without nights...Night without day....Time without forgetting.....Food without taste........Sleep without rest.......Sorrow without comfort.....Pain without limit.....Emptiness without bottom........Life without.
BY SUSAN TAWIL
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hey chris. it's almost 2am. i've been sitting here for over 3 hours reading the guest book and looking at your art over and over again. I can't sleep. everytime i close my eyes, i think about you. i'm not thinking about your death though, i'm thinking about your life. you made such an impact on me. i could never thank you enough for that. you have made me a stronger person. i miss you. i can't seem to accept the fact that you are gone though. i wasn't able to go to your funeral. i just couldn't bring myself to it. funerals never help me much. i'd rather just remember you as i last saw you. i haven't been able to go to your grave yet either. i think i might soon though. i'm coming to realize what has happened and i really think i need that closure to help me accept it. not to accept that you are gone, because i know that you will always be with us, but to accept that i will never hear your voice again, never see your face. i've been avoiding going to your grave because i don't want to accept it. i keep trying to tell myself that you went on a trip, or moved, and that you've just been gone a really long time. that worked for a while. but it's been too long. i'm really starting to miss you. i've been up so many nights sitting here looking at everything. at the variety show on friday, when they sang the song and showed all your work...i couldn't hold back the tears. it's been a while since i cried. i cried a lot when the accident first happened, but i haven't allowed myself to cry in a while. i just couldn't hold it back anymore. it was so quiet in there before they began the song. it was so beautiful. and when the song ended + i tried to wipe away my tears before anyone noticed me, i glanced to either side of me + saw a row of people wiping their eyes. i could hear so many people sniffling, trying to stop their tears. i think that's when everything hit me. i couldn't hide the emotions anymore and pretend nothing had happened. i went home that night and cried for hours. i feel better though. i really do. and now i've started remembering how wonderful you were in life. i think i'll visit the memorial later this week. and maybe your grave. i really wanted to let you know why i haven't been there. i feel guilty that i can't get myself to go. i want to. i really do. it's not that i don't miss you chris...i do. i just can't do it. not yet. i will when the time is right and i am able to. but until that time, know that i am here thinking about you endlessly. thank you chris, for everything you did to change my life. i can't tell you how much you have done for me. i don't think anyone but myself will ever know. Thank you. goodnight chris. i'll see you in my dreams.
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Hey Chris, I thought I would possibly write to you today! I feel terrible I'm going to have a nervis break down at age 14! I miss you so much! I'm so tried I can't find time to sleep. I cry and I am so stressed with all my tests and projects and speeches I wish you were here right now to tell me it will be all right and everything will turn out fine. You always gave the best advice. I miss the love. When I cry and can't sleep I write poems you know all the ones about you or me or something stupid going on in my stupid life but some how you always made it easy for me to laugh at anything! I miss you more than ever and wish you were here to support me because God knows no one else is! I love you! Ginny!
Virginia Moshos <->
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Hey, Chris...I heard the talent show was a great success. I wish that I would have been able to be there to show my support to all of your friends, and to see the lovely display of all of your artwork. Unfortunatly that was also the same day that I was moving home from school, and I had a lot of packing up at the dorms. Now that I am done, I spend a lot more time thinking about you. I see your painting every day, hanging on my wall, and I can't wait till I have the time to go and get it framed. I miss you, and continue to pray for your family...lots of love
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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Chris, i never really got to know you too well,but you've managed to touch everyone in a special way. I'll never forget fingerpainting with you and kate during drawing one our freshman year. I had gone to the Talent show friday night...and i couldn't control my emotions for you're drawings...I honestly don't think that there was one person in that room that hasn't crying or trying not to. I don't think anyone will ever get over the full affect of you being gone. You'll always live on in everyone's heart at Franklin High School. Everytime we enter those doors, a piece of you is imprinted into our hearts, and you are carried on with us...and will remain their for the rest of our lives. We miss you Chris...
Kim <kitkat2984@hotmail.com>
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I want to thank all of Chris' friends for the loving and moving tributes to him last night.....those announced and those understood. Scott and Caleb......WOW! You had me crying before you even started. Cori, Paul, Sara, Jenny and Dana, thank you all so much. I hope you all know how much Chris loved you. He was many things to many people but one of the things he took great pride in was the fact that he was a true friend. Brad Allen, thank you! You did a wonderful job. Angie Hillman, what can I say? As usual you did more than your share to make it all happen. I enjoyed all the other performances too. As I've said before....so much talent! It was hard to go but I wouldn't have missed it for the world.

