Speck is just too, too cute!! I have been resisting the urge to bring a new pet into the family after having to put Nicole's pup down in December. I hear you about that grooming part! Our pup was part Cocker, part Springer. Beagles are so cute! Love them runts too! Have a feeling Charlie will love having a partner around. Chris, give our pup a hug for us up there, ok? I sure hope she is having fun with all of you.
MCS
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Today's page....Beck and Speck
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Hey chris- Hope things are going good with you. I have't worke up the guts to come nd see you yet, but I will. Lately I've been sick and now It's gotten worse. We all think that it's because of my thyroid so something roband I are gonna try and get it looked at. I had meds for it but it just makes me even more angry and touch, not to menchon sicker. this week will be hectic. It's time for prom yeah, and I'm still sick. Theres way to much to do. I just hope that everything is okay with my thyroid. It's been aciting up almost 2 tomes a day. Rob's getting really sick of my arguing. I can't help it. It just makes my nerves really touchie. I really wish that I could have seen you at prom. I know a few people who where going to ask you. I miss you alot and sometime I'll send you the pictures from new years eve with you in the bacement of kelli's house. See you around Laura
Laura Squeaker <AshenRose18@aol.com, Laura916@aol.com>
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Dear Chris,

I hope we haven't made a big mistake. We're attempting to fill a void that's impossible to fill. At the very least it will hopefully add SOME life to this house.

Two days after you were killed, before you were even buried, Adam asked if we could get a puppy. At the time I told him I wounln't dismiss the idea completely but just the thought was more than I could deal with at the time. I told him to wait until Spring. April came and he began asking," so when are we going to get the puppy?" I told him if he was really serious he'd find the cage in the basement. We hadn't used the cage for Charlie in years. I wasn't even sure it was down there. I figured that would be the end of the puppy. When I cane home from work that afternoon the cage was in the mud room. Now I knew he was serious!

We started looking at the shelters but there were no puppies to be had. We looked at a few pet stores but I would never buy from a pet store and their prices were unbelieveable. Then there was the matter of what kind of puppy. Since I knew it would eventually become mine, I wanted a say in the matter. While I dearly love Charlie.....he's been the best dog in the world ,I didn't want the grooming involved. I talked to some people and decided a Beagle would be a good choice (I hope.)

On May 8th we picked out our puppy from a litter of nine! Adam wasn't with us. He said he trusted us since we'd done such a good job picking Charlie.We picked the male runt of the litter just like Charlie was. We picked him up and brought him home today. Since the route we took was the same route we took to Port Huron every summer I couldn't help but think of you. You would have been soooo happy....another puppy! You loved animals but I think like me, dogs were your favorite. Adam is very taken with him. Since he is just six weeks old he is still VERY small. The first thing Adam said when he saw him was "I didn't think he'd be THIS Small!" As a result he thinks he'll name him Speck.

People at work told me Charlie would be very jealous and very territorial. I told them I couldn't imagine Charlie being anything but gentle and loving. You and Charlie were the sweetest hearts in the house. He still is. I was right! He's been home now for six hours and Charlie has been wonderful... not even a growl so far. I wish you were here to love and enjoy him with us but I bet you have numerous pets, including many dogs, in heaven. I miss you so much. Your birthday is just a few short weeks away! I love you ,
Mom
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To the man who left the letter at the Memorial on Fri. 5/25.

Thank you for your kindness sir. I hope you're right. I hope all those who pass the Memorial on a daily basis as you do, are moved to kindness and compassion as you were, rather than anger. I hope God blesses you and your wife with a child some day soon. They truly are the most joyous blessing!
Fran Kempa
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hey chris. i dont really know what to say right now i just felt like i had to write something. i couldnt stop thinking about you tonight. i was at this party and these kids were gonna fight and i was just thinkin how stupid it was becuase i just think of how much more i should care for others because i know how much i miss you. the fight didnt happen. me and this other kid convinced them it wasnt worth it. i miss you so much chris and i never stopthinking about you. always smile down on us and look after everyone. cya when i get there buddy. save me a spot next to you. until then you will always be on my mind and in my heart. i luv u buddy. night luv woody
jason <avsrule1449>
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Chris,

The notice came in today's mail. You and Adam are due for your eye exams. You were so looking forward to yours this year. You were going to try contacts! Not only were you going to try them......you WERE going to wear them. Adam couldn't get used to them so you considered it a very easily won challange!

Adam found out today he gets his braces off next month! Even though yours had been on for only a year we would joke that they'd most likely come off before Adam's....his had been on much longer than anyone anticipated. I'm afraid he beat you there Chris....his come off next month, yours will be on forever. Missing you much more, not less. Love,
Mom
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Chris, I miss you so much it actually hurts. if it hurts me this bad what must your family feel like? Some days I thinkk it's worse than 6 months ago. Then it didn't seem real now IT"S REAL. I hate this feeling I get it every time I think of you. I thinkk about you all the time so I feel this way a lot. I hate what happened to you! I will never forget you . like your Mom, i'll never get over it. i miss you sooooooo much.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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hey there, Chris. I just wanted to stop in and say I love ya. When I was up at Franklin yesterday I saw people wearing your pin. It was hard for me being up there visiting people, and knowing that I wouldn't be able to walk into the art room and see you in there. It seems like whenever I wanted to find you, all I had to do was peek in the window, and there you were. You always had 4 or 5 different projects going, and somehow still always had something new to show me. I remember at lunch, you would pull me over to the computers to show me a new movie you had made. We would sit in there together, just you and I. I would check my email, and you would make more movies. You always listend to my daily problems with "the boy" (you know who I'm talking about!). I miss you bringing me new CD's to listen to. Telling me "you're going to LOVE this band, Tracy". I miss it, and I miss you. I miss you so much, Chris. It just doesn't seem fair, after all this time it still isn't fair. It never will be. You were such a special person, and I feel so honered to be able to have known you. You made my senior year special. I'll never forget the support you gave me when I needed it. I wish I still had you here to talk to. Take care up there, I know you're having a blast. You're making them all smile up there, becuase that is what you did down here. You made everyone around you feel special. Thank you for doing that for me.....Love and Hugs,
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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Hey there chris. This past month has been very strange. Like every summer I get sick and can't talk, but this year your not here to laught at me and such. I went to the docters again they still don't know what's wrong. But later I'm gonna go to a hospital where my docter relocated and get chected again. I miss you making fun of me befor school because I make noises. This will be a strange summedr not workin with you at larry's. anyways... I am finally leaving franlkin and I have no idea where I'm gonna end up at my mom's again, in PA, or somewhere up north. But ethor way I will have to tell you that you'll always be in my heart. I feel bad that somethings wheren't figured out between us earlier, but I'm glad that we got to talk and become friends again instead of ignoring eachother like everyone else ends up; happeneing. anyways.. I hope I get to visite you soon. Wish me luck at Honors night, I have to sing a solo and with my voice I need to get better soon. Lov you lots Squeaker
Laura Squeaker <AshenRose18@aol.com>
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Chris!! The ducks were swimming in the pool cover today! You always loved that! Every year we would wonder if they'd be back and they never disappointed us. Dad saw them in the morning and they were back at dinner time. After dinner we went to get our flowers. This weekend is my traditional planting weekend but you won't be here to help me as you so often did. Be with me in spirit o.k.? Send me a butterfly! I think we'll wait one more week for the pool. I love you so much!
Mom
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Hey Chris... This is the first time I've actually written anything on here to u. I couldn't before, this guestbook has moved me to tears so many times already just by reading. I felt you today during lunch in the chior room. Before they played "Magic" I felt your spirit move through me and I felt so weak, it was so hard to keep the tears from falling again. Chris I love you so much buddy.. I can't ever get you out of my heart or soul, ur always there with me, please don't go ... ur spirit is what keeps us sane down here. Thank you for the strength... Missing Your Song, ~Christine
~ Christine ~ <MistiqueToriDiva@cs.com>
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Hey, Chris, guess what? my mom had her baby. A baby boy. Named Paul Michael or Connor. They can't decide on a name yet. I love Paul Michael cause its after you and Paul. Duh. (And my dad of course). Any way, I know you were so excited for me when I told you that she was preggers. I hope that your okay right now. I miss you wit all my heart and soul and I love ya. Love Katy
Katy <Kitten5384@yahoo.com>
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Dear Mrs. Kempa-My mom asked me to come with her today to help her pick out flowers for our backyard. It reminded me of the way you talk about gardening with Chris.I hardly ever help my mom with her flowers in the backyard and it was odd to find my self in your and Chris' position today,having read so much about it.From what I read, you love your garden. I know Chris is somewhere in heaven gardening a planting away. What a beautiful sight it must be. You and your family are in my prayers each day. Enjoy this wonderful weather!
Colleen Baidoon <blondbabe1385@yahoo.com>
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Chris, we just got back from the annual choir trip to Mackinac...you were often thought of by your friends and you also joined the Bel Canto tradition this year thanks to Liz!:) Our love grows for you each day and we know that you are watching us from above! Take care of your Mom...she needs those signs kiddo! With love and prayers to all who love you...
Ms. Hillman
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Dear Chris,

Today, (5/21/01) I had to go to Franklin to drop off the completed certificates for the Chris Kempa Memorial Art Scholarship. Mr. Rheault made them and I picked them up late last week. They look very official! Dad and I had to sign them along with Mr. Willenborg and Mrs. Welsh. I went around 3:30, long after school got out. Today was a bad Chris day...not as bad as some but bad none the less. I didn't want to run into a lot of your friends for fear I'd lose it badly. It was hard enough just seeing Mr. Willenborgh's secretary Sandy.

After Franklin we had to go to the cemetary. We had to sign and recieve the deed to your grave....I never knew there was such a thing and God knows I wish I'd NEVER found out. As the woman handed it over I said, "This is really something I wish I never had to have." We then started looking into grave markers. We want yours to be special. While "Forever in our hearts" is nice, it's on almost every marker in the cemetary. We'll put much thought into yours, it truly will be personalized.

When we got home the mail had come. Your Fedral income tax refund was among it. It was made out to "Christopher Deceased Kempa." Not exactly something you like coming home to. While I still do at least one Chris related thing a day, none of them are happy and fun like they were before you were killed. They are all very sad and glaring reminders that you are GONE and nothing will ever bring you back. I miss you and your energy Soooo much! I love you. Please keep sending us the signs! Love,
Mom
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Hi..I have a favor to ask you...Could you please tell me where I could get a Chris Kempa button? I go to Franklin High School but I'm not sure how to get one....If you could e-mail that would be greatly appreciated! Thank you very much and Lots of love!
Abby <Spunkysilver70@aol.com>
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hi chris! so the weezer cd came out last week. i bet you got a copy of it early, and you were rocking out to it. we always talk about the little girl dancing from that movie, you would have liked it. i had a christmas present for you this year, it was as john lennon figure. you were talking about it on the chicago trip. but i know that you have all that you want and more where you are now. i better get going. see you in our dreams.
moriah and marley <brokenxgirl@yahoo.com>
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i dont understand how six months have already passed. it seems as though you've been gone forever and at times i think i will see you tomorrow. i feel as though i've lived a lifetime and that i've grown up and i feel old. but sometimes its like it was all just yesterday that we met at my locker and i was late for second hour everyday! well i just want you to know that i think about you everyday and i'm sure that i always will. you have changed me so much for the better, in life and in death. you always included me. and i felt very special. Mrs. kempa you do that now also so not only do i see where he got it from, i am very grateful as well. all day yesterday whenever i thought of you i saw butterflies...and it made me smile through my tears. thank you chris. i miss you we all do. save a jones for me.
Dana <gloomypeaches8403@msn.com>
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, I was surfing the internet all night and saw the Jones Soda page info on your son. I was interested in seeing his art work. He was a very gifted young man, such beauty he created. I read every posting on your board here. I was very moved, i broke down in tears for you. You seem like a very wonderful mother and person. Chris sounds like he got that from you and your husband. I am a father of 2, I cannot imagine losing one of my own kids...My older cousin lost 2 kids at young ages in freak accidents like Chris. So i do feel deeply for you. I will have my Cousin look at this page. Her and her husband had a really hard time, they are Christians and found that turning the pain over to God helped them alot. But i will let Janet tell you her own feelings. What i'd like to share with you is this, Your son Chris is still painting. I live in Seattle on the water, the Sunset was so beautiful tonight. I believe your son painted the sunset. And that is why i ended up on your site. He did a wonderful job, he is painting for God now. And i believe he is letting you know. You have really touched my heart, I hope you find comfort in his passing. I am 41 years old and have lost both of my parents,not a day goes by that i don't think of them. I am so very very sorry for your loss. Adam please have at least one child for your mother so she can be a grandmother. She sounds like she a wonderful woman. You are very lucky to have a mother like her. I miss my mother so much. God Bless your family, and Chris keep painting wonderful sunsets for us all to enjoy.
James Read <jamesdread@home.com>
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I heard a song that is so true when you listen to the words - it sort of helps me with my feelings - it's called "Just Once More" and it's sung by the Nelson Brothers.
A Mom
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Mrs Kempa, You dont know me but I know Chris friend Jason. I read in this guest book before that you had a butterfly visit you before and you thought it was a sign from Chris. Well a little over a year ago I had a friend who I had known my whole life kill himself. One day shortly after he died I went to his grave and started crying and I asked god to send me a sign that my friend also named Chris could see me and all the people that loved him. Right after I said that the most beatuiful butterfly came outta know where and landed on my shoulder, it then flew around me and my friends grave for like 5 min and something just told me in my mind that that was my Chris. I would like to tell you that I am very sorry for your lose. From what Jason tells me you are a very strong person I hope god and Chris help you through your hard time I'm sure that the butterfly you saw was him. I would also like to say that coming to this site in some weird way helps me deal with the death of my own friend becuase their is no web site or ne thing like this for him. Mrs Kempa I wish you the best and Chris friends too I know it's hard for all of you guys I have been through what you are going through god and Chris are watching over all of you.Best wishes to the Kempa Family and Chris friends
Christina <aeangel33550@aol.com>
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Dear Chris,

Last night I had the most wonderful/horrible dream. Wonderful in that I felt it was your way of showing me on the day that marks six months since you were killed you ARE o.k. It was not my mind playing tricks on me again. Horrible because I shouldn't have to be looking for signs. I should still be able to see for myself you're o.k. You never should have died. I hate waking up with a start in the middle of the night trying to figure out what's real and then realizing once again you are indeed gone and are never coming back. I hate it but it happens often.

I don't remember what you looked like or what you had on. I just remember you came and got me. I don't remember where I was. You said,"Mom, you HAVE to come and see this garden I've found." That's all you said but you repeated it at least four times. The next thing I knew I was standing looking at vast open areas in front of me. The lawn was the greenest, most perfect lawn I'd ever seen. It looked like a plush green carpet. It was peppered with trees of every variety known. Many were flowering. The lawn was also dotted with vibrant colored flowers of every kind known to man. The flower gardens were sculptured and perfect. When I looked to my right, I could see a stately old house off in the distance. I could also see figures of children playing on the lawn. "Isn't this the most beautiful garden you've ever seen Mom?" you said. Before I replied I looked to my left and saw a cemetary. The head stones were very clear. I don't think I answered you in the dream. The next thing I knew I was awake, trying to figure out what had taken place. I thought maybe knowing how much I loved gardens you used them to show me just a little glance at heaven and to let me know you are o.k.! This is what I choose to believe. It was a wonderful dream!

If the rest of my life passes as quickly as the last six months, we'll be together again soon. It truly seems like yesterday we were lying on the bed working on drivers Ed. questions. Ironicly, one of the last things you ever wrote was a sentence about pedestrian safety! I remember every minute of that Sunday night and the following horrible morning SO VIVIDLY! Peoples names, faces, and exactly what was said to me. It is etched in my brain forever. It is replayed more times than I'd like but I can't stop it. I have no control over it. It's like instant replay and I never know when it will start. Much of what happened after is a blur. But I will vividly remember every second from the time I woke you up that morning until we walked out of the hospital for the rest of my life!

I will miss you and love you forever! If I'm fortunate enough to some day have grand children they will know all about their wonderful "Uncle Chris" who God couldn't wait to have back in heaven. I am still so proud of you . Thank you for the butterfly....he was back today and visited me and Mrs. Allen! Love,
Mom <Notfranny@aol.com>
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Wow. 6 months, that's so hard to believe. It seems like it was just yesterday, because I remember it so vividly, but then I remember so many days going by and me thinking about you. wow.
cori
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If you own or work for a company that would like to sponsor or make a donation to the CHRIS KEMPA BENEFIT SHOW at Wilson Barn on JUNE 17th. Please email me.
Cyndi <CKBenefitShow@yahoo.com>
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Weezer on saturday night live Chris!!! did you watch it from heaven? I bet you get every channel in the world in heaven! I miss you and love you tons and bunches!
A Weezer Fan Thanks To You! <==========================>
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On Wednesday, November 22,00 the first day of the viewing, a boy gave me this poem. There was no title or author, just the poem. He said it had been found on a computer at Churchill High School. I thought it was so descriptive of Chris I said I wanted it included in the program for his funeral.

On Friday, November 24,00 the second and last day of the viewing, a girl came up to me and gave me a framed poem. It was the same poem but this time with a title and author. After I thanked her I explained about the program and apologized for not giving her credit for the poem. When it was time for the programs to go to the printer I still didn't know who the author was. Megan Discher wrote this poem as well as the one posted yesterday. I keep it in it's frame above the kitchen sink and read it often.

A BETTER PLACE

By Megan Discher

Your bright and shining smile

Is not easily forgotten

for it brightened someone's day

And made sad things not so rotten

The way you wrote a poem

The way you sang a song

The way you said hello

Never did anything wrong

Every time someone would see you

It put a smile on their face

Just to know you were happy

but now you're in a better place

A better place is where you are

even though it may seem far

Safer than you would be here

Even if it brings us tears

It hurts to think what might have been

If the time you kept was off by ten

Would you still be here with us today

We'll miss you Chris Kempa

In our hearts you will stay

In Memory of Chris Kempa

November 20, 2000
Fran Kempa
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As I cleaned my room this afternoon, I took a special look at your painting. I see it and am reminded of you every day. I miss you, Chris, just wanted to let you know that I am still thinkin of you, and praying for your family
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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~*Happy*~ By Megan Discher

Sometimes at night When I close my eyes I can see you take flight See your wings glow so bright

I can see you look up You say "don't be scared of me" I am here to protect you Be happy, dance with glee

For I am happy too Just thinking of you The way you have helped me And how you have brought me to be

Next time you're sad When you're feeling all pain Just look in the sky And watch me fly by

For I am happy too Just thinking of you And knowing that you Can be just as happy too

Mrs. Kempa, I know that this poem is not the greatest...but I was sitting just thinking of Chris, and decided to write one. I thought that you might like to read it. It made me feel better to think of him as I wrote it! I hope that you are doing well and wish you all the best...Love always,

~*Megan Discher*~
Megan <xxxx>
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This was written by one of Chris' school friends. It was given to us on that most horrible day, Monday November 20th 2000. At the time I just put it aside even though I was very touched by it. I had forgotten about it until recently when I did his room.