Katie B., I wish I'd known you were right behind us. This time instead of flowres I gave all of Chris' friends one of his pictures. It's a great picture....taken only 11 days before he was killed. Nov. 9th 2000 during the Chicago trip. Jenny Gervasi took the picture and was kind enough to lend us the negatives. We have had many copies made. I would have been happy to give you one last night too, but I'm sure I'll figure out a way to get one to you.

Thank you all again! I'm SLOWLY learnig one of the best ways to honor Chris is to keep living a full life. Love,
Mrs. Kempa
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Chris, hi buddy. I went to the talent show last night and they had Scott Allen and Celb singing a song and played a slide show in your memory. It made me cry so hard everyone in the theater was crying.We all still miss you so much Chris. Last night after going to the talent show i was thinking about you all night. I hung out with my friends after the show and they were all asking me whats wrong. I would say "I just miss my Chis" I love you chris and miss you very much!
A Friend
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Chris, Hey buddy. How's everything? I went and saw the veritety show...it was AWSOME!!! Guess what...Scott Allen and Caleb played "Magic" in memory of you and showed a slide show of all your art work. It was vary nice of them to do that...it made me cry...it made everybody cry. I got to sit behind your parents at show. But i didn't want to be rud and talk to them while the show was going on. But everything was great....you would of loved it!! I still miss you a lot Chris...today all of my emotions about you came right out in tears...i couldn't stop crying...i'm still crying right now. That shows how much i miss you and love you. Well Chris i gotta go...I love you! My prayers, love and support are with the Kempa Family...ALWAYS!! Talk to you later Chris! Love Always, Katie B.
Katie B.
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As we grow up some things can change, but my love for you will always remain. In my heart you'll stay my whole life through. My love for my brother still remains true. I'll think of you brother, till our paths meet again, so go with God he'll take care of you. And always remember my brother......I Love YOU!
Chris Steele , Marietta Ga. TCF
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From one Ben Folds Five fan to another, I know you're with the music.
lucy <lucey_ma>
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The signs are there, you just have to look for them and believe.
Day Dream Believer
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I came here from kempa.com. and i think its messed up that they are dissing chris. I hope these flammers can burn in hell
Nessbound <dreamer@nervmail.i-p.com>
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hey chris...i just felt like i had to write tonight. i hung out with shawna and amber and we talked about you all night, it was really nice. i know you're okay. ~courtney
Courtney <courtney0037@aol>
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I found it ......it's under RAGE PAGE!!
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Chris! I know you are soooo happy. Your page is linked to the Jones Soda page.....check it out......www.jonessoda.com Who did that??
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I took motherhood so seriously. I took nothing for granted. I was always thankful for what I had. And yet this happened to me.

I chose to stay with them, live through their lives closely, put my own aspirations on hold 'til they'd grown and still this happened to me.

My life was spent caring for two lovely sons who made my life in so many ways.

One day he was living, alive, well and thriving. The next he was gone to a life we can't share.

I'm learning to struggle through life and the greiving, to find ways of being that bring love and peace, and live with what happened to me.
Adapted From ;Stars In The Deepest night
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Hi, chris! Yesterday was the starting of the meap testing! Oh how fun........nr well I just wanted to let ya know that I miss you still.....I always will of course, but i had this wierd dream with you, me you and john lennon were in yur room, and we were all just having a fun time. I don't remember a lot except that it seemed so damn real! I woke up and almost thought that it wasn't a dream. I wish it wasn't but at least it made me laugh....a lot! You just joked around a lot in it! I luv ya bro!!
"punk rocker" <sk8erchic02@juno>
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To the person who still continues to write entries using someone elses name. We certainly aren't that stupid. You didn't do a very good job of it again. We do know the difference.
MCS
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Chris, HI! I miss you a lot. Latley I have been think about you more and more latley! Especialy when I got this Jones Soda bottle that has a rabbit on a motorcycle. I know you would get a kick out of it like I did! Well I hope that you are having a ball wherever you are! Love you! Erin
Erin <Wishuponastar988@yahoo.com>
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Cindy, I think that it is a great idea that you are trying to set up a benefit show here in Livonia. I was so upset, when I couldn't get up to Grand Rapids for the other show. If you need anything, I am willing to do anything.
corinne <curcusenvy@aol.com>
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"Don't you think its about time there was a Chris Kempa benefit Show here in Livonia?" YES! Never fear children, a new show is in the works and it WILL be in Livonia. However, this will be more than just a concert. It's going to be a Chris fest! Right now the target date is either June 8,9,or 10th. I would like to have Livonia bands, so If you have one let me know. I'll have more info when I get it. Chris, you gotta help me out on this one. You did a great job pulling the stings in the fate department before, just do it again kiddo. <3
Cyndi! <ckbenefitshow@yahoo.com>
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When I closed my eyes, I could see you smile, A tear rolled down my face... and I cried for a long while. You were supposed to be there by my side. You promised me forever, but then you suddenly died. The pain I felt was like nothing I had felt before, I was so lost and alone, just drifing through life knowing I couldn't take much more. Then a thought interrupted my grieving like a single ray of sun shinning through the rain. What if you knew that everytime you crossed my mind, it caused me pain? With that thought, I promised myself that I could miss you, but I would never morn you again. You were my everything, my lover and my friend. When I close my eyes, I can see you smile, A tear rolls down my face... and I smile with you.
jason <i miss you chris love woody>
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, I am almost positive that you won't have remembered me because you met me and the funeral and since you met so many people, I totally understand. I just wanted to say that everyday Moriah and I sit in 6th hour and there isn't a day that goes by that we don't think about him. I have known Chris since the sixth grade and I have never heard a mean word come from his mouth about anyone. Mrs. Kempa, Moriah and I think that we know who that ASK person is and we are trying our best to stop it, as well as everyone else is. I lost my mother at the age of 7 and I know how horribly bad that you want Chris back. I feel the same about my mother. I miss her with all of my heart and can't think of not being with her. I loved both of them so much and I wish that they hadn't passed. Moriah and I will sometimes get into these talks and start saying like its all just a dream. Because that is what it feels like. Mrs. Kempa, you will probably never wake up from that feeling. I still feel like my mom is out there trying to desperatly find me. I miss you,Chris more than ever and I love you too Chris. I always have and never will stop. I hope that Mom is watching over you honey!!! Love you all.
Katy <kitten5384@yahoo.com>
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I'm very HAPPY to report the bronze memorial plaque for the corner is ready to be picked up. We will be installing it very soon....possibly as soon as this weekend!
Fran Kempa
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hey chris whats up there's this lil song for u chris, dear friend: seems like yesterday we used to rock the show i laced the track you lock the flow so far from hangin on the block for dough chris bro, they have to know that life aint always what it seems to be words cant express what u mean to me even though youre gone we still a team through your family i fufill your dream in the future cant wait to see if you open up the gates for me..... .....id give nething to hear half your breath i know your still livin life after death

its kinda hard with you not around know your in heaven smilin down watchin us when we pray for you everyday we pray for you till the day we meet again in my heart is where i keep you friend memories gimme the strength i need to proceed the strength i need to believe