CHRIS KEMPA

BY EMMA DALE-HENCH

Dearet Chris, I will miss you so much. You were always so nice to me and you were a kind and loving young man. Please always look down on me and Ms. Phimister from Heaven. Chris, you were always happy and bright. May the angels guide you into Heaven and God keep you Chris. I will visit your grave every day Chris. I love you Chris.

Yours truly,

Emma Cleyre Dale Hench
Fran Kempa
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Thanks for your good wishes everyone. Chris- I DROVE out to the tri-high yesterday!! isn't that crazy! I'm finally driving,I remember we used to talk all the time about when I finally got my license...we knew that I would get mine before you, but that didn't matter. Well, to me it didn't, but you were a little bitter about it. We always said that when I got my license, that the first thing that we would do it go out to Ann Arbor and shop for houses together. That was our dream, to live in Ann Arbor. I remember the first time I ever talked to you, we realized that both of us wanted to live in New York when we got older. So, from that day forward, we were going to move to New York together! After a while we came to realize that even though New York was our first dream, it was going to be too expensive for us to live there and go to college. So, instead, we decided to move to Ann Arbor. We thought that it was the coolest city around anyway. You said that you were going to go to CCS and commute back home, and I would go to UofM. We would move in my sophmore year of college and your junior year of college. And, as soon as I got my license, we would drive out there and scope things out. I think that you'd even started to save some money. And that was our dream. Whenever we would argue (which was often) you would always ask me "Are we still going to Ann Arbor?" And, of course I would say "YES, why wouldn't we??" When you went to Chicago this year, you brought me back a few things, one of which being "red letter day" by the Get up kids. That is the CD with Anne Arbour. And from that day on, it was our theme song. We had everything planned out, from how we wanted the floor plan to look, to the fact that we were going to paint the ceiling navy blue, and put up a million of those glow in the dark stars. We would talk on the phone all night long, and whenever we ran out of things to say, we would talk about Ann Arbor, and how awesome it was going to be. I figure, one day I'll have to drive out there alone, and see if I can find the one we would have wanted. I know it's there. I LOVE YOU Chris, and I miss you
Cori <curcusenvy@aol.com>
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I thought about you Chris the other night as I putting out the Weezer CD's at 12:01. Weezer is pretty big here at our house. Weezer screen saver, new Weezer CD and Nicole spent all last week on the phone trying to win tickets to the Weezer show in Roseville. Alas, she was always caller #5. Keep a good watch over your family and friends. Summer vacation is almost here and everyone could use a little bit of your extra special care!
MCS
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, Thank you sooo much for the e-mail. Once I got it I couldn't stop crying. I miss both of them very much. I will take you up on your advice and maybe talk to you within the next week. I will let you know. To Cory, You probably don't know who I am but congrats on your drivers license. I am sure that Chris will be with you every time you get behind the wheel. Be careful. To Jenny, Chris will always help you whenever you need it. I pray to him whenever I need help. I hope he answers you every time. Love to all,
Katy <Kitten5384@yahoo.com>
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DON'T THINK I DO NOT GRIRVE

Don't think I do not feel, because you see no tears. A river rages deep inside of grief, and loss, and fears.

Just because I do not cry now, don't think that my heart's not broken. I keep inside the misery of words not to be spoken.

Sometimes I smile or crack a joke, so you won't see the pain; or notice how my hands will shake,or how I've gone insane.

Each time I think of him, my heart is ripped asunder. The loss I feel is mine alone, you will not see my thunder.
Brenda Penepent
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Chris, A few days ago I went up to the corner and left you a few things. I know it was nothing at all, but I at least had the chance to express myself. I hope you understood it. Today was the Tri-High Ruckus. That was the last time I seen you. It was strange, walking into that room again. I remember the last time so clearly and I am so lucky that I do. I just wish that you could have played it again. I wound just standing just where I had the last time; but this time you weren't directly in front of me. The WEEZER cd came out a few days ago. I bet you were excited for that, but it's a shame that you arn't here to have the chance to listen to it. I bet you are in Heaven though. I know you are. All your dreams are coming true up in Heaven. We miss you like crazy Chris. Look down on us all and help us get through the rough days, we need you too.
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hey chris, i just wanted to say thank you very much and that i love you!! today (5/16) i had an orchestra concert in the theatre. well i had a solo that i was really nervous about. before i went to play my solo, i said to chris, please help me and let me do good. well when i did my solo, i played it perfect!! i know chris was watching me from up above, helping me through every note. so thank you chris. i love you so much and i miss you. i can't wait until we are together again. goofing off and chasing each other. thanks again. i love you. love always, jenny
jenny <msbanana37@hotmail.com>
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My Mom Is A Survivor

My Mom is a survivor, or so I've heard it said. But I can hear her crying at night, when all others are in bed. I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand. She doesn't know I'm with her, to help her understand.

But like the sands on the beach that never wash away, I watch over my surviving Mom, who thinks of me each day. She wears a smile for others....a smile of disguise. But through Heaven's door I see tears flowing from her eyes. My Mom tries to cope with death to keep my memory alive. But anyone who knows her knows, it's her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving Mom....through Heaven's open door, I try to tell her that angels protect me forever more. But I know that doesn't help her or ease the burden she bears. So if you get the chance go visit her ....and show her that you care. For no matter what she says....no matter what she feels, my surviving Mom has a broken heart that time won't ever heal.
MY MOM IS A SURVIVOR <Kaye Des'Ormeaux>
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wow, there's really a lot to say. Chris was a very special person, and a great friend. It was great knowing him for the 3 years we've had together. I'm hoping to go to the cemetry to visit you soon. I go to Larry's a lot and everytime I go in there I think about all the times we would goof off at work, and it brings a smile to my face. We were all really close at Foodland, and we'll always have that special bond. I say a prayer for you everynight, hoping that your listening to me. I miss you a lot and hope that your happy where your at, because thats all that matters to me. I hope you never for get the fun bus rides we had together to the career center, you were acting really goofy that day:) (Nov.17th) I remember calling you a crackhead, and all you did was smile at me. You'll always be very special to me, and I will never forget you. I can't wait until that day comes where I can see you again. I love you and your family. Please watch over all of us and your family. Take Care. Love you buddy :)
Dawn Balint <RdoggO69@cs.com>
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It's been almost 6 months since Chris' death. Yet, not a day goes by when I don't think o him. But lately he's been on my mind more and more. Today is the Tri High Ruckus...too bad Chris isn't here to perform again. It would have been a blast... I met him at the Autumn Bash last October...it was a great show. Tonight at the Tri High we will be honoring Chris with a moment of silence. ...I only wish I could have known him longer. Every time I come to this site, I am more and more amazed by the work that is posted. Even the comic book from when he was younger. At least he is in a better place now...happy and watching over all of us.
A friend <BumbleBuzzie@yahoo.com>
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Congratulations to Cori Smith! Scott tells me as of today you are an official driver! Chris would have been so proud of you! I know he will watch over you as you journey behind the wheel. BE SAFE!! Love,
Mrs. Kempa
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as a student that had no relation with this young man, i would like to spend this time to send my condolences. my friend told me to look at this site and it is truly inspiring for me. my friend passed on this past summer and his death really hit the community and the school hard. but it brought people from every social group with totally different interests to unite as just people. no one knows what its like to lose something until it happens and that is the terrible truth. the only thing i have left to say is that chris's passing should never be forgotten and can only be a wake up call for all whos never felt the pain of losing a loved one. never forget him, and what he accomplished, for he is an inspiration to all. much love.
sander <sander2001@yahoo.com>
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HEY MOM, I'M STILL HERE

Hey Mom, I know you are hurting, I see your pain and your tears. I want to hold you and just tell you, Hey Mom, I'm still here.

I have never lost a child but I feel the pain of your loss. Oh,I loved your child too Mom. Can I help you carry this cross?

You know that you still have me and I thank God I am still alive. I want to be like you Mom,I want to learn how to survive.

I may not accept the loss, but I'll be here when you cry. I don't know what to do for you, but if you help me, I'll try.

I lost someone that I love too Mom ,it's a pain I feel each day. My best friend throughout my life....my brother has suddenly passed away.

Today when I write this to you...I feel the wet drop of a tear. For when I think about your loss Mom...I Say, "Hey Mom, I'm still here!"
Author Unknown
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mrs. kempa, happy mothers day!! sorry it is a day late. i was at cedar point and i got home at 2:00 in the morning. and then i slept until 4:00 and was at work at 5:00. so i hope that you had a very wonderful mothers day. lots of love always and forever, jenny
jenny <msbanana37@hotmail.com>
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We felt the gentle presence of Chris at the Players banquet on Friday...we knew that he was watching over us...so we sent greetings back up to him as a group! He will always be a special part of our family and we are proud to say that. We miss him and love him very much. Mrs. Kempa~keep the faith and know that your beautiful butterfly friend was a Mother's Day gift from Chris~ You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday...Love, Ms. Hillman ~Ms. Hillman
Ms. Hillman
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Dear chris- yesterday I went to your mom's house and delivered our gift to her, I know you weren't here to help give it in person but you were here in spirit and memory. She liked it, don't worry. My mom met her and they chatted a little about plants then we left. Do you remember that day that me, you and jen walked home from school to your house and I told you my uncle was mving in near you guys and that whenever I went to their house that I would come over to your house? Well I told your mom and that whenever I visit my uncle that I am going to walk overto your house to see your mom and just plain hang out! I won't be able to hang out with you but I will be close to those you loved the most and with those that I care about. I will feel reassured and calm knowing that I will be in a place you once walked in. I miss you so much that my mom thinks that I am cutting people out of my life.........what do you think? I know I've changed but I don't know. Sometimes I just feel like I can't talk to people about anything because they don't know, but really they probably do in some way. I get attitudy towards my mom and so bitchy and I wanna chang that and be myself again but I could only be that if you were here to help me. Why can't you come back? I asked my mom that a while ago and her reply was, "how would you like it if you got to go to heaven for a month and then got taken away until the rapture? you probably wouldn't like it, would you?" And I know that sounds reasonable but I just can't help but be selfish with you about this! I want you back, chris! you always helped me with everything. maybe I need to get a grip and start lookin at other stuff but I just can't. Well, I better go! But don't forget me, please promise you won't. I wanna be able to walk into heaven and have you run up to me with open arms! I luv luv luv you!!! Love, your friend for always and forever----->>me
"punk <rocker">
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Yesterday was a pretty tough day for Moms who have lost their children and for children who have lost their Moms. Wishing you much love and peace everyday. You are in my thoughts and in my prayers.
MCS
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Dear Chris, Guess what? I miss you like crazy right now. For the first time in almost 6 months, I went to our spot this morning. The spot where if you ever saw me crying or sad at the least little bit you would pull me over and talk to me about whatever was wrong. We have always been friends no matter what you know that right? I loved the fact that you and I could always talk about everything. I really wish you were here this past week to help me out with a few things. My life would have changed completely. Yesterday, I just sat there all day thinking about my Mom. I miss her sooo much. I hope that you two are getting to know one another. I used to talk to her about all of my friends all the time so she would know in case something happened to one, she was supposed to watch over that person until the rest of his/her family was there. I really wish that you and her have already seen each other and met. I hope that she is helping your family as much as she helps the rest of everyone else. She loved to help people. Anyway, I just sat there thinking about how much I missed her and how much I missed you. I almost picked up the phone to call your mother to wish her a happy Mother's Day possible but I realized that she would probably not have remembered me. That's okay though. I am sure we will get to know each other when the time is right. I miss you Chris. I can't believe that God would want to take you away so early, but if that is his wish, it must be done. I hope that Mommy is doing okay. I haven't talked to her in a long time. I just really wish that I could see both of you again. I would rather be with you two than anyone else in the world. I have tried really hard to not cry yesterday. But I always cry in May. Partly cause my birthday was May 3rd and then Mother's Day. Usually I have such a good birthday. You know me and Moriah have the same birthday right? Well she and I weren't really feeling like it was the funnest. Partly because both of us wanted you to be there so bad. I really hope that your with your mom all the time. And your brother and father too. They all need to know that your okay so bad. 6 months is a very long time Chris. I hate to say this but, Where did the time go? It seems still like yesterday, I was just at your funeral. I am really sorry that I didn't go to the funeral home to say goodbye. I couldn't bear to see you in those clothes though. You weren't a person to dress like that and I wanted to say goodbye to you, not your physical being. I also heard from some people that you didn't even look like yourself. I couldn't just cope with that either. You know, now that I think about it, I never said goodbye to my Mommy either. She was cremated. I haven't visited you two in a long time. Maybe I will just go and have Sanish take me to the Cemetary today. You know that you aren't that far away from Mom. She is in the building off to the side. I went to go and see your grave on February 14th and it scared me because there was just two stakes in the ground that said your name. So I was the one to leave all those roses. I remember that in 7th grade you once brought me roses to cheer me up one day. Right fresh out of a lawn somewhere. You said that fresh flowers out of the ground were always the prettiest than those store bought ones. I laughed so hard at that. Anyway, I do have to go now Chris. But I love you. I miss you. And I hope that you are watching over all of us. Espacially your mom. She misses you sooooo much. To the family: I hope that you all are feeling much better. Don't worry about Chris. My mom is watching over him. Love you all.
Katy <kitten5384@yahoo.com>
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To the Kempa Family : I wanted to let you know you are still always in my thougts and prayers...Chris is always on my mind, he is missed and loved very much! Happy Mother's Day...and may God be with you today :)
...::a friend::....
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Mother's Day Chris,...While I can't honestly say it's my first with out you .....I did celebrate five with Adam before you were born. I can honestly say however, it is the saddest. I'm afraid every holiday and special event for the rest of my life will be clouded by sadness. I'm sitting in the cemetary as I write this under the willow tree right by your grave. Off to my left is the pond, they have the fountains on today,it's beautiful. But right in front of me is your still fresh looking grave and that is not beautiful. A couple of older women have already approached me. Looking at the freshness of the grave one said," your mother must have died recently" "yes" I said, "it was recent but it was my son, not my mother." She put her hand over her mouth and said,"oh my" and walked away not quite knowing what to say. Another elderly woman asked," visiting your mother?" and I replied,"No actually, my son" She said "Oh dear, he must have been very young" And I said, "Yes, just sixteen" and we both started crying. There are so many people here today, it truly resembles a park. People are roller blading, biking, and walking their dogs. I do hope you like it, I think you do. The ducks and geese are around too. Next time maybe I'll bring cheerios. Remember how we would feed the ducks at Hines Park when you were little?

I'm wearing the black turtle neck sweater we bought at Old Navy as part of your going back to school clothes.I took it over right after you were killed.I didn't buy you much,just this sweater, another one and the jeans you were killed in. I wanted to buy you more that day but you were in a hurry .....big plans of some kind or other. So you said, "This is fine Mom, it's plenty." So we left and you were on your way. It's hard to believe the school year you barely started is almost over and you've been gone almost half of a year. I try to think what you'd be doing now.....what we'd be doing. You might be driving now I don't know. We'd be thinking about Senior pictures and you would have attended the Players banquet the other night. Your art and computer graphics would have grown some more and you'd be preparing for Camp Portfolio at CCS this summer....you couldn't wait for that! You were so looking forward to Senior year. We even found where you had written in one of your note books,"Can't wait to be a Senior!"

A few weeks ago at the Compassionate Friends balloon launch we attached messages to our balloons. I wrote, "Do you miss us as much as we miss you?" After I let mine go I thought,"Oh God. I hope not" That would be much too painful. I wouldn't want you to feel even a fraction of the pain we're feeling. I hope you are blissfully happy. I keep looking for the signs and I'm starting to see them!

Over the years, during my frequent conversations with Mrs. Allen....most about our kids, once in a while the subject of "what would we do if anything ever happened to one of our kids?" would come up. We didn't dwell on the subject, it was much too uncomfortable to think about. But each time we would arrive at the same conclusion. If anything ever happened to one of our kids we would just die. Then I would always say,"Now Claudia, we just have to trust, we have to trust that they'll be ok." Dad always said I was too trusting and now I believe him. Since Nov. 20th I have lost complete trust in many people and many things. The cruel joke is I didn't die. I just felt like I did and have been sentenced to live the rest of my life with two bricks tied to my heart and my insides ripped out. I never worried about you walking to school. When you went off in your friends cars I worried. When you went on long trips with out us I worried, but not when you walked to school.

I never really cared what people thought of me. I taught you and Adam to be the same. Go with your heart and do what's right for you. I care even less now. We still go to the Memorial every night to light candles and I'm sure that irks some people. My response to them is a big,"OH WELL" I want the world to know you're still thought of...even if it's just our little world. I think some people thought that morning you were "just some kid" and you'd be forgotten in a week or two. What they didn't realize at the time was you were MY kid. The sweet,gentle,multitalented boy who had inspired and was loved by so many. A boy who at sixteen had accomplished much more than most people accomplish in their liftime. WE will NEVER let you be forgotten.

I still get the occasional,"are you over it yet?"And when I reply, "No I'm not" some reply, "really..still??" I don't bother to respond but I am positive I will never get over it. Used to it maybe, I hope, but never over it. I will always feel cheated out of the future you lost and as a result the future I lost. What a waste of talent and such a kind, loving boy.