i love you bro, keep smilin buddy
Woody
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Dear Chris, Wow i really dont know what to say, this is really hard. At the beginning of today i didnt even know whata guestbook was. ive been to your sight meny times before but never read all the great things that everyone said in this tramendus sight. belive me, i would have sent something to say meny times, if i had known. but today i read them all, it took about 3 hours but i did it. you have no idea what it has done for me. to hear all the great things that people have said. this one poem for instance, it said something about "never be able to talk to your friends agen online" that maid me break down. because i remember last summer whenever i was bored i would just sighn on and talk to the kid i spent almost every art class i ever had with. GOBOT7 was your name, and whenever i see it now on my buddy list (its your brother now) i feel real sad. Its hard to look at all your art work in class and around school, because i still remember vividly when it was created. all the great times i had sitting by you in Mr. reught<(sorry) class. laughfing and stuff. Now it thingk about you alot because ther is no one ther know as interesting and as creative as you there. so i just sit and listin to my headphones alot. i really wish you were still ther. i still save your spot during my 5th hour. nobody deserves to sit there. i listined to a song that reminds me of you, To anybody reading this i suggest downloading on napster, -Twiztids- "im alright" i know that the "idea" of the song is not right but it always makes me feel better. I hope in 20 years i can still remember what a great friend you are like i do know. ok its late now, wish me a happy 17th birthday chris, ill write something later now that i know how.
Jay Champlin <Shazbutt123@AOL.com>
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Some called him Christopher, some called him Chris. His smile was his trade mark where ever he went. A room would brighten when Chris walked in. Because the first thing you saw would be his grin.

A son and brother so precious, a friend so true. What ever he had he'd share it with you. A thought, a deed, a kind word for a while. But always, always he'd share his smile.

Our hearts are breaking, our thoughts are going wild. We've lost our friend, we've lost our child. "But only for a while" I heard Jesus say, "he's been chosen for the Master's Boquet"

Hand selected by Jesus from this "garden of life" gone to Heaven, he's through with this strife. Why is he gone? Only God knows. But oh what a treasure, a smiling rose!
Love you Chris <Lizzie>
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Today's art is the cover of a comic book Chris wrote and illustrated. The story line went somethimg like this....What if there were little creatures who lived in the pyramids on the back of the one dollar bill. Thus the title HMMMmm?
Fran Kempa
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Dear Moriah,

I enjoyed our day together on Wednesday too. Chris liked you so much and would often talk about you. I wish he had been with us Wednesday too.....it would have been much more fun! You know Chris..."fun times are NOW!!" I still have a very hard time at the cemetary. It hurts to know that the shell of such a loving, talented boy is in the ground. I'm glad we brought him flowers and I was happy to let you put them down on his grave.