I've come to realize the most tragic victim in this whole horrible ordeal , besides you of course is Adam. Not only did he lose his little brother and only sibling but truly his best friend. A part of him died that day too. No one will ever know him like you did. He also has to live and deal with permanently altered parents. In the future when we're gone his immediate family will be gone. Rob was over the other night and while I didn't hear the whole conversation I heard him say,"My brother is...." Then and there it hit me. The only way Adam can ever refer to you is in the past tense," My brother was....." The only thing he can say about you in the present tense is," My brother is dead." And there is no future tense, there's nothing new to report about a dead boy and that breaks my heart. He also has to shoulder the burden of all the hopes and dreams we have as parents for our children. If he does have children they'll have no uncle, aunt or cousins form their father's side. Everytime he leaves the house now I have an anxiety attack. Not to the point I'd ever tell him he couldn't do something. I'd never interfere with his life that way but to the point where I don't relax until I know he's safe. Once you've lost one, it becomes a horrible reality that you COULD lose another. That truly would do me in, I would give up. As it turns out, no one will be graduating in 2002. Adam was so devastated by your death he dropped all of his Engeneering classes last semester. I encouraged him to do so. Who could concentrate on such intense subjects with a hole in your heart? I'm glad now he won't be graduating that year. If he did it would have been over shadowed by sadness. We wouldn't have been able to help feeling Chris should be graduating too and the party was to have been for two. The only good thing about this whole tragedy where Adam is concerned is I think it will be easier for him to accept my death. If I am able to speak to him at the time I can say,"Don't be sad, I'm going to see Chris and I'm happy" I know that will comfort him.

Our tradition on Mother's days past was to wash and put out the deck and porch furniture. You were always willing to help with that chore. That meant we were getting close to opening the pool! The house is still so quiet without you. You truly were the energy. I still cry every day. Some days for a few minutes and some days for hours.I think about you all the time and miss you every day. Keep sending me the signs. Most days they help and then some days nothing helps. I promise I will live out the rest of my life so you'd be proud of me, just as you lived your much too short life so I was always proud of you. I will love you for a life time and beyond and keep your spirit alive......I promise! Love,
Mom
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Dear Fran, The symbol for "resurection", or life after death, is the butterfly. You are not the first person who has said they have been visited by a butterfly who would stay with them for hours. You are not losing your mind Fran. Working for Angela Hospice where the symbol of the butterfly is every where you look, you can believe me when two or three, sometimes four people in one day hears a voice calling their name and we ask out loud, "who keeps calling me"? We all look at each other and smile as we wonder outloud who has come to visit us today? Yes, I'm sure that was Chris in the garden, a place you both love very much. The more you believe in these "visits" the more frequent they will occur. What a wonderful Mothers Day gift Chris has given you. Love to ALL of you,
Nancy
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Mrs Kempa I just wanted to take a moment to wish you a happy mother's day. I know that Chris loved you very much, and I can tell just what a wonderful mother you are. Hope you have a wonderful day
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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Mrs. Kempa, We've never met, but I'm a friend of Adams. Knowing how much he loves and admires you, I'd just like to wish you a peaceful Mother's Day.
sarah fabian <nevendmath@aol.com>
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Dear Fran, Thank you for displaying the very beautiful hand-made card from a Mother's Day gone by. It's a beautiful treasure of a loving bond that you shared. I only wish he was still here to give you your wish in person today, but I know he is with you always even if you cannot see him at this time. The butterfly story and the photograph today are also lovely. I know you were going to the cemetary. I called you this afternoon and suspect that's where you'd gone when I got the answering machine. God Bless. LOVE, Kathy
Kathy
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Dear Fran, I know you'll find some peace and love today....you're just that kind of person. You have been so strong through your grief and sadness. KNOW that Chris is with you today and always....he loved you so much and still does!
A Friend Who Loves You Very Much <Don't Want Any Unwanted Mail>
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Happy Mother's Day Mrs. Kempa. See, i said that even though Chris isn't here to tell you Happy Mother's Day to you, he'll be here in someway of form on this day to let you know that he still loves you. I think that butterfly was Chris in some form to let you know he's still here. Well gotta go. Love Always, Katie B.
Katie B.
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Today's "Art" (5/13/01....Mother's Day) is obviously a card Chris made for me one year. Unfortunatly, I don't recall what year. I would guess maybe fourth grade. He made me many cards over the years but I'm very sorry to say I saved very few and now I regret that very much. But who knew.

Today's picture was taken in late August last year. We were in Buffalo for my parent's 50th Wedding Anniversary, less than three months before he was killed. That's the second last picture we had taken together. The three of us were SO CLOSE.

Yesterday I worked in the garden for a good three hours. There was a butterfly that stayed with me the whole time. At one point it even landed on my sweatshirt. I told my husband it was Chris. At first I know he thought I was crazy again. But every time he came out the butterfly WAS STILL THERE! At one point we went out front and the butterfly followed. I think even my husband was convinced in the end! And believe me, he's a tough one to convince.
Fran Kempa
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I can imagine how hard of a day this must be for you. But if little messages from Chris don't seem to be coming to you today I'm sure its because he is right there with your family...but it's just hard to tell. May your day be as wonderful as possible. You and your family are in my prayers each day.
Dear Mrs. Kempa: <blondbabe1385@yahoo.com>
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, My thoughts and prayrs are with you daily as I'm sure many others are too. On this mothers day know that Chris is looking over you and loving you more than ever. I know that you are loved by many and a lot of the kids love you like a mom, so I know you will be surounded by lots of love today. Love, Jill
Jill Sandulowich <Jlsandul@aol.com>
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Mrs.Kempa! I know its not much, but I just want you to know that every single one of Chris' friends (and theres LOTS of us) are thinking about you. Happy Mother's Day Love- US! <3
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We hold them in our parent arms for days or weeks or years. Now we hold them in our hearts and cry the darkest tears.

The cord attached to children, eternally fine and strong. We never leave the missing; It holds us all life long.

Our children now inside us - our souls tattooed with gold. Their love,their words, caresses, are hugs that we still hold.

If we open to the knowledge, that they aren't completely gone, we will sometimes feel their touching, sometimes soft and sometimes stromg.

When they show us nature's rainbows, we can feel their proud delight,sending signs to show they're living,only far beyond our sight.
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Dear Mrs. Kempa- I pray that the Lord will comfort you in your time of sadness, depression, and maybe hate! We all love you, and I hope your mother's day goes better than you think it will, Yes it will be hard I bet but you do know that you are still chris' mother and he your son, he loves you and always will I know! He's just not here to tell you in words that you can actually hear (which would be way better!) he's cellebrating it up there with his heavenly father. And I am sure that you will cherish the time with adam tommorrow. I put a little something together for you and hope to get it to you soon!!! I've been waiting until I could, I get impatient when I have something I wanna give to someone. When I went on line to see the site, I didn't expect to see the painting! It was really odd, because I almost didn't go on but then something told me I should it just happens that I go on the day you posted it! I am glad that you like the painting! I couldn't go to sleep one night after his death so I had to get my anger and love and sadness out without waking up my parents. so I painted and then it occurred to me "Mrs. Kempa" I always wanted to do something for you before that but it never entered my mind totally. You and your family will always remain in my thoughts and prayers! I love you all. Love in Christ-->>a friend
"punk <rocker">
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Fran: God Bless You today and give you the strength you need for a very special Mother's Day. We think of you often and hope each day well get easier. You and your family have been a very special friend to Franklin High School.
A Friend of a Franklin Friend
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Dear Ms. Kempa, All thought I have never actualy met you....I have wanted to say somthing to you, however I never knew what to say. And today I would like to wish you a happy mothers day! Chris was such a wonderful friend and person!! I am lucky that he was a part of my life and he will always hold a place in my heart! I love ya Chris!!!!! Love Erin!
Erin <Eringrl2001@yahoo.com>
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Happy Mother's Day Fran. Hoping that Chris and all the kids and Moms who have gone before us paint the skies with a beautiful day to behold everyone's cherished memories of their loved ones.
Mary Stanczyk <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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Today's painting (5/12/01)was not done by Chris but of Chris,shortly after he was killed.It was done by his good friend and fellow artist Moriah Nixon. She gave it to me during the Memorial controversy just when I needed a lift. I think she did a wonderful job and even though I thanked her then, I thank you again Moriah! That was so thoughtful.

Today's picture is of a garden stone given to me yesterday by my dear friend Nancy Leist. It's difficult to read on the page,it says: IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY AND MEMORIES A LANE, I'D WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN AND BRING YOU HOME AGAIN. I'm sorry I missed you yesterday Nancy, you were right though, the first thing I did after I read it was cry! I've picked out a spot in the pool yard for it. A place we both loved so much. He loved the pool, I loved the garden. I know I'll be talking to you soon. Thank you so much for such an unexpected, wonderful gift. It was truly yesterday's "hello from Heaven" Love,
Fran Kempa
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Dear Fran: Our thoughts are with you this Mother's Day....as always, With Love,
JoAnne and Bill
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Letter To Mom

Mom, please don't feel guilty, It was just my time to go. I see you are still feeling sad, and the tears just seem to flow.

We all come to earth for our lifetime and for some it's not many years. I don't want you to keep crying, you are shedding so many tears.

I haven't really left you, even though it may seem so. I have just gone to my Heavenly home and I'm closer to you than you'll know.

Just believe that when you say my name I'm standing next to you, I know you long to see me, but there's nothing I can do.

But I'll still send you messages and hope you understand, that when your time comes to "cross over", I'll take you by the hand.
Happy Mothre's Day <>
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He was my son - He was my best friend forever. Not long God's had his precious soul, though it seems as if forever.

I wish I'd been his soul-pilot,to guide him gently on his way. And when we'd got to Heaven,I do believe I'd stay.
He Was My Son <John Tidball>
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I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard Him say.

A Mother has a baby this we know is true but God can you be a Mother when your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can He replied with confidence in His voice. I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a life time and others for a day and some I send to feel your womb but there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this God, I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared his throat and then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile with other children and say;

"We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear. My Mom loved me so much I got to come straight here."

"I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me,I learned my lesson very quickly my Mom set me free."

I miss my Mom oh so much but I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep on her pillow's where I lay."

"I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear, Mom don't be sad today,I'm your baby and I'm here."

So my dear sweet one, your child is ok. He is here in My home and this is where he'll stay. He'll wait for you with Me until your lesson is through. And on the day that you come home he'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother, it's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of right from the very start.
Author Unknown
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What a great idea to split the scholarship! This way Chris is helping two other artists. Thoughts and prayers with you all always.
A Franklin Parent
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I was just wondering if anyone knows when the plaque will be put up in cemetary? thanks
a friend <->
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, I was just hoping to wish you the happiest Mother's Day possible. That is definitly hard, I know. I hope you feel better Mrs. Kempa. Chris wouldn't want you to not be happy. Love always, Katy
Katy <kitten5384@yahoo.com>
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There were two applicants for the first annual Christopher Kempa Memorial Art Scholarship. Both cover letters mirrored Chris' love of art. It was clear it was their heart just as it was Chris'. The examples of art work each submitted were exceptional. As a result, the committee found the selection very difficult.

The final decision was made to split the Scholarship. Each applicant will recieve a one-time $500.00 award. While this may not be the case in future years, this year we are very happy with the decision.

Mr. Kempa, Adam and I would like to congratulate Marty Moszcynski and Jaclyn Devericks. I know Chris is smiling down on both of you girls.I hope he will be an inspiration to you in your future pursuits in the art field. We hope to see you both May 30th at Honors Night. Congratulations again. Love,
Mrs. Kempa
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I know it's like a cupple days early but I just want to say Happy Mother's Day to Mrs. Kempa. I hope everything will be alright since you have one less family member in your house to tell you these words "Happy Mother's Day mom" I know it will be hard for you to not see Chris there to say those words to you...but i know he will tell you either in anything that reminds you of him or in your dreams. My thoughts, love and support goes out to you. Love Always, Katie B.
Katie B.
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I will chares the picture you gave mrs.Kempa and it will go into my collection of clipings that I have from the accadent and will never forget any one of his lesons he has though me and his friends. I hope who ever got the Chris Kempa shoclar schip uses it wisly. I will always know what he wanted to do in life and I have some picutes he took and those are so pricles and so good they have so much feeling in them. I hope you can pull through this sunday. I know the one day I will not be able to go completly through without crying is his birthday however I will go see him as much as I can over the summer. I will always love him with all my heart and will keep you and your family in my heart forever.
cid swarthout <sonofadamlover@yahoo.com>
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hey chris. hows heaven going. im sure ur happy up there but we are so sad down here without you. everybody trys to think that you wont want us to cry but we just cant help the tears. your parents told me the Chris Fest is set for june 17. thats so cool. i talked to dan and he told me all the bands that are playing. its gonna be huge. man chris, our junior year is almost over. we would be seniors next year and you would get your car. wed all graduate together and have a great time. it would be tough say goodbye at graduation, but not as tough as this goodbye. i mean when we graduated we could talk on the phone and visit, but now all we have is memories and friends. high school is going by so fast and i cant believe that in a few months ill be a senior. i cant believe your not going to be there on graduation day. now i have no idea why this graduation thing came up i just think it and write it. i just wish you would be able to graduate with us in 02. im sorta scared to graduate next year and leave everyone, but it will be cool. there are many memories and many of you. i know when i graduate in a year and a month ill move away and miss everyone and may forget alot of people, but i will still miss you the most and will never forget you. i wont see you for a while, god willing, but when i do it will be great just like back in "the day" man chris its just sad to think you wont be there with us all at the graduation parties and what not. we will definately throw you a huge party next year. i miss you buddy. dont think that i dont think about you everyday. we all miss you chris. Happy mothers day mrs Kempa. i know it will be your worst one yet but you had the best son ever!! you should and im sure you are proud to have raised such a kid. chris take care of your mom dad and brother and i cant wait to see your smiling face again when we chill in heaven. im waitin for that day when we meet again. i love you buddy and i miss you more than you will ever imagine. keep shinin down buddy love woody
jason <avsrule1449@aol.com>
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Dear Cindy,

Thank you for your Mother's Day wishes. I can honestly say it will be the saddest, worst Mother's Day I've ever celebrated but some how I will try to make the most of it.

We met this afternoon at Franklin to determine the recipient of the Chris Memorial Art Scholarship. The results will be announced at Franklin tomorrow and on the web site this weekend. I'm very pleased the way things went and I know Chris is too.

Cindy, I gave Mr. Rheault the picture of Chris you've waited so long and patiently for. If he forgets to give it to you please ask him for it. Love,
Mrs. Kempa
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You will always be in my heart and I will aways look to you for advice in what ever I need help with and I need a lot of help. To Mrs.Kempa thank you for rising chris the way you did he was the best friend a girl could ask for and want and from what I heard he was the best son and brother. so from the bottom of my heart have a happy mothers day and I hope you stay the way you are
cid Swarthout
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I just want to say that I am very excited about the Roadside Memorial Plaque; the photo of it is awesome. I am anxious to see it in person next time I'm in Michigan. I know the recipient of the very first Chris Kempa memorial art scholarship will be truly blessed and honored. How wonderful that there will be another memorial benefit concert next month ! What a wonderful group of teens. Finally, to the author of today's poem, I WISH. Thank you for such a poignant, thought-provoking poem. Most of us do not know the emotional journey that my sister walks. I shared the poem with a co-worker whose 19 year old daughter died in a car accident last weekend. Wren's mom is just beginning her journey that Fran has been on for nearly 6 months. LOVE and Blessings.
Aunt Kathy <mskatep@aol.com>
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hEY CHRIS-guess what! I went to my first "elliott" show on sat! It was awesome! I didn't really even know that they were gonna be there, I just went for "the Juliana Theory" and when I got there my friend steve and justin told me that "elliott" was there too. I was hoping to get a hoodie like yours that says "kentucky elliott" but they didn't have one so I got a baseball tee instead. I wish I could show it to you! I miss ya tons. I put the photo of you that your mom gave me by the head of my bed so I can look at it whenever I start to forget your face...............don't worry I never fully do, but it's just that after a while of not seeing someone your image of their face sort of changes in a way......ha ha I am probably making absolutley no sense am I? HA Ok well, I luv luv luv you so much! LATER------>>moriah Mrs. Kempa- I was wondering if I could stop by on firday the 11th? I made you something. I will have to bring it over before 4:30 unless you aren't home, because I have to go to my church for a meeting for my missions trip. Or if I can't then could I bring it over after 9 on saturday? If not that's ok, just wondering, but I WILL get it to you sooner or later! I hope you like it! Oh!! My mom says "hi" she tells me to say "hi" all the time, but I always forget to write to you! I luv you and you will ALWAYS be in my prayers--ALWAYS! Ditto, Adam, and Mr. Kempa. I guess I will talk to you later, Laove in Christ>>moriah
punkrocker <sk8erchic02@juno>
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We will be meeting at Franklin tomorrow ,(5/9) to choose the recipient of the first Chris Kempa Memorial Art Scholarship! I'm very anxious to see all the great work and who the recipient will be. I know Chris will be with us too, guiding the process along.
Fran Kempa
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I Wish

I WISH..you would feel free to speak my son's name, don't remove his memorabilia or his photo from your frame.

I WISH.. you would understand I have tears to shed. It's not what you've done nor what you may have said.

I WISH..that you would know when I have a real bad day, I don't need counseling nor for you to stay away.

I WISH..you knew the frustration, depression and hopelessness I sometimes feel. His death plays an important part in how I cpoe and deal.

I WISH..you knew the passing of a child is viewed seperatly from another,that cannot be compared with the loss of a sister or a mother.

I WISH..you could understand that I am in no way a contagious disease; so if you have kept away from me;in comfort, together we could feel at ease.

I WISH..you understood the physical reactions that I'm going through...gaining weight, sleepless nights to you these are just a few.

I WISH..you would still remember that my son is still around. His soul will always be with us; only his body is in the ground.

I WISH..you to still say a prayer on the anniversary of his death, on the holidays in between, on the day we celebrate his first breath.

I WISH..you wouldn't console us with your invitations to party out, this would be a temporary crutch, that is not what healing is all about.

I WISH..you would understand I must get through this sorrow I feel. I must experience it to the fullest, I must feel hurt before I can heal.

I WISH..you wouldn't put a time on the healing of my grief, the first few years will be traumatic, like an alcaholic recovery is never brief.

I WISH..you understood that grief changes people and they will never be the same again. If you're waiting for that person to return your waiting could be in vain.

I WISH.. that our questioning of values and beliefs will not be inspected. I will have many traumatic days, it is part of grief that is to be expected.

I WISH..you took the time to get to know the new me. I am not the same person I was before my son died, I have new aspirations, thoughts and dreams, I know you could like me if you really tried!
TCF
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Today's picture (5/7) was also taken in Chicago 11/9/00.Who would have ever guessed we'd only have him for 11 more days! That sweet face is gone from this earth now and I'll never be the same.
Fran Kempa
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I was never one of the lucky people to be part of Chris's life but my boyfriend was he worked with Chris and went to school with and. I read the site and just could not stop crying I know what it's like all to well to lose a close friend last year I had someone very close to me die. And I havent been the same since my heart goes out to the Kempa family and friends.You may think that you will never get over something like this and you never will Chris will always be a part of you in lasting memories.You will learn to life life one day at a time and always know that their is an angel watching over you.My thoughts and prayers go out to Mr and MrsKempa and Chris's friends*~
Christina <aeangel33550@aol.com>
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My Beautiful Brother

You were my best friend, my other half. Every night I dream of your beautiful smile and laugh. My heart aches for you every day, God why did you have to take my brother away? Even though we are physically apart, your soul and spirit remain in my heart. I know one day we will be together again, and I will be heart broken and sad until then.
Mary Elizabeth Herrick <In Loving memory Of Steven Michael>
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Just wanted to let you know the memorial plaque is really beautiful. It is comforting to know the plaque will always be at the memorial site just like chris will ALWAYS be in our hearts and memory. No one can take that away. Love Claud
Claudia Allen <CLU455>
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The picture today of Chris's memorial plaque is very nice. I am so happy that it is finally a reality. Something permanent to remind everyone of a wonderful human being. Lot of love always Chris.
JoAnne <jgvpri@aol.com>
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Just when you get excited about ONE benefit show this summer...another comes along! More info to come!
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A Mother's Tear

A single tear trickles down my cheek,

It tells a tale I dare not speak.

Of days gone by that have been stilled,

It tells of dreams left unfulfilled.

It's wetness holds "What might have been."

Not going to the Senior Prom,

No more, "I love you Mom."

No cap and gown on graduation day,

NO wedding bells in the month of May.

No more family birthday celebrations.

No voting for the leader of our nation.

Gone the dream of horse and farm.

Never mine to hold his babes in arm.

You followed the path of my lonely tear.

It speaks of the one that I hold most dear.

Now, you'll hear this mother cry,

Why God, did my son die?
Karen Bell
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You forgot the S
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I'll have to visit chris's grave too....
A. K.
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Hello Chris. Today Jenny, Kelly and I went you visit you at the cemetary for the first time. The lady knew right where you were without even looking. I guess you must have had lots of visiters. Even though, we still had a hard time finding you because there was no marker. Just a rectangle of dirt. It looked do lonly. I couldn't believe that that's where you are now. The grave looked so new. Like you were just barried. It doesn't seem like it's been five months. I hope you liked the flowers and little gifts. I didn't know what to say to you, but I think you know what I meant. I'm begining to realize more and more that your actually gone, and it makes the pain worse. I miss you so much. I will always pray for you and everyone. God bless you forever.
Janine <Heartshappedboxx@aol.com>
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ALRIGHT!!!! I'm so happy that Chris Kempa Fest is going to be in the area of Livonia! WOOHOO! It's soooo close to home! I know for sure that i'm not going to miss this one!!! Chris i know you're going to be there when this whole thing is up and ready!!! Well gotta go. Katie B.
Katie B.
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Wilson Barn is booked for Chris Fest 2001! Date and details to follow soon!
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It's so sad to think each one of those balloons in the last picture represents a child! Prayers for all of you.
A Sad Parent
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Balloon Lift

Balloons......Balloons....Gaily colored shapes of plastic and helium......Twisting and tumbling as if anxious to hurry aloft and swiftly bear Our special thoughts and personal messages. With tears and markers we gently inscribe Names, dates,hearts, hugs.We kiss the smooth surfaces.....feverishly wishing that they could be instead....the living flesh of certain dear faces. On many a wing and a prayer We hoist our bouncy emissaries way beyond reach....into the azure desert sky, Then strain our sight to watch till not the smallest speck remains visable.Though in our minds eye we see them still.....our precious messages..tender thoughts are conveyed- oh so carefully....via the iridescence of God's atmosphere.....flowing smoothly from our hearts and minds....on the whispered stirrings of angel's wings....Arriving safely....to lovingly reach and touch the eager and receptive souls Of our beloved children.
Vicki Douglas-Otto <TCF Tuson, Az.>
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Today's picture was yesterday's "Hello From Heaven." The balloon launch last night was very beautiful but very emotional. I loved the idea of sending a message to Chris, but having to do it that way really hurts. I'd so much rather walk into his room, give him a hug and tell him whatever it is I need to in person.
Fran Kempa
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This is a poem that I wrote for chris a few days after he died an I finally feellike I can share it with you. Goodbyes By: Laura Evans No more smiles, no more laughter N more hugs from this day after My friend is lost, no an angel in the sky I’m left here alone, to cry Why did you disappear, why did you go away TO a place where you must stay You died today, by someone’s hand They said they have done everything then can But it’s too late and you’re gone…. Pain the last picture for me, not that you’re gone Pain it in the sky, write it in a song Sketch the shapes, to be your face Draw and shade in the perfect place Send it in the wind, telling me it’s you As a shape with the backround so blue Oh angel friend that I once knew Why did this have to happen to you? You disappeared and went away To a place where you must stay I’m missing you already Through you haven’t been gone long I know it wasn’t your choice to leave So I mist now keep strong You where a great friend to me Through our tough times You where they’re when I called And time of laughter I now find
Laura <AshenRose18@aol.com>
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The big Nankin Mill Pavillion in Hines Park costs $100 to rent for a day 9am-9pm(8pm?). There is electricity, when it works properly. Parking there and across the street at the Nankin Mill. Park closes at 10pm. It's the most popular pavillion for large crowds and gets booked fast. It also floods after a good rain!
MCS
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I think having the Chris Fest at Wilson barn or Hines Park would be a great idea! I think at Hines you could hold more people then you would at Wilson Barn...but you have to ask the city of Westland if it's alright to do something like that at a park. Chris: Sup Chris? I've been thinking about you a lot lately, more then i ever had. I went into Ms. Hillman's room today to say hi to her like i normaly do now, and she had the veriety show tape going and Scott and Calebs' performance of magic was on...just watching it again almost put me into tears...but i didn't want to cry infront of everybody in the room. But everyday that i see something that reminds me of you, i know in away it's you saying hi to me and telling me that your alright...i like those little reminders from you everyday. Well Chris i gotta go. I love you and i miss you. The Kempa family my prayers, love and support is always with you guys! Mrs. Kempa i'm happy that you're doing alright! Talk to you later Chris! Love, Katie B.
Katie B.
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I just wanted to say that Caleb and Scott did a beautiful job singing and playing "Magic" at the Variety Show...I had tears streaming down my face before Scott even started to sing. I know that Chris was there with us that night...I miss you buddy, more than you will ever know. Mrs. Kempa~you have been in my prayers...just wanted you to know that I've been thinking about you. Is there any way that I could possibly get a copy of the picture from Chicago? Well, Chris, I miss you and love you tons. Hope everyone has a safe spring evening. Michele
Michele <shelly613@hotmail.com>
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Bless you Sara Casper for today's "Hello From Heaven." It came in today's mail....another picture! Taken fall of Sopohmore year during IS THERE A COMIC IN THE HOUSE. It's a picture of Chris,Zach Storey and David Stollings. Sara, it really brightened my day and made me feel better. Thank you so much! If anyone else stumbles across any Chris pictures PLEASE send them my way! LOVE,
Mrs. kempa
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I agree with Ryan, the Wilson Barn would be a fantstic place to hold the benefit. What about somewhere in Hines Park?
corinne <curcusenvy@aol.com>
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Dear Chris,

Today (5/2) is the day you would have started asking your most pressing question for the month of May."Mom, when are we going to open the pool??" My reply to you would have been the same as in previous years,"in a few weeks." We'll still open it this year but it won't be used much. It has to be the coldest pool in the world but that never stopped you. Lips blue, teeth chattering I'd ask,"Don't you want to get out?" and you always replied, "No Mom, it's nice." I'm glad we had it for you to enjoy for nine summers.

Thank you for protecting Adam last week. Even though they totaled his car, thank God (and you) he was unharmed.....You'd like his new car! Who knows, by now you might have been able to drive it but I bet he wouldn't let you!

Tonight is our Compassionate Friends meeting. We're doing the annual balloon launch in memory of you....be watching for them O.K.?? I love you,
Mom
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I'll have to check on Schoolcraft....good suggestion!
Cyndi! <ckbenefitshow@yahoo.com>
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Would Schoolcraft College be workable for a benefit?
MCS
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i am interested in helping to get the benefit show going somewhere in Livonia... has anyone considered Wilson Barn? I know that you can rent it out for things sometimes, and it wouldn't be a band place to have the show... the RSB camp could probably provide the PA and whatnot... the only thing is that it costs money to rent out the space... maybe if we worked on getting a sponsorship like was acheived in Grand Rapids, the cost would be cut a bit... also, has anyone considered the room the Tri-High Ruckus thing is held in over at Churchill? it's a great space, and there is a stage too... cyndi, email me if you want to talk about this more.
rallen <ryanrawk@hotmail.com>
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First they make them rip down the Memorial.....now they won't provide a venue for a benefit show......what kind of city DO we live in?? I thought Livonia was all about "Famlies First". That motto certainly hasn't applied to this family now has it?
Again, Sorry to be a citizen of Livonia
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Ok guys we need your help! (you too Chris!) We're looking for a place to hold Chris Kempa Fest in the Livonia area and are getting no where fast. Go out and Pull every string you can! If your dad, grandpa or whoever is a member of the Elks or VFW and can help us email me. If your aunt owns a theater, if grandma has a big yard and no neighbors, if your uncle owns an empty building/parking lot, if mom happens to work in city hall...EMAIL ME! This thing can be incredible, we just need a venue.
Cyndi! <Ckbenefitshow@yahoo.com>
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Dear Chris,

TODAY IS MAY DAY.....HURRAY!.....exactly thirty years ago today when I was your age, 16 and a Junior in High School I first heard that phrase. My friend Cathy Pignataro and I were in a class,(I don't even remember which class)paying no attention to the Nun. (I don't even remember which Nun.) We were busily sending notes back and forth.The subject of the notes was not the date or the month, but all of a sudden she passed me one that said,"Today is May Day HURRAY!!" And I loved it! It made me smile. I know the phrase means other things to other people but to me it said the essence of Spring! It said hurray for the birds, the trees ,the flowers, the sunshine and the warmth.

Every May 1st since then I have said that many times during the day. When I firt started to say it to you when you could understand ,you thought it was dumb. You would say, "Oh Mom...." But the last two years I said it to you, you said "YEAH!" Like you were getting it, you understood,and that made me happy!I wasn't able to say it to you in person this year but I did say it to you and I know you heard me.

I hope it's always spring time where you are. I still think about you every minute of every day. I'm dreading Mother's Day...........Love,
Mom
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'Magic' is by Ben Folds Five on the album 'Rheinhold Messner'
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First off...Caleb and Scott were amazing Friday night! I envy their talent... Secondly, this is probably a stupid question, but who sings "Magic"? It was a wonderful song and a beautiful tribute to Chris... My prayers are with the Kempa family...
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chris, i spent some timer thinking about you and your family today. its been a while since ive talked to adam, other than momentarily on AIM, and i hope they are all well. i'll be shooting a DV project this summer with my fellow filmmakers of Ved Bok Entertainment, and I hope we have a bit of your creativity in the project. Hope you look down on us and grace us with your talent.
joe.cwik <joe@joecwik.com>
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Dear Chris,

4/30/01, a VERY BAD CHRIS DAY. Please help! LOVE,
Mom
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This poem was written for friends facing what must be the most painful of all events....TO LOSE A CHILD

Tears without end.....Days without nights...Night without day....Time without forgetting.....Food without taste........Sleep without rest.......Sorrow without comfort.....Pain without limit.....Emptiness without bottom........Life without.
BY SUSAN TAWIL
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hey chris. it's almost 2am. i've been sitting here for over 3 hours reading the guest book and looking at your art over and over again. I can't sleep. everytime i close my eyes, i think about you. i'm not thinking about your death though, i'm thinking about your life. you made such an impact on me. i could never thank you enough for that. you have made me a stronger person. i miss you. i can't seem to accept the fact that you are gone though. i wasn't able to go to your funeral. i just couldn't bring myself to it. funerals never help me much. i'd rather just remember you as i last saw you. i haven't been able to go to your grave yet either. i think i might soon though. i'm coming to realize what has happened and i really think i need that closure to help me accept it. not to accept that you are gone, because i know that you will always be with us, but to accept that i will never hear your voice again, never see your face. i've been avoiding going to your grave because i don't want to accept it. i keep trying to tell myself that you went on a trip, or moved, and that you've just been gone a really long time. that worked for a while. but it's been too long. i'm really starting to miss you. i've been up so many nights sitting here looking at everything. at the variety show on friday, when they sang the song and showed all your work...i couldn't hold back the tears. it's been a while since i cried. i cried a lot when the accident first happened, but i haven't allowed myself to cry in a while. i just couldn't hold it back anymore. it was so quiet in there before they began the song. it was so beautiful. and when the song ended + i tried to wipe away my tears before anyone noticed me, i glanced to either side of me + saw a row of people wiping their eyes. i could hear so many people sniffling, trying to stop their tears. i think that's when everything hit me. i couldn't hide the emotions anymore and pretend nothing had happened. i went home that night and cried for hours. i feel better though. i really do. and now i've started remembering how wonderful you were in life. i think i'll visit the memorial later this week. and maybe your grave. i really wanted to let you know why i haven't been there. i feel guilty that i can't get myself to go. i want to. i really do. it's not that i don't miss you chris...i do. i just can't do it. not yet. i will when the time is right and i am able to. but until that time, know that i am here thinking about you endlessly. thank you chris, for everything you did to change my life. i can't tell you how much you have done for me. i don't think anyone but myself will ever know. Thank you. goodnight chris. i'll see you in my dreams.
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Hey Chris, I thought I would possibly write to you today! I feel terrible I'm going to have a nervis break down at age 14! I miss you so much! I'm so tried I can't find time to sleep. I cry and I am so stressed with all my tests and projects and speeches I wish you were here right now to tell me it will be all right and everything will turn out fine. You always gave the best advice. I miss the love. When I cry and can't sleep I write poems you know all the ones about you or me or something stupid going on in my stupid life but some how you always made it easy for me to laugh at anything! I miss you more than ever and wish you were here to support me because God knows no one else is! I love you! Ginny!
Virginia Moshos <->
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Hey, Chris...I heard the talent show was a great success. I wish that I would have been able to be there to show my support to all of your friends, and to see the lovely display of all of your artwork. Unfortunatly that was also the same day that I was moving home from school, and I had a lot of packing up at the dorms. Now that I am done, I spend a lot more time thinking about you. I see your painting every day, hanging on my wall, and I can't wait till I have the time to go and get it framed. I miss you, and continue to pray for your family...lots of love
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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Chris, i never really got to know you too well,but you've managed to touch everyone in a special way. I'll never forget fingerpainting with you and kate during drawing one our freshman year. I had gone to the Talent show friday night...and i couldn't control my emotions for you're drawings...I honestly don't think that there was one person in that room that hasn't crying or trying not to. I don't think anyone will ever get over the full affect of you being gone. You'll always live on in everyone's heart at Franklin High School. Everytime we enter those doors, a piece of you is imprinted into our hearts, and you are carried on with us...and will remain their for the rest of our lives. We miss you Chris...
Kim <kitkat2984@hotmail.com>
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I want to thank all of Chris' friends for the loving and moving tributes to him last night.....those announced and those understood. Scott and Caleb......WOW! You had me crying before you even started. Cori, Paul, Sara, Jenny and Dana, thank you all so much. I hope you all know how much Chris loved you. He was many things to many people but one of the things he took great pride in was the fact that he was a true friend. Brad Allen, thank you! You did a wonderful job. Angie Hillman, what can I say? As usual you did more than your share to make it all happen. I enjoyed all the other performances too. As I've said before....so much talent! It was hard to go but I wouldn't have missed it for the world.

Katie B., I wish I'd known you were right behind us. This time instead of flowres I gave all of Chris' friends one of his pictures. It's a great picture....taken only 11 days before he was killed. Nov. 9th 2000 during the Chicago trip. Jenny Gervasi took the picture and was kind enough to lend us the negatives. We have had many copies made. I would have been happy to give you one last night too, but I'm sure I'll figure out a way to get one to you.

Thank you all again! I'm SLOWLY learnig one of the best ways to honor Chris is to keep living a full life. Love,
Mrs. Kempa
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Chris, hi buddy. I went to the talent show last night and they had Scott Allen and Celb singing a song and played a slide show in your memory. It made me cry so hard everyone in the theater was crying.We all still miss you so much Chris. Last night after going to the talent show i was thinking about you all night. I hung out with my friends after the show and they were all asking me whats wrong. I would say "I just miss my Chis" I love you chris and miss you very much!
A Friend
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Chris, Hey buddy. How's everything? I went and saw the veritety show...it was AWSOME!!! Guess what...Scott Allen and Caleb played "Magic" in memory of you and showed a slide show of all your art work. It was vary nice of them to do that...it made me cry...it made everybody cry. I got to sit behind your parents at show. But i didn't want to be rud and talk to them while the show was going on. But everything was great....you would of loved it!! I still miss you a lot Chris...today all of my emotions about you came right out in tears...i couldn't stop crying...i'm still crying right now. That shows how much i miss you and love you. Well Chris i gotta go...I love you! My prayers, love and support are with the Kempa Family...ALWAYS!! Talk to you later Chris! Love Always, Katie B.
Katie B.
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As we grow up some things can change, but my love for you will always remain. In my heart you'll stay my whole life through. My love for my brother still remains true. I'll think of you brother, till our paths meet again, so go with God he'll take care of you. And always remember my brother......I Love YOU!
Chris Steele , Marietta Ga. TCF
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From one Ben Folds Five fan to another, I know you're with the music.
lucy <lucey_ma>
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The signs are there, you just have to look for them and believe.
Day Dream Believer
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I came here from kempa.com. and i think its messed up that they are dissing chris. I hope these flammers can burn in hell
Nessbound <dreamer@nervmail.i-p.com>
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hey chris...i just felt like i had to write tonight. i hung out with shawna and amber and we talked about you all night, it was really nice. i know you're okay. ~courtney
Courtney <courtney0037@aol>
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I found it ......it's under RAGE PAGE!!
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Chris! I know you are soooo happy. Your page is linked to the Jones Soda page.....check it out......www.jonessoda.com Who did that??
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I took motherhood so seriously. I took nothing for granted. I was always thankful for what I had. And yet this happened to me.