I continue to look for him in all places and all things. The African violet bloomed......that's a first, the yard is FULL of Cardinals and Blue Jays. Chris and I always tried to figure out how to attract them to our yard but were never successful....it's a first! And most exciting of all...I believe the Hydrangias WILL bloom this year....It's a first! I will go to MY grave beliving it's Chris! Thank you again Moriah.......LOVE,
Mrs. Kempa
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i miss you chris. we all do. we want you back but will have to wait till we are with you forever. take care of luther and jenny and yourself. love ya buddy woody
woody
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It isn't a bad idea to alert the Livonia police as to what Mr. Ask's threats have been. Maybe that will finally put a stop to all of this foolishness. Shame on you Mr Ask...have you no heart?
A family member
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Hey chris- I miss you, right now more than ever! Probably not as much as your family but you were stilll very important to me. On wednesday I went to see your grave. I hated it. I hated seeing it, I mean it's a real nice cemetery and it's by a beautiful tree, but still........the fact that your body even has a grave sucks! I never thought for a second that this would happen to any of my friends, especially not to you. I wasn't prepared for this, none of us were. How do you prepare for something like this? I wish you could, but you can't. I didn't even want to admit it to myself that your body was in the ground. I didn't truly realise it until just before we left. Your mom was there with me. We spent the day together, and it was fun except that I always pictured me meeting her with you there, too. when we got back to your house we watched the '99 Chicago feild trip video and I almost teared a little bit but had to stop myself or else I would have never been able to stop. You know how I get. Oh.....and by the way.....your room rocks! I like your addition of the "bat boy" poster! But I wanted to see you in it too, I wanted to be in it with you. That was the first time I ever saw your room. Why did God have to take you that soon? Even just one more year would have been better. Hey ASK- Do you actually think that you'll get away with what you are doing? Are you really that stupid? Just to let ya know- you won't get away with it. God always finds a way to make someone pay for what they do. ALWAYS. I have my experiences....trust me. He won't let you get away with this, I promise. And when you do get caught, I wish the worst for you. No offense. Mrs. Kempa- You will always be in my prayers! I love you, Thank you for everything. Adam- I am sorry that this had to happen, we will Always miss him. He will always be in our memories, our dreams, and in our hearts! Chris- I luv luv luv you! paint a cloud for me. Good night! <3 Love always---------->>"punk rocker"
"punk rocker" <Sk8erchic02@juno>
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To Player Friend, Chris' life IS still a part of yours. He touched you and you in turn remember him. Chris now forever lives on in your heart. That's where friends should always be kept.
MCS
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I'm with you Cyndi. Which is why I drove by and checked on Chris' Memorial in the wee hours of the morning after work. It would have been no problem for me to turn around and go back to work and pick up everything needed to put the Memorial back again. So go ahead and try it ASK. We've got any army here. And since it is set up with the City of Livonia's permission, I hope you get caught even trying to touch it! We will be watching for you day and night if you dare.
MCS
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He was so innocent, young and sweet, he had the world right at his feet.Who would have known that he would die, leaving everyone he touched to greive and cry. He didn't know that day was his last, it all came on so fast.His funeral was the saddest day of my entire life,really cut through me like a knife.In another place, in another time, his life no longer a part of mine.
I Love You Chris <One Of Your PLAYER Friends>
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I think ASK is a serial stalker that never got enough attention from his family or friends and therefore must resort to these immature methods to get attention ...you know little kids that don't get positive attention will attempt to get it any possible way. This mental midget is trying to take away the attention from Chris.He's jealous...anyone with a BASIC Psychology knowledge level can figure this out. He CRAVES attention....he's jealous because he never had anyone to feel a thing about him near to what we felt for Chris. Let's just focous on Chris and away from this boy/man's wish to get attention. Usually when kids don't get attention from one area, they generally move to other areas. ASK is in need of our prayers and pity.
KATHY PUTNAM
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Hey ASK Go ahead and smash it. I have no problem replacing it, over and over again. You're no threat to me or any of Chris' friends and family. You're a coward and you're wasting your time, Go away.
Cyndi! <_>
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It's almost 4:30 am. Chris' Memorial remains intact and peaceful, the warm glow of candles. To the ASK person, be aware that you only make us stronger in our convictions to uphold the memory of our dearly departed Chris. Your words cannot hurt. The hurt and pain that has been felt and continues to be felt is much worse than any words or actions you can threatened anyone here with. So why don't you be a good(?) little boy and just go away and try to grow up some day.
MCS
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NEVER NESS It’s the NEVER NESS that is so painful. NEVER again to be here with us - NEVER to sit with us at the table, NEVER to travel with us, NEVER to laugh with us, NEVER to cry with us, NEVER to embrace us as he leaves for school, NEVER to see his brother marry. All the rest of our lives we must live without him. Only our death can stop the pain of his death. A month, a year, five years - with that I could live…but not this FOREVER.