I chose to stay with them, live through their lives closely, put my own aspirations on hold 'til they'd grown and still this happened to me.

My life was spent caring for two lovely sons who made my life in so many ways.

One day he was living, alive, well and thriving. The next he was gone to a life we can't share.

I'm learning to struggle through life and the greiving, to find ways of being that bring love and peace, and live with what happened to me.
Adapted From ;Stars In The Deepest night
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Hi, chris! Yesterday was the starting of the meap testing! Oh how fun........nr well I just wanted to let ya know that I miss you still.....I always will of course, but i had this wierd dream with you, me you and john lennon were in yur room, and we were all just having a fun time. I don't remember a lot except that it seemed so damn real! I woke up and almost thought that it wasn't a dream. I wish it wasn't but at least it made me laugh....a lot! You just joked around a lot in it! I luv ya bro!!
"punk rocker" <sk8erchic02@juno>
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To the person who still continues to write entries using someone elses name. We certainly aren't that stupid. You didn't do a very good job of it again. We do know the difference.
MCS
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Chris, HI! I miss you a lot. Latley I have been think about you more and more latley! Especialy when I got this Jones Soda bottle that has a rabbit on a motorcycle. I know you would get a kick out of it like I did! Well I hope that you are having a ball wherever you are! Love you! Erin
Erin <Wishuponastar988@yahoo.com>
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Cindy, I think that it is a great idea that you are trying to set up a benefit show here in Livonia. I was so upset, when I couldn't get up to Grand Rapids for the other show. If you need anything, I am willing to do anything.
corinne <curcusenvy@aol.com>
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"Don't you think its about time there was a Chris Kempa benefit Show here in Livonia?" YES! Never fear children, a new show is in the works and it WILL be in Livonia. However, this will be more than just a concert. It's going to be a Chris fest! Right now the target date is either June 8,9,or 10th. I would like to have Livonia bands, so If you have one let me know. I'll have more info when I get it. Chris, you gotta help me out on this one. You did a great job pulling the stings in the fate department before, just do it again kiddo. <3
Cyndi! <ckbenefitshow@yahoo.com>
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When I closed my eyes, I could see you smile, A tear rolled down my face... and I cried for a long while. You were supposed to be there by my side. You promised me forever, but then you suddenly died. The pain I felt was like nothing I had felt before, I was so lost and alone, just drifing through life knowing I couldn't take much more. Then a thought interrupted my grieving like a single ray of sun shinning through the rain. What if you knew that everytime you crossed my mind, it caused me pain? With that thought, I promised myself that I could miss you, but I would never morn you again. You were my everything, my lover and my friend. When I close my eyes, I can see you smile, A tear rolls down my face... and I smile with you.
jason <i miss you chris love woody>
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, I am almost positive that you won't have remembered me because you met me and the funeral and since you met so many people, I totally understand. I just wanted to say that everyday Moriah and I sit in 6th hour and there isn't a day that goes by that we don't think about him. I have known Chris since the sixth grade and I have never heard a mean word come from his mouth about anyone. Mrs. Kempa, Moriah and I think that we know who that ASK person is and we are trying our best to stop it, as well as everyone else is. I lost my mother at the age of 7 and I know how horribly bad that you want Chris back. I feel the same about my mother. I miss her with all of my heart and can't think of not being with her. I loved both of them so much and I wish that they hadn't passed. Moriah and I will sometimes get into these talks and start saying like its all just a dream. Because that is what it feels like. Mrs. Kempa, you will probably never wake up from that feeling. I still feel like my mom is out there trying to desperatly find me. I miss you,Chris more than ever and I love you too Chris. I always have and never will stop. I hope that Mom is watching over you honey!!! Love you all.
Katy <kitten5384@yahoo.com>
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I'm very HAPPY to report the bronze memorial plaque for the corner is ready to be picked up. We will be installing it very soon....possibly as soon as this weekend!
Fran Kempa
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hey chris whats up there's this lil song for u chris, dear friend: seems like yesterday we used to rock the show i laced the track you lock the flow so far from hangin on the block for dough chris bro, they have to know that life aint always what it seems to be words cant express what u mean to me even though youre gone we still a team through your family i fufill your dream in the future cant wait to see if you open up the gates for me..... .....id give nething to hear half your breath i know your still livin life after death

its kinda hard with you not around know your in heaven smilin down watchin us when we pray for you everyday we pray for you till the day we meet again in my heart is where i keep you friend memories gimme the strength i need to proceed the strength i need to believe

i love you bro, keep smilin buddy
Woody
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Dear Chris, Wow i really dont know what to say, this is really hard. At the beginning of today i didnt even know whata guestbook was. ive been to your sight meny times before but never read all the great things that everyone said in this tramendus sight. belive me, i would have sent something to say meny times, if i had known. but today i read them all, it took about 3 hours but i did it. you have no idea what it has done for me. to hear all the great things that people have said. this one poem for instance, it said something about "never be able to talk to your friends agen online" that maid me break down. because i remember last summer whenever i was bored i would just sighn on and talk to the kid i spent almost every art class i ever had with. GOBOT7 was your name, and whenever i see it now on my buddy list (its your brother now) i feel real sad. Its hard to look at all your art work in class and around school, because i still remember vividly when it was created. all the great times i had sitting by you in Mr. reught<(sorry) class. laughfing and stuff. Now it thingk about you alot because ther is no one ther know as interesting and as creative as you there. so i just sit and listin to my headphones alot. i really wish you were still ther. i still save your spot during my 5th hour. nobody deserves to sit there. i listined to a song that reminds me of you, To anybody reading this i suggest downloading on napster, -Twiztids- "im alright" i know that the "idea" of the song is not right but it always makes me feel better. I hope in 20 years i can still remember what a great friend you are like i do know. ok its late now, wish me a happy 17th birthday chris, ill write something later now that i know how.
Jay Champlin <Shazbutt123@AOL.com>
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Some called him Christopher, some called him Chris. His smile was his trade mark where ever he went. A room would brighten when Chris walked in. Because the first thing you saw would be his grin.

A son and brother so precious, a friend so true. What ever he had he'd share it with you. A thought, a deed, a kind word for a while. But always, always he'd share his smile.

Our hearts are breaking, our thoughts are going wild. We've lost our friend, we've lost our child. "But only for a while" I heard Jesus say, "he's been chosen for the Master's Boquet"

Hand selected by Jesus from this "garden of life" gone to Heaven, he's through with this strife. Why is he gone? Only God knows. But oh what a treasure, a smiling rose!
Love you Chris <Lizzie>
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Today's art is the cover of a comic book Chris wrote and illustrated. The story line went somethimg like this....What if there were little creatures who lived in the pyramids on the back of the one dollar bill. Thus the title HMMMmm?
Fran Kempa
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Dear Moriah,

I enjoyed our day together on Wednesday too. Chris liked you so much and would often talk about you. I wish he had been with us Wednesday too.....it would have been much more fun! You know Chris..."fun times are NOW!!" I still have a very hard time at the cemetary. It hurts to know that the shell of such a loving, talented boy is in the ground. I'm glad we brought him flowers and I was happy to let you put them down on his grave.

I continue to look for him in all places and all things. The African violet bloomed......that's a first, the yard is FULL of Cardinals and Blue Jays. Chris and I always tried to figure out how to attract them to our yard but were never successful....it's a first! And most exciting of all...I believe the Hydrangias WILL bloom this year....It's a first! I will go to MY grave beliving it's Chris! Thank you again Moriah.......LOVE,
Mrs. Kempa
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i miss you chris. we all do. we want you back but will have to wait till we are with you forever. take care of luther and jenny and yourself. love ya buddy woody
woody
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It isn't a bad idea to alert the Livonia police as to what Mr. Ask's threats have been. Maybe that will finally put a stop to all of this foolishness. Shame on you Mr Ask...have you no heart?
A family member
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Hey chris- I miss you, right now more than ever! Probably not as much as your family but you were stilll very important to me. On wednesday I went to see your grave. I hated it. I hated seeing it, I mean it's a real nice cemetery and it's by a beautiful tree, but still........the fact that your body even has a grave sucks! I never thought for a second that this would happen to any of my friends, especially not to you. I wasn't prepared for this, none of us were. How do you prepare for something like this? I wish you could, but you can't. I didn't even want to admit it to myself that your body was in the ground. I didn't truly realise it until just before we left. Your mom was there with me. We spent the day together, and it was fun except that I always pictured me meeting her with you there, too. when we got back to your house we watched the '99 Chicago feild trip video and I almost teared a little bit but had to stop myself or else I would have never been able to stop. You know how I get. Oh.....and by the way.....your room rocks! I like your addition of the "bat boy" poster! But I wanted to see you in it too, I wanted to be in it with you. That was the first time I ever saw your room. Why did God have to take you that soon? Even just one more year would have been better. Hey ASK- Do you actually think that you'll get away with what you are doing? Are you really that stupid? Just to let ya know- you won't get away with it. God always finds a way to make someone pay for what they do. ALWAYS. I have my experiences....trust me. He won't let you get away with this, I promise. And when you do get caught, I wish the worst for you. No offense. Mrs. Kempa- You will always be in my prayers! I love you, Thank you for everything. Adam- I am sorry that this had to happen, we will Always miss him. He will always be in our memories, our dreams, and in our hearts! Chris- I luv luv luv you! paint a cloud for me. Good night! <3 Love always---------->>"punk rocker"
"punk rocker" <Sk8erchic02@juno>
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To Player Friend, Chris' life IS still a part of yours. He touched you and you in turn remember him. Chris now forever lives on in your heart. That's where friends should always be kept.
MCS
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I'm with you Cyndi. Which is why I drove by and checked on Chris' Memorial in the wee hours of the morning after work. It would have been no problem for me to turn around and go back to work and pick up everything needed to put the Memorial back again. So go ahead and try it ASK. We've got any army here. And since it is set up with the City of Livonia's permission, I hope you get caught even trying to touch it! We will be watching for you day and night if you dare.
MCS
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He was so innocent, young and sweet, he had the world right at his feet.Who would have known that he would die, leaving everyone he touched to greive and cry. He didn't know that day was his last, it all came on so fast.His funeral was the saddest day of my entire life,really cut through me like a knife.In another place, in another time, his life no longer a part of mine.
I Love You Chris <One Of Your PLAYER Friends>
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I think ASK is a serial stalker that never got enough attention from his family or friends and therefore must resort to these immature methods to get attention ...you know little kids that don't get positive attention will attempt to get it any possible way. This mental midget is trying to take away the attention from Chris.He's jealous...anyone with a BASIC Psychology knowledge level can figure this out. He CRAVES attention....he's jealous because he never had anyone to feel a thing about him near to what we felt for Chris. Let's just focous on Chris and away from this boy/man's wish to get attention. Usually when kids don't get attention from one area, they generally move to other areas. ASK is in need of our prayers and pity.
KATHY PUTNAM
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Hey ASK Go ahead and smash it. I have no problem replacing it, over and over again. You're no threat to me or any of Chris' friends and family. You're a coward and you're wasting your time, Go away.
Cyndi! <_>
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It's almost 4:30 am. Chris' Memorial remains intact and peaceful, the warm glow of candles. To the ASK person, be aware that you only make us stronger in our convictions to uphold the memory of our dearly departed Chris. Your words cannot hurt. The hurt and pain that has been felt and continues to be felt is much worse than any words or actions you can threatened anyone here with. So why don't you be a good(?) little boy and just go away and try to grow up some day.
MCS
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NEVER NESS It’s the NEVER NESS that is so painful. NEVER again to be here with us - NEVER to sit with us at the table, NEVER to travel with us, NEVER to laugh with us, NEVER to cry with us, NEVER to embrace us as he leaves for school, NEVER to see his brother marry. All the rest of our lives we must live without him. Only our death can stop the pain of his death. A month, a year, five years - with that I could live…but not this FOREVER.

Adapted, From his book, Lament For A Son by Nicholas Wolterstoff
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I cant even fatham why this ASK person would do such a thing... I'm in utter awe. But enough about a person with no feelings. Chris my friend... i just want you know that ive been thinking so much about you. You have turned my life around. Im such a retard, and sometimes i forget your gone. I dont know if thats messed up or what. But i dunno. Thanks for the picture today, i really needed that. And Chris, thank you for bringing Amber back into my life. She is such a cool girl and I missed her, and I know you brought our friendship back together. Kempa's... i dont know if you know me... but i pray for you all the time, and your words are so touching and beautiful--you are wonderful people... and my thoughts are with you all... oh and i would just like to tell everyone about this song by Dashboard Confessional-- its called "For Justin"... it is a beautiful song and reminds me a lot of chris and has brought me some sort of comfort... along with all of the other music that Chris has brought into my life. I will always remember the few but memorable times we shared together. I know you are still here with us... i know.
Shawna <coffeeshopgal@hotmail.com>
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Hey ASK- WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND...
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whoever ASK tonight is, you are a very sick mean person. you have no right to do that. what did chris ever do to you? this is supposed to be a place where his friends mourn and write their fellings. not a place to threaten to do something. you touch that site and you see how many people will be on you butt, keeping it up. it's not doing a thing but keeping him alive and in our hearts and if can't handle it then i think you need to bounce off the padded walls in the osylm. because that is where you belong.
jenny <msbanana37@hotmail.com>
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Sick people will get theirs. Trying touching anything at that Memorial tonight. You don't scare anyone, nor can you hurt anyone.
MCS
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Well, I know it's been a LONG time since I last wrote anything, but I was sitting in my room just thinking, and thought I'd come on. It's been quite a while since we lost you, and every day, I miss you more. Knowing that I'll never get to see you walking down your hall, with your headphones on of course, hurts. It was always the one thing I could look forward to 6th hour, and now it's gone. I think about you daily and wish that there was something I could do to bring you back, although I know there isn't. I know that you are someplace special, watching over us every day, I just wish it was here. Mrs. Kempa~Your messages written in here are beautiful! My heart is with you and your family. I have not been able to visit the memorial in a long time, but hope that I am able to soon. The website is beautiful, even though it could never show just how wonderful a person Chris really was. I miss you and love you.
Megan <BBallGrl1285@aol.com>
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Hey Cyndi! I just wanted you to know that I am going to smash the present you left for chris along with everything else at that stupid memorial tonight. If you want to stop me come tonight at 11:00pm, then you can see how sick I am.....
ASK Tonight
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Someone took you away from me

And I wonder if they cared.

About the ones they left behind

And the pain that each must bear

Why did you have to leave me

When there was so much more left to do

I'm not sure if I can go on

If I have to go on without you

But life dictates the rules

There are things that I can't change

When you left my heart was torn in two

My life got rearranged

I have to believe I'll see you again

It keeps the hope alive and new

So until we meet again little brother

Never forget that I love you
Little Brother <Jenny, TCF Indianapolis,In.>
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Hey Chris! I added a VanGogh candle holder to your memorial. So this way, no matter how cloudy, you'll always have a "Starry Night"
Cyndi! <Goldfingercjl@yahoo.com>
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Chris, its now been over five months......... I hope you are some place and having fun!!!!!! I hope that you can't see the weird things that someone put on the net about you. Nothing could have been further from the truth. Miss you always, DAD
Dad <afk49@aol.com>
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On days when you're tired, not sure you can go on,Your Angel Knows ....and will wrap you in an Angel hug to let you rest until your weariness is gone.

On days when you're down just feeling so blue, Your Angel Knows ....and will tenderly take you in his arms to cherish and help cheer you.

On days when you're hurting, really feeling that pain, Your Angel Knows.... and will wrap you in a blanket of love to give you courage and help you keep sane.

On those nights when you're lonely and there's no one to be found, Your Angel Knows....he'll gentlty enfold you in his wings to give comfort and let you know he'll always be around.

And on the days when you're happy, things are going just right, Your Angel Knows....he'll smile and say a prayer of thanks and give you an Angel hug so tight.

Day and night no matter what, Your Angel is always close by to help guard and protect you!!
Author Unknown
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Hey Chris! How are you? I'm missing you like crazy down here. Everything is not the same without you. I'm sorry that i haven't written to you in a while...i just have a hard time trying to type to you and say what i feel. Really there's soooo much that i want to say right now, but it's so hard to put it into words. You know how that is sometimes. But i do miss you a lot. I miss seeing you at school. I miss your smiling face, your great jokes, you laugh, heck i miss seeing you around. I know for a fact that my senior year feel right because i won't get the chance to graduate with you...none of the junior class will get the chance. But i just want to let you know that i miss you and i love you. I will never forget you Chris. It's sad because our friendship was getting stronger since freshman year and it came to a crashing halt. But i will always remember the 5 years that i've known you...i still remember the first day that i met you...all we talked about was John Lennon and The Beatles. Well Chris i gotta go. I miss you so much and i will always love you...i'll will never forget you buddy. talk to you later Chris! **to the Kempa Family, My thoughts and prayers are always with you!** Love Always, Katie
Katie B.
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i never can say exactly what i want to say, i don't think i am even sure what i want to express sometimes other than to tell you i'm thinking of you, chris and your family every day and that i'll always treasure the times we've had .
lori b.
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Amen Kathy! We love you Chris and know you will see to it that the truth be known. Peace and love to our family and friends.
JoAnne
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This present darkness cannot pierce through the light of our beautiful memories. Good always prevails over EVIL. One day, this wicked individual will stand before the Lord and give an accounting for all these evil deeds. Those who knew Chris can see the truth regardless. We are PROUD of the truth.We are not afraid of the vain attempts by the wicked because we are walking in the light of the truth.
Kathy Putnam <mskatep@aol.com>
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   A certain individual (The log file shows that it was all the same person) has been posting very hateful messages to this website.

    We refuse to block the guestbook to everyone because of this sick person's actions. Those who knew Chris, and know us will be able to tell fact from fiction.