Adapted, From his book, Lament For A Son by Nicholas Wolterstoff
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I cant even fatham why this ASK person would do such a thing... I'm in utter awe. But enough about a person with no feelings. Chris my friend... i just want you know that ive been thinking so much about you. You have turned my life around. Im such a retard, and sometimes i forget your gone. I dont know if thats messed up or what. But i dunno. Thanks for the picture today, i really needed that. And Chris, thank you for bringing Amber back into my life. She is such a cool girl and I missed her, and I know you brought our friendship back together. Kempa's... i dont know if you know me... but i pray for you all the time, and your words are so touching and beautiful--you are wonderful people... and my thoughts are with you all... oh and i would just like to tell everyone about this song by Dashboard Confessional-- its called "For Justin"... it is a beautiful song and reminds me a lot of chris and has brought me some sort of comfort... along with all of the other music that Chris has brought into my life. I will always remember the few but memorable times we shared together. I know you are still here with us... i know.
Shawna <coffeeshopgal@hotmail.com>
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Hey ASK- WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND...
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whoever ASK tonight is, you are a very sick mean person. you have no right to do that. what did chris ever do to you? this is supposed to be a place where his friends mourn and write their fellings. not a place to threaten to do something. you touch that site and you see how many people will be on you butt, keeping it up. it's not doing a thing but keeping him alive and in our hearts and if can't handle it then i think you need to bounce off the padded walls in the osylm. because that is where you belong.
jenny <msbanana37@hotmail.com>
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Sick people will get theirs. Trying touching anything at that Memorial tonight. You don't scare anyone, nor can you hurt anyone.
MCS
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Well, I know it's been a LONG time since I last wrote anything, but I was sitting in my room just thinking, and thought I'd come on. It's been quite a while since we lost you, and every day, I miss you more. Knowing that I'll never get to see you walking down your hall, with your headphones on of course, hurts. It was always the one thing I could look forward to 6th hour, and now it's gone. I think about you daily and wish that there was something I could do to bring you back, although I know there isn't. I know that you are someplace special, watching over us every day, I just wish it was here. Mrs. Kempa~Your messages written in here are beautiful! My heart is with you and your family. I have not been able to visit the memorial in a long time, but hope that I am able to soon. The website is beautiful, even though it could never show just how wonderful a person Chris really was. I miss you and love you.
Megan <BBallGrl1285@aol.com>
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Hey Cyndi! I just wanted you to know that I am going to smash the present you left for chris along with everything else at that stupid memorial tonight. If you want to stop me come tonight at 11:00pm, then you can see how sick I am.....
ASK Tonight
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Someone took you away from me

And I wonder if they cared.

About the ones they left behind

And the pain that each must bear

Why did you have to leave me

When there was so much more left to do

I'm not sure if I can go on

If I have to go on without you

But life dictates the rules

There are things that I can't change

When you left my heart was torn in two

My life got rearranged

I have to believe I'll see you again

It keeps the hope alive and new

So until we meet again little brother

Never forget that I love you
Little Brother <Jenny, TCF Indianapolis,In.>
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Hey Chris! I added a VanGogh candle holder to your memorial. So this way, no matter how cloudy, you'll always have a "Starry Night"
Cyndi! <Goldfingercjl@yahoo.com>
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Chris, its now been over five months......... I hope you are some place and having fun!!!!!! I hope that you can't see the weird things that someone put on the net about you. Nothing could have been further from the truth. Miss you always, DAD
Dad <afk49@aol.com>
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On days when you're tired, not sure you can go on,Your Angel Knows ....and will wrap you in an Angel hug to let you rest until your weariness is gone.

On days when you're down just feeling so blue, Your Angel Knows ....and will tenderly take you in his arms to cherish and help cheer you.

On days when you're hurting, really feeling that pain, Your Angel Knows.... and will wrap you in a blanket of love to give you courage and help you keep sane.

On those nights when you're lonely and there's no one to be found, Your Angel Knows....he'll gentlty enfold you in his wings to give comfort and let you know he'll always be around.

And on the days when you're happy, things are going just right, Your Angel Knows....he'll smile and say a prayer of thanks and give you an Angel hug so tight.

Day and night no matter what, Your Angel is always close by to help guard and protect you!!
Author Unknown
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Hey Chris! How are you? I'm missing you like crazy down here. Everything is not the same without you. I'm sorry that i haven't written to you in a while...i just have a hard time trying to type to you and say what i feel. Really there's soooo much that i want to say right now, but it's so hard to put it into words. You know how that is sometimes. But i do miss you a lot. I miss seeing you at school. I miss your smiling face, your great jokes, you laugh, heck i miss seeing you around. I know for a fact that my senior year feel right because i won't get the chance to graduate with you...none of the junior class will get the chance. But i just want to let you know that i miss you and i love you. I will never forget you Chris. It's sad because our friendship was getting stronger since freshman year and it came to a crashing halt. But i will always remember the 5 years that i've known you...i still remember the first day that i met you...all we talked about was John Lennon and The Beatles. Well Chris i gotta go. I miss you so much and i will always love you...i'll will never forget you buddy. talk to you later Chris! **to the Kempa Family, My thoughts and prayers are always with you!** Love Always, Katie
Katie B.
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i never can say exactly what i want to say, i don't think i am even sure what i want to express sometimes other than to tell you i'm thinking of you, chris and your family every day and that i'll always treasure the times we've had .
lori b.
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Amen Kathy! We love you Chris and know you will see to it that the truth be known. Peace and love to our family and friends.
JoAnne
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This present darkness cannot pierce through the light of our beautiful memories. Good always prevails over EVIL. One day, this wicked individual will stand before the Lord and give an accounting for all these evil deeds. Those who knew Chris can see the truth regardless. We are PROUD of the truth.We are not afraid of the vain attempts by the wicked because we are walking in the light of the truth.
Kathy Putnam <mskatep@aol.com>
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   A certain individual (The log file shows that it was all the same person) has been posting very hateful messages to this website.

    We refuse to block the guestbook to everyone because of this sick person's actions. Those who knew Chris, and know us will be able to tell fact from fiction.

    To those who continue to harass us during the most horrible time of our lives - Just remember that what goes around comes around.
Adam, Fran, and Adam W. Kempa <adam@kempa.com>
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Today's painting is absolutely beautiful. I just wish that Chris could have finished it...I love you Chris and miss you more than you will ever know. Take care of us down here.
Michele <shelly613@hotmail.com>
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Today's painting (4/19) is one of my favorites. It's also the last one he ever worked on. You may not be able to see, it has never been finished....and never will be.
Fran Kempa
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Writeing an enrty is very heard for me to do. I think it's been a month or two sence the last time. Chris will always be remembered, and I will hold him in my heart. When I sit at my computer I see his picture School picture beside me. When I look at the picture I freeze. When we Started High School we didn't hang out as much. I mean It was very odd...we were getting older. He had a job and I had a Job. I had somthing going on at school, and he did too. I guess we just had a lot of conflictions. (sorry, I'm a bad speller.) Then I noticed we were finding other friends. It was weird. When This started to get tough with thing, like school, and basic teenage problems, he was always there for me. He talked to me and helped me out. I would like to say I did the same for him. It was that kinda of bond that really never broke us apart, needless to say home much in common we had. About a month before he died we started hanging out again. Little, by little. You have no idea how Glad that made me feel. The old Him and I were back! Listen to music, cracking jokes, showing eachother our new art projects, and just being weird goof ball kids. I'll never forget th last day we hung out. It makes smiles come to my face. Just being with chris again was the best....Well Chris, I miss you, and I'm sure your looking down on us. I love you kid. Scott Allen Note: If anyone is reading this, I'm sorry if it does not make any sence..I guess I only make sence to myself, I just needed to Say hello again.
Scott Robert Allen
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To "Highschool Buddy" Joe & Company,