    To those who continue to harass us during the most horrible time of our lives - Just remember that what goes around comes around.
Adam, Fran, and Adam W. Kempa <adam@kempa.com>
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Today's painting is absolutely beautiful. I just wish that Chris could have finished it...I love you Chris and miss you more than you will ever know. Take care of us down here.
Michele <shelly613@hotmail.com>
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Today's painting (4/19) is one of my favorites. It's also the last one he ever worked on. You may not be able to see, it has never been finished....and never will be.
Fran Kempa
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Writeing an enrty is very heard for me to do. I think it's been a month or two sence the last time. Chris will always be remembered, and I will hold him in my heart. When I sit at my computer I see his picture School picture beside me. When I look at the picture I freeze. When we Started High School we didn't hang out as much. I mean It was very odd...we were getting older. He had a job and I had a Job. I had somthing going on at school, and he did too. I guess we just had a lot of conflictions. (sorry, I'm a bad speller.) Then I noticed we were finding other friends. It was weird. When This started to get tough with thing, like school, and basic teenage problems, he was always there for me. He talked to me and helped me out. I would like to say I did the same for him. It was that kinda of bond that really never broke us apart, needless to say home much in common we had. About a month before he died we started hanging out again. Little, by little. You have no idea how Glad that made me feel. The old Him and I were back! Listen to music, cracking jokes, showing eachother our new art projects, and just being weird goof ball kids. I'll never forget th last day we hung out. It makes smiles come to my face. Just being with chris again was the best....Well Chris, I miss you, and I'm sure your looking down on us. I love you kid. Scott Allen Note: If anyone is reading this, I'm sorry if it does not make any sence..I guess I only make sence to myself, I just needed to Say hello again.
Scott Robert Allen
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To "Highschool Buddy" Joe & Company,

Your hateful messages don't hurt me....they only make me stronger. You all continue to reveal exactly the kind of people you are. Just like Mary.....I'm not afraid of you either.
Fran Kempa <Notfranny@aol.com>
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hey chris. happy late easter. i have been in florida for the past week so i havent been able to look at the site. i thought about you all the time, especially on the plane. we were like in the clouds and i was wondering to myself, "i bet chris is up here because heaven has to be up here somewhere in these clouds" i thougth this every planeride i took, which added up to about 6. thats where i was sort of happy for you. its so peaceful and knowing you were in your home up there in the sky was comforting. i went to the memorial today as soon as i got back. i just felt i had to go because i havent in a while. i saw your mom and dad up there and we spoke a little bit. By just looking at them you can tell something big is missing. that something is most definately their youngest son and our friend. well chris thanks for getting us home safely and take care of everyone. we love you buddy and you are FOREVER in our hearts and minds. later buddy. love woody
jason <avsrule1449@aol.com>
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Thank you Danny Sperry for today's picture.
Mrs. Kempa
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A wife who loses a husband is called a widow. A husband who loses a wife is called a widower. A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. But they say there is no word for a parent who loses a child, that's how awful the loss is.
Unknown
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Ive been thinking a lot about Chris lately and I am sure he is happy, he seemed to adapt well to new situations. But I am not so good at adapting to new things, and before Chris I have never had anyone I was close to die. I had stayed home from school the day he died, and I was upstairs in my room when my mom called me down. She had been watching the news and told me what had happened, but I didnt believe her. Actually I think it was more like I didnt want to believe her. I sat there is shock for awhile and didnt really do anything. Finally my mom said something and I just started crying. I decided to go to work that day anyway, even though I cried throughout the whole night. But I dont think the realization that hes not around really hit me until recently, when I have thought about him more and more. I miss talking to him, and he got me a little more openminded about music, we had similar tastes but he started me listening to new bands that I had never heard of. Lately I have started to listen to them again,and it is really hard but in a way it feels really good to think about all the good times we had before. But I miss him a lot, as does everyone. I love you Chris.
Sarah Perelli <Megabich9@aol.com>
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Hey Chris it's spring break! I know if you were still here with us in body we'd be skateboarding going to the latest movie hanging out in your basement watching DVDS or playing vudeo games or watching you create your latest computer animation.....we'd be doing something! I miss you man we all do.I will always remember you for being yourself and not caring what the popular kids thought. I love you
Kenny
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I just wanted to say that when Nicole and I made our recent visit to Chris' Memorial, I just loved those rocks, what a beautiful idea. It was dark and I couldn't read them either, but they are very special pieces of work.
MCS <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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I am not a young man and I thought I knew the meaning of pain. I have experienced pain from a toothache, arthritis, and even the loss of family and friends. But nothing in my fifty-four years had prepared me for the pain I experienced when we lost our son. I had no clue to real pain.

I think only a bereaved parent knows the true meaning. Not to belittle the loss of a parent or spouse, but those who have lost both tell me the pain is not the same. My Mother said to me at my brother's funeral,"now I know how you feel". Even though she had lost a grandson, it was not the same.

It has been almost five years now,and there hasn't been a day go by that I don't see his picture or think of him and feel that pain. Pain for what we lost...and for what he lost. That pain is not as intense now. I have learned to tolerate it and still lead a life. The Compassionate Friends helped me to realize that I was not alone and that there were many others who felt the same pain. They helped me learn how to deal with it. Now it is my turn to try to help someone else.
Harold F. Underwood <TCF, Southern Maryland>
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I suppose that I haven't written a lot on here, but I want you to know that not an hour goes by that I don't give a thought to you. I come here everyday, to see what others have written to you, and I don't really ever write myself, because I don't know what to say. I'm always afraid that someone is going to read what I write to you, and think to themselves, "wow that sounded so fake." Which I know shouldn't make a difference to me one way or another, but for some reason it keeps me from writing. Instead I just think, and hope that you know what I want to say to you. Everyday, I rethink that morning when Hillman told me. I try to look at myself from the outside, to see what exactly happened...but for some reason, the day seemed to go by so slow at the time ..yet now, it seems to have went by in a blur. I do remember that I didn't even know that you were not there that day because you usually picked me up from first hour, but came into school 2nd hour. And I wasn't in school for 20 minutes when hillman came into my class and pulled me into the counsiling office. I can remember hugging myself all day long, I was wearing your Kentucky Elliot sweatshirt to school that day. You had given it to me on Saturday night and said "take this, and keep it for a while..I think I wear it too much, i don't want it to become a security blanket type thing." so I took it gladly, i was always happy to wear it because it smelt great..like dryer sheets. And I didn't care how much I wore it because it was the most comfortable thing ever. I always wondered why you wore it so much..and then the day we went to Stratford, Ontario, you let me wear it and I found out! I just wanted to to know that I think about you a lot, and that November 20 has been the worst day that i have ever had to endure. But I also want you to know that I think the best conversation that we ever had was on Sunday the 19, and I remember every word like it just happened, and that conversation is etched in stone, and I will never forget it. Love, Cori
Cori <curcusenvy@aol.com>
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Happy Easter Chris! some of your friends have forgotten you `````but not me! You know how much i love and miss you ``````LOTS!
ME <~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>
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Lots of new things at the Memorial! Thank you to everyone who brought the new angel, all the beautiful flowers, the candle and the solar light for bad candle nights...we love it! It makes me feel good to know so many people still come and so many people still care. I know Chris is looking down and is very happy too! I also want to thank everyone who has signed the rocks. One day soon I'm going to go up in the day light and read them. Thank you all again so much!
Fran Kempa
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Happy Easter Chris. As Christ rose today hundered of years ago he died so others could live...maybe you died so that somewhere another little boy or a group of people could live...I'd like to think you left for others. You always were willing to help everyone...and I'm sure in Heaven your still continuing to help others. I hope you will continue to help everyone through your death...I love you Chris, may God bless you as always.
Janine
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Mother, please don't mourn for me; I'm still here, though you don't see me. I'm right by your side each night and day, and within your heart I long to stay.

My body is gone, but I'm always near; I'm everything you feel, see or hear. My spirit is free, but I'll never depart, as long as you keep me alive in your heart.

I'll never wander out of your sight; I'm the brightest star on a summer night. I'll never be beyond your reach; I'm the warm, moist sand when you're at the beach.

I'm the colorful leaves when Fall comes around,and the pure white snow that blankets the ground. I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond; the clear, cool water in a quiet pond.

I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in Spring; the first warm raindrop that April will bring. I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine; and you'll see that the face in the moon is mine.

When you start thinking there's no one to love you, you can talk to me through the Lord above you. I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees; and you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze.

I'm the hot, salty tears that flow when you weep, and the beautiful dreams that come when you sleep; I'm the smile you see on a baby's face; just look for me Mom, I'm everyplace!
Mother Please Don't Mourn Me <Author Unknown>
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Happy Easter to Adam, Fran, Adam, and Chris. Our thoughts are with you......as always! Much love,
JoAnne <jgvpri@aol.com>
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Happy Easter Chris like your Mom i'll miss you for my lifetime. I love you
Erica
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Happy Easter Chris, it has been almost five Months since you were killed. In some ways the time has gone by fast. I believe that this is due to the fact that we were in a deep fog for about three Months. We “woke up” about two Months ago but still have not recovered. I doubt that we can ever recover from this……

Your mother is still so sad. There is nothing that can comfort her in the face of something so terrible.

I can’t help but remember Easter dinners past. Since you and Adam were little there was a fierce competition over who would get to blow out the candles after Easter dinner. Last year near the end of dinner, you looked over at Adam and said “I am much to mature to continue that silly custom”. You then finished your dinner stood up and blew out the candles! “I win!” you exclaimed. You completely faked Adam out. I did pretty well today, until I got some Easter stuff. There will be only one Easter basket at our home this year. You will be greatly missed. Dad
Dad <afk49@AOL.com>
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happy easter chris!! i hope that you have a good easter!! everybody at larry's says hi and that they miss you. you will always be in my heart. happy easter to mr. and mrs. kempa and adam. lots of love always jenny
jenny <msbanana37@hotmail.com dustinsangel2001@yahoo.com>
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I would like to thank everyone who participated in last night's (4/13/01) benefit show. The bands for their time and talent,the audience and a huge THANK YOU to Cyndi Lareau. Cyndi worked for months to organize the show. As a result it was another very successful night, resulting in another very generous donation to The Chris Kempa Memorial Art Scholarship. Thank you all again for helping keep Chris' memory and spirit alive. It means so much to me.
Fran Kempa
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Hi Chris, I just wanted to wish you a happy easter. I am sure you are having the time of your life up there in heaven! I miss you!! Love always and forever! Erin
Erin <Wishuponastar988@yahoo.com>
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Dear Chris,

Happy Easter and Happy Spring! A time of rebirth and renewal. I am still so sad and sorry that neither will ever apply to you again. I am still so very sad. You and Adam were my heart and my life . It's very hard to try to build a new life with only half a heart but I'm trying. It's a very slow process. Please try to help me not be so sad.

I thought time passed quickly before you were killed. I can't believe how quickly it's passed since you were killed. Maybe it's because everything still takes so much longer.Almost five months! Some days I feel like I'll spend the rest of my life just waiting to die.

The fog is lifting and the numbness is less. In a way that's a good thing. Big pieces of the puzzle are beginning to fill in. We're awake now, we can think clearly. In a way it's a bad thing because the pain is still so present and the numbness helped. Work is getting easier, home is still so hard. Some days all I want to do is move....far away. The memories are still so plentiful and most so painful. It's very hard some days to just drive down Berwick to West Chicago. I think, "That's the route my baby took to his death ." and I can't do it. But then some days I can because I know how happy you were that morning. You loved our house so much! You always said, "Mom,I'm always going to live here" and I would say ,"At some point, we'll have to sell it."and you always said,"Then I'll buy it.....I'm always going to live here." And now you will. I'm hoping if I stay, the painful memories will some day become wonderfully happy ones.

Some days I still go through all the questions. WHY DIDN'T I DRIVE HIM THAT MORNING?....Why me?...why us? and please God tell me most of all, WHY HIM??....Were you rewarded?...Was I punished? I always tried to do the right thing and I raised you boys to do the same. I'll never get it ....I'll never understand but Adam says it's not ours to get.

I forced myself to work out in the yard last weekend. You know how unusual that is for me. If you were still here I'd have been out there weeks ago. You know how much I love my garden. But the last time I did yard work you were with me. One week and one day before you were killed. It was very hard but I forced myself and I found I still enjoy it. I always told you and Adam that gardening is very theuraputic. I hope I find that to be true this spring and summer.

I went to the library and saw your art work exhibited. I was just as proud of you as I'd been in the past. How I missed having you take me around and showing me not only your work but that of your friends too. Remember last year at the same exhibit how proud you were of John Hicks and Lauren Rossi? You said,"Mom, you have to see my friends work too, they're so good." And they were. After the library I went to the cemetary....they're so close. I'm able to find you now very easily. The snow is gone. I was quite shocked by how fresh your grave still looks. I still have a very hard time there.

I didn't decorate for Easter. The mantle is still adorned with your portrait, pictures and candles. We'll do some traditional Easter things...dinner and some things for Adam. He has to work and I'm happy for him. He won't have to dwell on the thought of his first Easter without you all day...just part of it.

You know tonight is the second benefit show. Your friend Cyndi deserves all the credit and a great thank you from all of us! She thought of the idea and has worked so hard for months. She engaged so many sponsors! I know it will be a great success! Thank you Cyndi, I know it's been so much work but you said it was a labor of love.

The other night I heard there was an awesome lightning storm in New York City....the likes of which they'd never seen. I told Dad that was you, starting to dabble in special effects! I so hope you are so happy I can't begin to imagine. If I knew that for sure I'd be able to accept it a little easier. I still worry about you all the time. This truly is a test of faith but what are my choices? As I've said before, I HAVE to believe you're in a better place or I couldn't go on.

You are frozen in time. You will forever be the boy who never grew up and I will forever be "the mother of the dead boy." This is never...ever what I imagined my life would become. Most often I think about the impact 11/20/00 had on your life.....it ended. I don't often think about the impact on everyone elses. But then once in a while, like yesterday, it hits me. As a result of your death my life will never be as full as it should have been. I'm too old to have any more children. Even if I could, you could never be replaced. You were unique....everyone is but you were especially so! There will be no more creations from you. Everyone knows how good you were getting...I was SO anxious to see what you'd become! There will be no girlfriends, no wife and no grandchildren from you. When Adam always said he'd never have children you always said,"Don't worry Mom, I'm going to have LOTS of kids!" I may never be a grandmother and that hurts. Yes, I can pick up the pieces of my shattered life and fill it with other things, but nothing will ever equal the love and joy I'd have had in my life had you not been killed. I will miss you for my life time. I love you so much.
Mom <Notfranny@aol.com>
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Fran, it was wonderful to visit with you on Thursday...you are a strong woman with so much love in your heart. I feel blessed to know you and your family. Chris has been on my mind lately...we are keeping his spirit alive at Franklin through our stories and shared love for him. Thank you also for the new supply of buttons...they are in a bowl on my desk in case anyone is in need of one. My thoughts, prayers and friendship are with you now and always...
Ms. Hillman
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We wanted to wish you good luck at the benefit show tonight (4/13/01). We wish we could be there with you all. It will be another overwhelming success!! Love you Chris...and Happy Easter.
JoAnne, Bill, and Billy <jgvpri@aol.com>
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what a great photo! I smiled as soon as I saw it. I love you and miss you, Chris!
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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what a grear photo! I smiled as soon as I saw it. I love you and miss you, Chris!
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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Todays picture is just precious of Chris...makes me miss him even more.
a friend
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Just wanted to say hi and to let you know that I've been thinking about you Chris. I miss you and love you tons.
Michele <shelly613@hotmail.com>
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Fran, All the pictures you have put on this site have been beautiful but the one today is precious. Love you, Claudia
Claudia <CLU455>
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Chris, it's been too long since i have written you, life as i'm sure you know is hectic. but i want to make sure you know that , you(& ur family) are always in my thoughts and prayers. Heard one of my "chris songs today"...thought of you :)helped me cope with my day a bit better *I'm kinda disapointed about your benefit show b/c i can't go, i have tickets for Promise Ring this friday and have had the plans for awhile...but i know you will be there in spirit too :) just wanted to let you know i'm thinking of u, with luv~~~
tie-dye-gurl :)
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I miss you and love you always and forever!
chrissy
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THERE'S A HOLE in the world now. In the place where he was , there's now just nothing. A center, like no other, of memory and hope and knowledge and affection which once inhabited the earth is gone. Only a gap remains. A perspective on this world, unique in this world, which once moved about within this world has been rubbed out. Only a void is left. There's nobody now who saw just what he saw, knows what he knew, remembers what he remembered,loves what he loved. A person,an irreplaceable person, is gone. Never again will anyone apprehend the world quite the way he did. Questions I have can never now get answers. The world is emptier. My son is gone. Only a hole remains, a void, a gap, never to be filled.
Nicholas Wolterstorff <Bereaved Parent>
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Hey Chris! Your benefit show is coming together really well. All the bands are excited to play and we have hundreds of about 20 different flyers up all over Grand Rapids. I have 240 bottles of Jones sitting in my house. You would've loved to see that. This show is going to be incredible. I know you're helping me put this together. That fact alone makes my job alot easier. I know we'll have a great show for you. I can't wait. Love ya lots! Cyndi! =w=
Cyndi! <ckbenefitshow@yahoo.com>
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It looks like Chris entered the world smiling and from reading the guestbook, continued to do so until the day he was killed. To his family and friends, I am so sorry for your great loss. It sounds as though he was the type of boy any parent would be proud to call son, and any teenager proud to call friend. Try to take some comfort in the fact that you all were fortunate enough to have been blessed by such a wonderful boy in your lives even though that time was far too short.
Jackie K. <Tulsa, Okla.>
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Such a moving and beautiful tribute to a beautiful young man who left us too soon. Adam thank you for signing Jason's guest book. I cant begin to imagine what you have experienced but I do know some of the shock and the fallout from such a sudden and senseless loss. May the God/ess bless you and yours always and try to remember always...there are no tears in heaven for our boys....
karyn <artemis1996@hotmail.com>
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hey there chris!! i miss you so much. i was over at your house about two weeks ago. dawn and i went and we talked to your mom for about an hour and a half. i gave her the negatives of you from chicago so your dad could make copies of them. then she showed us you room. all of the artwork and posters and pictures. wow. your mom was tellin us the funniest stories and we would tell her larry stories or i would tell her chicago stories. we had a lot of fun talking to her. she is a pretty cool mom. you must be one lucky guy to have a mom like that. the dawn and i tried to sing you a song. that "one sweet day" by mariah carey and boyz to men. but i started to cry. but what we sang was to be for you. well chris, i miss you and i love you and i can't wait until i can see you again. lots of love always and forever, jenny
jenny <msbanana37@hotmail.com, dustinsangel2001@yahoo.com>
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Hey Chris, Wow it's been a while since I've left a message in your guest book! It's not like I don't have anything to say (you know I can never shutup) I just haven't really been online all that much lately! I was in Livonia this weekend I thought about you even more than usual (if thats possible). I was thinking about stopping by your house too on Saturday when Casey went to talk to Adam but I just couldn't do it! I sat outside for a couple minutes and was really about to go knock on the door but then I realized that I would probably start to cry and I really didn't want to make anyone else cry so I just left! I'm not really sure if I should've or not went inside but I guess there's lots of things in life you'll never know! You know I love you more than anything!Ginny!
Virginia Mosho <Lemon_head14@hotmail.com>
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i luv you and miss u chris. its still and never will be the same without you here with us. i know we will meet again sometime in the future and then we will create some more memories while we are in heaven. well i got to go. cant wait to see you again someime. until later buddy keep smilin :)
woody
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Reading Chris' mom's words bring a tear to my eye. I don't understand the pain of losing a child, I imagine it is immense. However know in your hearts that he touched so many people. I came here via a link from a Ben Folds Five fan site. Mrs. K, if you keep believing in those signs from your son, all will be well. Best wishes from Rhode Island.
R <oconaill@home.com>
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It's seeing things like today's picture(4/6/01)that make my very soul ache for chris and his family. I can't imagine what losing a son or a brother or a nephew or even cousin must be like. i feel that chris is indeed happy where he is it's just so horrible that we have to be so sad here without him. To chris, i've never written here before and i'm not sure exacly why...i suppose i just hope you know how i feel without my saying it. if not here goes...i really do miss you. i am so grateful for the time that i got to spend being your friend. and it really does suck that i wasn't a junior because then we would have had that much more time together. i do wonder about the "what if's" and about what kind of friends we would have been if i started school with your class. but i suppose we'll never know. save me a jones for when i get there...until we meet again.
Dana <gloomypeaches8403@msn.com>
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A Fable.......There once lived a family who felt that they had been especially blessed by God. They had health, they felt secure in their love of God and their love for each other.