Your hateful messages don't hurt me....they only make me stronger. You all continue to reveal exactly the kind of people you are. Just like Mary.....I'm not afraid of you either.
Fran Kempa <Notfranny@aol.com>
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hey chris. happy late easter. i have been in florida for the past week so i havent been able to look at the site. i thought about you all the time, especially on the plane. we were like in the clouds and i was wondering to myself, "i bet chris is up here because heaven has to be up here somewhere in these clouds" i thougth this every planeride i took, which added up to about 6. thats where i was sort of happy for you. its so peaceful and knowing you were in your home up there in the sky was comforting. i went to the memorial today as soon as i got back. i just felt i had to go because i havent in a while. i saw your mom and dad up there and we spoke a little bit. By just looking at them you can tell something big is missing. that something is most definately their youngest son and our friend. well chris thanks for getting us home safely and take care of everyone. we love you buddy and you are FOREVER in our hearts and minds. later buddy. love woody
jason <avsrule1449@aol.com>
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Thank you Danny Sperry for today's picture.
Mrs. Kempa
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A wife who loses a husband is called a widow. A husband who loses a wife is called a widower. A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. But they say there is no word for a parent who loses a child, that's how awful the loss is.
Unknown
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Ive been thinking a lot about Chris lately and I am sure he is happy, he seemed to adapt well to new situations. But I am not so good at adapting to new things, and before Chris I have never had anyone I was close to die. I had stayed home from school the day he died, and I was upstairs in my room when my mom called me down. She had been watching the news and told me what had happened, but I didnt believe her. Actually I think it was more like I didnt want to believe her. I sat there is shock for awhile and didnt really do anything. Finally my mom said something and I just started crying. I decided to go to work that day anyway, even though I cried throughout the whole night. But I dont think the realization that hes not around really hit me until recently, when I have thought about him more and more. I miss talking to him, and he got me a little more openminded about music, we had similar tastes but he started me listening to new bands that I had never heard of. Lately I have started to listen to them again,and it is really hard but in a way it feels really good to think about all the good times we had before. But I miss him a lot, as does everyone. I love you Chris.
Sarah Perelli <Megabich9@aol.com>
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Hey Chris it's spring break! I know if you were still here with us in body we'd be skateboarding going to the latest movie hanging out in your basement watching DVDS or playing vudeo games or watching you create your latest computer animation.....we'd be doing something! I miss you man we all do.I will always remember you for being yourself and not caring what the popular kids thought. I love you
Kenny
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I just wanted to say that when Nicole and I made our recent visit to Chris' Memorial, I just loved those rocks, what a beautiful idea. It was dark and I couldn't read them either, but they are very special pieces of work.
MCS <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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I am not a young man and I thought I knew the meaning of pain. I have experienced pain from a toothache, arthritis, and even the loss of family and friends. But nothing in my fifty-four years had prepared me for the pain I experienced when we lost our son. I had no clue to real pain.

I think only a bereaved parent knows the true meaning. Not to belittle the loss of a parent or spouse, but those who have lost both tell me the pain is not the same. My Mother said to me at my brother's funeral,"now I know how you feel". Even though she had lost a grandson, it was not the same.

It has been almost five years now,and there hasn't been a day go by that I don't see his picture or think of him and feel that pain. Pain for what we lost...and for what he lost. That pain is not as intense now. I have learned to tolerate it and still lead a life. The Compassionate Friends helped me to realize that I was not alone and that there were many others who felt the same pain. They helped me learn how to deal with it. Now it is my turn to try to help someone else.
Harold F. Underwood <TCF, Southern Maryland>
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I suppose that I haven't written a lot on here, but I want you to know that not an hour goes by that I don't give a thought to you. I come here everyday, to see what others have written to you, and I don't really ever write myself, because I don't know what to say. I'm always afraid that someone is going to read what I write to you, and think to themselves, "wow that sounded so fake." Which I know shouldn't make a difference to me one way or another, but for some reason it keeps me from writing. Instead I just think, and hope that you know what I want to say to you. Everyday, I rethink that morning when Hillman told me. I try to look at myself from the outside, to see what exactly happened...but for some reason, the day seemed to go by so slow at the time ..yet now, it seems to have went by in a blur. I do remember that I didn't even know that you were not there that day because you usually picked me up from fir