On the mantel of their fireplace stood a vase. It was a strong, sturdy vase-attractive but not extravagant. It had been a wedding gift and to them it symbolized their family. It had withstood the buffets and ordeals of life. The scars and chips could be detected only on very close scrutiny.

The day the youngest son in the family was killed , the vase was found on the mantel shattered into many pieces. No one bothered to gather up the pieces. It was left for some time in it's broken condition on the mantel.

After some time had passed, thought was given to putting the vase back together. Little enthusiasm was generated, but eventually the task was begun. The family worked together, each adding a piece or a suggestion about getting it mended. Each one of the family members got discouraged and more than once , some one was heard to say,"it can't be done."

Finally, after many months, the vase was back in it's normal place on the mantel. To the casual observer it looked strong and sturdy, and no one would guess it was less than perfect. But on closer examination it obviously had been shattered and put back together, and on turning it around, one could see that one large piece was permanently missing. It had never been found and served to remind the family that although their hearts could mend and heal, their lives would never be the same.
Jeanette Tsly <TCF Topeka, Ks.>
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HEY CHRIS...IT FEELS SO WEIRD TO BE GIVING MY THOUGHTS ON A COMPUTER RATHER THEN TELLING YOU. ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE THE TRAGEDY STRUCK US ALL BY SURPRISE BUT FOR ME AND MANY OF US IT SEEMS ONLY YESTURDAY. AS I WAS READING OTHER COMMENTS FROM FRIENDS AND FAMILY, I COULDNT HELP BUT SWALLOW TO HOLD BACK THE TEARS. I JUST LIKE TO THINK OF THIS IS A GOODBYE FOR NOW AND REMEMBER THE TIMES WE DID HAVE TOGETHER HERE ON EARTH.I ALSO CANT HELP BUT THINK IF I WAS THE BEST FRIEND I COULD BE... HEY REMEMBER WHEN I WAS IN LUV WITH NO DOUBT AND YOU WOULD WRITE IT ON MY KNUCKLES? OR THE TIME WE WENT TO RIVERSIDE WITH KRISTIE WHEN YOU TWO WERE GOING OUT? OR HOW BOUT YOU DRAWING ME A PICTURE OF SAILOR MOON... WHICH I CANT FIND FOR ANYTHING NOW...WOW! I COULD GO ON AND ON AND ON. WE ALL WISH YOU WERE STILL WITH US. YOU HAD SO MUCH GOING FOR YOU...A TALENTED ARTISTED,MUSCIAN,ACTOR AND MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL A BEST FRIEND TO ALL WHO LUVED YOU SO DEARLY.I WAS WITH JASON THE OTHER DAY AND HE BOUGHT HIM A JONES SODA AND I KNEW YOU REALLY ENJOYED EM, IM NOT CRAZY BOUT THEM, BUT I DECIDED TO TRY THE FLAVOR OF HIS CHOICE...BUG JUICE...DO YOU LIKE? I GUESS THE ONLY WAY TO FIND OUT THE REAL ANSWER IS UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.UNTIL THEN...WE`LL KEEP ROCKIN AND YOU KEEP HEAVEN ROCKIN!HOPEFULLY I WILL GET TO VISIT YOUR MEMORIAL SOON. LUV ALWAYS~YOUR FRIEND SAM
SAM <BABYBLINK182007>
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I visited the Art Festival today. His work is much more impressive in person. What a talent.....what a shame. I would encourage any one else who is able to go too. There are numerous works of many other talented students. To his family, you must miss him terribly. I hope as time goes by you feel some comfort.
J. Richardson <Westland>
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hey chris, I miss talking to you about video games and work. You and i never really talked about big things that happened in our lives, but i still miss the small things we talked about. I always respected you for being yourself.
Dan L..
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gfunk@yahoo. Your words were well said. Sometimes we forget the easy things in life.
Louise Laurila <cen75721@centurytel.net>
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"Do not save your loving speeches For your friends till they are dead; Do not write them on their tombstones, Speak them rather now instead" --Anna Cummins We will always remember chris in our hearts...and while it is too late to tell chris to his face how much we love him, it is not too late to learn from his death. Tell everyone you care about how much you love them. Don't wait until the time is right, or until you have a chance...do it now. Tell them how much they mean to you while you still can. God forbid any more of our dear friends are taken from us, but don't take the chance of not letting someone you care about know how you feel about them. This quote has gotten me through the past few months. Chris' death made me realize how much i was neglecting my friends. I never really told them how much i cared about them. I can never know for sure that chris can hear me when i tell him how much i miss him, but i do know that my friends who are still here know how special they are to me. Please, go tell your friends how much you care. Do it for chris.
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chris today at school I was walking down the hall and i must have past like 10 kids that had your button either on their shit or on their bag!That makes me so happy to see so many people wearing your buttons!! I miss you so very much, I love you!
A friend
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What a lovely tribute to to such a special boy. Thank you LPS for allowing us all to see a small example of his multiple talents. Chris and family, you will NEVER be forgotten.
A Franklin Parent <=======================>
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I miss you so much Chris. Everyday it seems harder and harder to think i'll never see your smiling face again. I just keep thinking I'll be walking through the halls and I'll see you...but I don't. I hope heaven is treating you well. I bet your having the best time in heaven. All the things you ever dreamed of are there for you. I only wish I could see what your creating now. I'm sure your getting lessons from the greats. I also have a feeling your helping others to see their creative side, just like you help so many of us here back on earth. Listening to your poor family speak about you breaks my heart. I pray for them everynight. Untill we meet again my angel in heaven, may God bless you.
Janine <Heartshappedboxx@aol.com>
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Dear Chris,

Yesterday was a VERY BAD CHRIS DAY.The horrible pain and internal shaking was back. Some days I swear I could jump out of my skin. Again, I don't really know what triggered it, maybe the beautiful day. I saw so many kids out on their skateboards so happy and full of life. I know if you were still here with us you'd have been flying on yours too! You so loved the outdoors.Maybe it was just the fact that you've been gone so long now and I miss you more every day.

While I was cooking dinner there was a knock on the door. Dad answered it and called me. It was one of your friends from school with four copies of a very GOOD picture he took of you on the last day of school last year. I was very emotional and gave him a big hug but I regret very much I forgot to get his name. I think his Franklin jacket said Justin and his last name started with a K. I thanked him very much and told him he'd made my day!

After he left I told Dad I honestly believe that was another Hello from Heaven from you. You knew what a horrible day I was having and sent me those pictures as one more sign that you are indeed o.k. They do help. Please keep sending them, I fear I'll need more as time goes on.Thank you so much again Justin and thank your Mom for suggesting you go through your pictures. I love you Chris.
Mom
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To the person who took the angel planter from the Memorial........I hope you enjoy it. You obviously liked it very much to steal it from a dead boy's Memorial. In case you'd like another one I purchased it at Meijer's. You might have to pay for it though.
Fran Kempa
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132 Days since you were killed. I miss you, Dad. 4/3/01
Dad
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May you always remember your life here on earth, and also the family you were given at birth.May you remember the times we laughed and we cried. May your presence be always by my side. May you always know you are thought of still. We haven't forgotten you and never will. May you know how special you'll always be and I'm richer because you were given to me. May you always know only joy and laughter and be filled with love forever more. May the Master say to you ,"Well Done," because for us you were the perfect son. For once in a lifetime someone like you comes along who touches others with their own special song. May you know there's a reunion where we'll meet once again. Then together through eternity we will begin. I'll be thankful you were mine the rest of my days. And know you are loved....May you always.
May You Always <Carolyn Bryan TCF, Orange Park/ Jacksonville>
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"So many things that I didn't get to say, and now you're so far away, but in my heart you will stay. There are no goodbye's, there are no regrets. I'll miss you today, I'm not over it yet. I'll see you soon again, my friend. The times that we've shared been so genuine. Know that you had to go, but you'll tell me where you've been, cause I'll see you soon again, my friend. When I see you, I'll ask you "where have you been?" There'll be so much to say we won't know where to begin. We'll skateboard all day and we'll drink all damn night. Because I know I'll see you in the next life. I think of sunny skies, and I know that you never wasted your time. I think of your laugh and I think of your smile, and I cry. Waitin' for that day I'll see that smile on your face again. Holdin on to those memories, cause brotherhood's forever my friend!"
A song called "Goodbye for Now" <by The Suicide Machines>
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I am SO HAPPY to report we have received the REVIEWED AND APPROVED permit to install a permanent memorial plaque at the corner. The County processed the paper work extremly fast and I thank them so much. We had already orderd the plaque, having faith it would be approved. It is very small, only 4x6 inches. It is made of bronze, has an angel on it and reads,In Loving Memory Of Chris Kempa 11/20/00. We hope to install it in a few weeks. I know this will displease a very few people, but I also know it will very much PLEASE so many others.

I would also very much like to thank Jeremy Rheault and Sally Diskin for making it possible to have Chris' art work included at the Civic Center Library Art Show starting Mon. 4/2. His work is also featured on the flyers for the show and the show's program. Thank you both again so much. It is becoming more clear to me every day that the many people who loved him will NEVER let him be forgotten.
Fran Kempa <Notfranny@aol.com>
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i just wanted to say that yes Chris will do all of those things but we won't beable to see him do it until we join him in heaven. and i know that when i go to my prom this year, i'm taking Chris with me. in my heart. Chris we all love you and miss you so much. i hope that you are making the heavens above us beautiful and i hope that you are giving the other angels a concert of a lifetime. i can't wait until i can see you again. i love you Chris!!
jenny <dustinsangel2001@yahoo.com>
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Somehow, someway, Chris will see to it that the truth be known. I believe this and continue to pray for it.
MCS <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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Here is something I wrote a few months ago, I hope you won't mind if I post it again. Everyone gets to go back to their lives except us. I still think of Chris almost every moment 3/31/01.

Chris will never...

Chris will never reach the other side of the road...

Chris will never walk the halls of Franklin High School...

Chris will never see his friends again at school...

Chris will never get to give his note to his first love that he was bringing that day...

Chris will never open his Christmas presents...

Chris will never get to finish driver education and get his driver’s license...

Chris will never drive himself alone down the street...

Chris will never get his first car that was to be given to him in his senior year...

Chris’s art will never grow...

He will never...

Enter his art in senior competition...

Go to the prom...

Have his senior or prom pictures taken...

Graduate with the class of 2002...

He will never...

Eat his dad’s scrambled eggs...

Get his paycheck from Larry’s Foodland...

Surf the internet...

Talk online with his friends...

Swim two lengths of the pool underwater or play his guitars...

Fight and fool with his brother over CD’s and clothes...

Pet his dog Charlie, or play with his cat Felix...

Skateboard down the streets of Old Rosedale Gardens...

Get his braces off his teeth...

Have his art grow, or do more computer animations...

Laugh with his family...

Again.

He will never blow the candles out on his 17th birthday cake...

He will never attend the summer portfolio camp at Detroit’s Center for Creative Studies...

He will never be in another play... Never grow to his full height...

He will never start the college and art schools of which he dreamed...

He will never be a famous artist...

He will never do special effects for movies...

He will never draw us more pictures (he gave away his art “don’t worry mom I can make more”)...

He will never be best man at his brother’s wedding...

He will never get his first apartment...

He will never marry the girl of his dreams...

He will never buy his first home...

Never have the “lots of kids” that he planned to have...

Never make grandchildren, cousins and nephews or nieces...

He will never be there for his brother or mother as the years pass...

He will never be forgotten by those of us who knew him or loved him...

He will never be forgotten.

AKempa

The truth will come out.

DAD
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Today's "art" was done as homework for a summer class Chris had taken at Center For Creative Studies last summer. He had taken summer classes there the last three years. Last year one of his drawings was selected and exhibited there.

He was so looking forward to this summer and Camp Portfolio.July 15th-28th he would live on campus, attend classes and expand his portfolio. He did receive his application......most unfortunatly about one month after he was killed.
Fran Kempa
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Hey! Speaking of JONES SODA, their sponsoring the Grand Rapids Benefit Show! Hope to see you guys there!
Cyndi! <Ckbenefitshow@yahoo.com>
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Hello Chris, I had my first Jones Soda yesterday...it made me think of you. I hope things are still rockin' up in heaven.
Anonymous <~*~*~>
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To the Kempa family--this is a beautiful tribute to a young man that I wish I had gotten to meet. He seems like such a sweet, gifted, interesting, and intelligent person. It is always a tragedy when God takes a loved one away, particularly when they are this young, but with this page you have truly helped to teach us how he once lived and how much he is still loved. My prayers are with you!
Meme
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Thanks for the picture...it really made me smile!
Michele
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Today's picture is for Michele!
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Today's picture is the one from IHOP!!! I know that Kerry and Jenny will remember it too! Love you buddy.
Michele <Shelly613@hotmail.com>
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Chris, so I was sitting and thinking about when we went to Homecoming together and how much fun we had. I remember how we both asked each other...it was your first dance and you didn't want to go alone and I wanted to go and have some fun...so we decided that we should just go together...that way we would have fun together. Well, I am so glad that we did! Do you remember dinner? We went to IHOP and being the artist that you are, you made your pancake into a face! It was great! I have one of the greatest pictures of you...you are peaking out from behind your menu and you've got the greatest smile on your face! I also remember meeting your mom for the first time and how she told me that you were so excited and nervous to go to the dance. I told her that I'd take care of you and that we would have fun. We sure did have fun, didn't we??? I also have some great pictures of us dancing at the dance. You were so happy and were laughing and smiling and having a good time. I will never forget that dance...it was one of my favorite ones that I went to. Thank you for giving me some great memories to hold onto. I miss you so much and hope that you are having a blast up in heaven. Until we meet again, take care...much love, Michele
Michele <Shelly613@hotmail.com>
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Dear Mrs. Kempa, I should be the one thanking you for bringing such a wonderful person in this world. I will always remember the day I first met Chris. It was one of the worst days in my life, or so it seemed at the time, and Chris told me that today may seem so long and so terrible, but tomorrow everything would get better. He was right. Even thoug he had never talked to me before, he sat down next to me in the theater and gave me that small piece of advice. Ever since then,I always think that tomorrow will be better. tomorrow will get better. Chris-You inspire me every day to be a more soulful and peaceful person on this earth. I know you've brought peace and serenity to heaven.
Megan <nutmeg_32@yahoo.com>
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Chris's artwork the last few days on this site has been so good i can't believe it. And even before that all I can say is who can't get enough Ninja Turtle drawings.
Rich
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Chris, thank you so much for being with me on Saturday...it was difficult knowing that another one of my dear friends would never grace me with her style or grace, just as you always did. Please take care of Anna for me...you two are gonna have a blast in heaven together. Thanks again Chris...I love you and miss you.
Michele <Shelly613@hotmail.com>
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Dear Chris,

As you know we all went to the play Fri. night just as you recommended. You were there with us in spirit. The production and performances were fantastic as usual. So much talent! The only thing I truly missed seeing was you! I bet you would have been a pirate! I must say I enjoyed the show very much and I'm very happy I took your advice. I didn't become sad until the end. We gave flowers to Ms. Hillman and ten of your dear friends. I didn't want to leave anyone out, you had so many friends I didn't even know about, so I put a large boquet in the choir room for every one to take a flower from you. It made me feel good to give the flowers in your name. I could tell everyone liked them.

Tonight the Academy Awards are on. While we never sat glued to the T.V. to watch, we did catch bits and pieces over the years. You were interested in certain catagories, mainly Special Effects. Remember how I told you the last two years, "Now when you're up there giving your acceptance speech you'd better mention me!" You said both times with a big smile "Oh Mom!" I think you thought I was kidding but I wasn't. I HONESTLY believe had you lived ,you would have achieved all your goals. A Special Effects movie guy and a famous artist. Do you remember about two months before you were killed we were talking about your art, music, poetry etc. I said to you,"Honey, do you have ANY IDEA how TALENTED you are?" And as usual you very modestly said,"Mom, I'm JUST BEGINNING to realize it!"You had the talent and a winning way with people that would have taken you far.

One year ago today the vet advised us to have Charlie put to sleep,remember? I had taken him in that morning and he told me, "Just leave him here, we'll take care of him" I told him there is no way I'm leaving him here.I couldn't imagine our lives with out him and there was no way I could have told you and Adam what had been done. So I scooped his bald body up ,trying not to hurt his many sores, and took him home. The vet had told me he would no longer care for him. You were the first one home. I told you as gently as I could what the vet had said. Charlie was in the sunroom and you joined him with a big hug. He felt hot like he had a fever and was trembling. You looked up at me and said, "We're not going to do that are we Mom?" and I said "No, we'll keep him here and give him hospice care. If he dies, he'll die at home"

If ANYONE had told me ,one year from this day your dog will be well but your son will be dead, I NEVER would have believed them. I know you are making the best special effects in heaven but I'm still so empty without you.....we all are. We all miss you and love you so much!
Mom
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I just saw that there is another benefit for Chris in Grand Rapids. I hope everyone will try to make it! It sounds like it will be great!
Michelle
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I was driving to work today and I thought I'd listen to the radio in stead of a cd. I just went to 89x just as a song was starting. I heard the air raid sirens and turned it up. It was sloan, "money city maniacs." I thought about being in the art room and having that song come on (it was rare). No matter where we were in the room when that song came on, me and Chris would find eachother and sing along. Everyone else in the class probably thought we were nuts! I will always love that song and think of Chris everytime I hear it.
Cyndi! <goldfingercjl@yahoo.com>
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Kempas~ It was so wonderful to see you at the show last night...the flowers are absolutely beautiful...and so are all of you. You will always be a part of the Franklin Players family...we love you and will always keep the spirit of Chris alive in our minds and hearts...that is a promise. We all miss him. Chris~You are with us every night when that curtain opens ...we feel your love and energy in our hearts as we make magic and memories...we miss you, but we all know that you are always there, enjoying the moment right along with us in spirit... After the curtain call, when the lights flash blue, know that love is going right back to you...you are so loved. Love, Ms. Hillman
Ms. Hillman
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I saw Mrs. Kempa last night at the show. She looked so sad. I know that she enjoyed seeing all the kids and the play was great! I wish there was something we could all do to help with the pain of losing a child. I can't image that there is anything that can do that. I send my strength and think about Chris, his family and friends each day.
Franklin Parent
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My Kempster, I love you. I still have that peice of your red sweatshirt hoddie you gave to me when you were in 8th grade and I was in 7th. I miss and care about you so much. You're family is in my prayers daily. I miss you bad, I can't wait to see you again, and I will because of Jesus and his dying for us, I'm so glad you love GOD, then and now, forever and etenity.
jen
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I found this site linked to the VegSource site. What a gifted young man! It sounds as though he was also very kind and well loved.For some reason God seems to take the cream of the crop. How sad. It sounds like the sky was the limit for his future. I am so sorry for your tragic loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Mary Saia <Colorado>
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Dear Chris

As you know I started cleaning your room today. I knew it would be hard but I'm finding it's much harder than I imagined....EVERYTHING a memory, and many things untouched, just as you left them four months ago. What got me the most for some reason was your box of paints.

Remember you bought that old Bazooka Bubble Gum lunch box at the neighborhood garage sale last year? You painted all over it and neatly painted your name "CHRIS" on it in black paint. Inside I found many tubes of acrylic paint. Each tube had been squeezed and forever holds the shape of your palm and finger tips. There were three paint brushes in there too. Each one had dried paint on it, red, white and pink. I wonder which painting you worked on last? I also found the shoe box cover that you used to blend the paints. That's almost a work of art in itself.

I wasn't able to work on it as long as I thought I would. I can see it's one of the things that will require "Baby Steps" as they call them at Compassionate Friends. I did find this poem on your bed. It must have been at the Memorial because it looks rather weathered but I don't recall seeing it before. It was written by your friend Megan O'Connor and it's very touching

You go where pain and sorrow are distant memories.

The journey is for you alone.

I don't understand it but,

I can't follow you on to that special place.

There is something pulling you closer.

There is a glow all around you.

You tell me it's going to be alright

That I can face the world

I'll never be alone

You will live on

Through the lives you have touched

And the places you've been.

I'll save a space for you in my heart.

For I know the path is long and winding.

But I won't be afraid.

You'll be there

Watching over me

And guiding me

With the music your soul makes.

I'll speak to you in my dreams

And in my prayers

I know you are listening.

Nothing could ever replace your sprit

Or your brilliance

Just know that no one will forget

The greatness you have shown.

The memories will carry on

Through space and time

When my day comes to visit you

You'll be waiting

We'll walk to your special place

And I'll know that I am home.

Thank you Megan.....I love you Chris!
Mom
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hi chris. as i sit here thinking, i try to think not of your death, but of your life. i have to believe that you would have made it far in life. you had so much going for you. as an artist, a musician, and soon to be an actor. im sure that you would have been famous and would have shared with the world your talents as you did with us. i will love you forever. i thank you for being my friend and i cant help but wonder if i was the best friend i could have been to you but i sure hope i was. we truely will always be friends forever. i know one day we will be hanging out in heaven with everyone and having a great time like the old times. and that is really worth waiting for. i think that is what keeps everyone going through this horrible tragedy. the fact that we will see you again and it will be better then when we were here on earth because everything will be perfect. i know that it might be a while or it might be tommorrow, but we will be together again and have a lot more good times. you truely were an inspiration and i am proud to have had the friendship that we did. i feel bad for the people who did not get to experiance your friendship or careness. thank you so much for always being my bud. i miss you and i will never forget you. i will write you again soon. until we meet again, keep heavin rockin. my prayers are with you and adam and your mom and dad. later buddy love woody
jason <avsrule1449@aol.com>
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I love you and miss you, Chris
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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Dear Mrs. Kempa: Today I stood at my spotlight and read the entry you wrote in our Peter Pan program. Tears ran down my cheeks as I thought of the love and misfortune that traveled up to Heaven with your son. Such a loss brings people together at times, but in other cases it leaves family and friends questioning the past and praying for the future. I can not say that I have ever experienced such a loss but I can say that not knowning Chris feels almost as terrible. Having walked by him almost everyday in the halls and seeing him in the theatre but never saying hello leaves me feeling disheartened and unlucky. I can remember the Saturday before his death was the closing night for Anne of Green Gables. I signed his program saying thanks for working on the play. Ever since that terrible Monday I keep replaying the moments of seeing him. I remember going back into the choir room for something and there he sat, his feet on the desk looking comfortable. His headphones were on of course, and his fingers were taping to the beat of the song. He glanced up when I walked in and I smiled and went on searching for what I needed. To have walked ten more feet and introduce myself wouldn't have hurt me but having been in a rush and selfish I hurried out of the room. That was the first time we ever made eye contact and the last time I ever saw him. Now a days, when I need something to do I find myself interested in drawing and writing more than I usually do. I'm sure it's an image in my mind but it seems as if I've inproved my skills while having him in mind. It's almost as if his hand is on the pencil guiding me along the way. Such a drastic change occured in our halls the day of November 20th.Having seen his work and hearing the wonderful stories of him I am not the same. I cry all the time asking God why he would take such a extrodinary person from so many peoples lives. I try to understand death but I have not yet come to the point and doubt I will until I have fully experienced it. SO MANY people tell me "he would have gone so far in life". From what I've heard and seen, he did. Such a successful young man left our lives that day and left us wondering. Yet heaven was truly blessed. I believe he is looking down from heaven wishing he could tell us everything is fine. I think God does it for him. Especially the beautiful day we were blessed with today. It was a great way to end our first Peter Pan Performance. I know Chris requested this beautiful day. Just think of the wonderful time Chris is having in heaven right now. I'd like to think that what happened on November 20th was Gods dream come true. Maybe the art department in heaven needed some help and God called Chris to the rescue. What ever the reason I imagine he is proud of everyone who knew him. All my prayers are with you now and always.
Colleen Baidoon <colleenieb@yahoo.com>
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Chris........ The play is so awesome! Many of us believe it's because of you! Keep helping us out. We feel your presence so strongly! We miss you and love you tons. Please be with us Thrus. and all the way through to Sun.! Love, your Players
You Know Who
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I find it comforting to know that even though some of us are now faced with dealing with the death of yet another wonderful and amazing individual, Anna, that we can find comfort in the web site. I know that Chris is welcoming Anna in heaven and that they are both looking down and watching us until we meet them. Bless everyone and remember to cherish everyday...we don't know if it will be our last.
Michele <Shelly613@hotmail.com>
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I wrote this shortly after Chris died, and with recent events of my dear friend Anna being killed this past weekend I felt compelled to add it to the collection of letters on the site, it semi describes my mind set of where Chris and Anna are: Stars With Names I believe you're a star in te sky, Watching us at night, To make sure we're okay, But when you see our pain, Do you feel it too? Or do you just realize that theres nothing you can do? Or are you too busy with God's quest for you to worry? I'm sure you worry but realize the reason for your absence, Do you wish we could know why? Cause I sure do! I always think about it, Don't think we just forgot you, We NEVER could. You left too big of a mark to just let go. I guess I just miss you to pieces! ....So there it is, and to Chris I just want you to know I love you and I miss you and not a day goes by that I dont think about you cause you did leave a special impact on me, with you here I always knew somone would be there for me if I need them. You were truely a special person and I'll carry you in my heart the rest of my life. And please take care of Anna for me, give her a hug because I can't. You two will find alot in common, you both have that special twinkle in your eyes. Hugs and kisses!
Chris O <TiniBallerini@aol.com>
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Thank you for helping me out the past couple of days. I know that things will be ok with your help. Thank you again Chris. Love you and miss you tons.
a friend
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The first day of spring Chris! I know if you were still here with us you would have wanted to be out skateboarding! But it's tech week for the play. Instead you'd be at Franklin working diligently on the role I know you would have gotten and wanted so much! I know you'll be with us in the theatre Fri. night cheering for all of your dear friedns. Did you know Ms. Hillman is dedicating the play to you? She is such a wonderful person!

Everyone still misses you SOOOOOO much. I stay in contact with many of your friends. It was hard at first but now I'm very happy that I do. As I told them, staying close to them is a way of staying close to you. I hope you're helping Anna, she sounds just as good and kind as you. For some reason I will NEVER understand, God needs the good ones more than ever now.I love you so much.
Mom <Notfanny@aol.com>
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I also wrote to the mayor and I'm so glad to hear that there will be a placque for Chris. The kids more than all of us adults need those little things to hold on to they need to know that their friends are not forgotten. My daugther will be gone 18 years this year longer then we had her she is missed every day. All I can say Mrs Kempa is look for all of those little hello's they send us. Our Toni was 18 and a beautician. I know she is busy cutting hair somewhere up there. She took her state boards on Wedesday and was killed on Sunday. I to sit back and think of the things I should of done and said but the biggest thing I did was forgive the young man who killed her.I want you to know that you and your family will get through it as much as we hate the thought and feel the guilt that we could. You tuck them in the corner of your heart reserved just for them and God. Well I'm babbling as sometimes Mothers of lost children do. The tears are coming to hard to type and I hope I haven't upset you. Take care and take one day at a time. God Bless Sue and Toni
Sue Richardson <ctn36453@centurytel.net>
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Hi Chris: Well, it certainly was an interesting evening to say the least. I am sure you were looking down on us laughing at how we must have looked in the bar listening to Hey Mercedes. I must admit, it was not my type of music, but I was happy to be there for you. We met a couple of the guys....especially Bob Nanna. They are nice guys...and think the world of your family. Take care honey....be happy! Love,
Aunt JAnne <jgvpri@aol.com>
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Hey Chris! I'm sorry I haven't written you in a while. I just wanted to tell you that I just found out that a sweet and wonderful girl I went to high school with died in a car accident. We were both in CAPA together, and she was always the nicest girl to everyone. So, I hope you make her feel welcome up there with your warm smile and charming wit. We all miss you Chris, and I know for a fact that not one single day goes by that my brother does not think about you or pray for you and your family. You're truly missed, Chris. It's also kinda funny...today I remembered the time when I had to settle a quarrel between you and that kid Paul down my street. You and my bro wanted to just wreck that poor kid over some skateboard or something ( you remember), and I remember being like a dumb older sister and making you two boys go down there, sit down with Paul, and work out your differences, rather than fight about it. I know you remember it, because you were so full of pride that neither you or Ronnie wanted to go down there. But, you three boys learned your lesson, and for some odd reason I was reminded of that today, just thought I would remind you too! I will talk to you later, and remember to make Anna feel welcome...Thanks hon. Aimee
Aimee <ShredBettyQ@netscape.net>
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Chris, today I was told that another one of my friends was taken in a car accident. So can you please welcome Anna and her two friends that were also killed up there to heaven? I would really appreciate it-I'm sure that they are all a little scared right now and I know that if you were there to help them, then maybe they won't be so scared. Thank you so much. Not a day goes by when I don't think about you, especially one like today. I love you and miss you tons.
Michele <Shelly613@hotmail.com>
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Four months now Chris! One third of a year! Once in a while it still doesn't seem real. But most days I can't escape from the reality. You're still the first thing I think about every morning and the last thing I think about at night .......and almost every minute in between!

I still have "good Chris days" and "BAD Chris days" On good Chris days I only think about you, not what happened to you.I think what a wonderful young man you had become. So kind, talented and so well liked. I try to convince myself you were needed for bigger and better things.God chose you because you were so good.I imagine you are now a High Angel, still wowing the heavenly beings with your multiple talents and are so happy we can't begin to imagine.

On BAD Chris days all I'm able to think about is what happened to you. I wonder if you knew you would be hit, if you felt the impact and if you knew you had become airborne. When you were back on the ground did you know you were dying? Did you wish I'd driven you to school that day and did you wonder why I wasn't there with you when you needed me most.I tried to get to you that morning Chris, honest to God I tried but the police woman would not let me. She literally blocked the road with her car. If we had been thinking clearly we would have found another route but we weren't thinking clearly.I'm so sorry I wasn't there to hold you. When I think back and remember the look on your face in the hospital, frozen in terror and pain I know you were aware of some, if not all of it.On some BAD days ,but not all, I even question if there is a heaven. Was my baby mushed in the road for nothing? Luckily I don't question that for long. I HAVE to believe you're in heaven and were rewarded. That's the only thing that's getting me through this!

I know you hear me when I talk to you ,I just wish you would talk back.I miss you more every day. Your energy, your humor and your numerous creations. I haven't heard the words,"Mom come here you've GOT to see what I just did!" in four months. I was used to hearing that on a daily basis since you were always creating something, be it a drawing, painting, computer animation, song, poem or insturmental.Most unfortunatly there will be NO MORE creatins from you. Please save EVERYTHING you're creating now so you can show me some day when I join you. I love you so much!!
Mom
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Chris: I am putting a video in the mail tomorrow from March of 1990....with you, Adam, Kelly, and Joan playing in your yard in the other house and also the famous "dancing in the dining room" scenes... Why I never sent this to your momma sooner, I'll never know. Your friends from HEY MERCEDES are playing in a place called GO REHEARSAL next Sunday night. It's near UNC-Chapel Hill, which is about 50 min away from us. I guess it's popular with the University students. We hope to make it up there to meet them. Your 3 year old cousin Bradley reminds us a lot of you as a toddler. Joan thinks you two look just alike. He's also very high lively like you were. We are praying for your family and are sure that you are at home in your heavenly mansion. Love, Kathy
Kathy <MsKateP>
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Great skateboarding day Chris,we would have had a blast! You were getting so good with your jumps! Miss ya and love ya buddy.
Kevin
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Hi Chris: Just wanted to let you know tomorrow night,(Monday, 3/19), we are very excited about seeing Hey Mercedes in Buffalo...at Cloud Nine...a local bar for the kids around here. Uncle Bill and I, and cousin Billy and his friends from Canisius College will be there. We are looking forward to meeting them and telling them who we are, and to thank them for their support the night of your scholarship fundraiser. We are sure you will be there....so we are sure you will know how the evening goes. Of course, you know, we will be with Aunt Molly and her friends also. We will be thinking about you. Much love,
Aunt JoAnne <jgvpri@aol.com>
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Hey Chris, Happy St. Patrick's Day! You at least deserve that! I'm kind of happy about tomorrow! I'm coming to Livonia for a couple hours like around 3pm to about 7pm (probably later knowing my parents) Were supposed to have dinner with my grandparents but of course I'm going to my Aunts! I heard all the latest news on the memorial and I will most definetly be stopping down by the memorial no matter what! I just wanted to wish you a happy St. Patrick's day once again and tell you I miss you and love you so much! I'll right soon! Ginny!
Virginia Moshos <lemon_head14@hotmail.com>
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hi chris we miss you so much! yesterday we tried to write to you but the computer we used was being gay. we were sitting there talking about you yesterday, and moriah was telling stories about when you guys were going out. also we were at marley's house watching "welcome to the dollhouse" and there was this part you wouldve loved! This little chic was ballet dancing to the music and she looked so corny!! wish you were there with us to see it! I still love you more than ever! I bet you and john lennon are having a jam session right now! say hi to elvis! he rocks...........well we better get goin but well see you later! luv you--->>me and marley!
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Happy St. Patrick's Day Chris! Despite your heritage The Luck of the Irish was certainly not with you on 11/20/00. Murphy's Law would be much more applicable.

I wore your green Vernors sweater all day and later tonight when we go out I'm wearing the sweater Grandma and Bill brought you from Ireland. We're going to see a movie and have dinner with the Deadys. Adam will be playing tonight with The Recital and Red Shirt Brigade at Stormy Records. If you were still here with us I bet you'd have gone with Adam.

Mrs. Allen and I were going to go to the Memorial today to see if we could do SOMETHING wih it. Since they made us take it down it's really sad looking. How I wish they had handled that differently. We didn't go however because of the snow. Maybe tomorrow.

I didn't decorate the house this year. I haven't decorated since my half hearted effort at Christmas. I've missed New Years, Valentines Day ,today and I can't bring myself to think about Easter. You and Adam would always tease me about my decorating. You always said if anyone was unsure of the season or holiday all they had to do was come to our house! You both laughed at me but I know you both really enjoyed such festivity! You'd even come home once in a while from someone's house and say," Mom they didn't have ANY decorations up!" That was so strange to you. Hopefully in the years to come I'll be able to resume my traditions but I fear it will be a long, long time before I'm able.

I hope you are so happy. Keep trying to tell me not to be so sad.I love you so much!
Mom
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Hi Chris - Hey, I just wanted to wish you a happy St. Paddy's Day. I just had a feeling I couldn't shake when I felt you up in heaven with Gramma & I just knew she & Lillian & Florence were showing you the jig. I bet you caught on right away. I took Irish dancing when I was in grade school and we had a big show for all our family. Lillian & Florence came, and Gramma watched me from heaven. Boy, even though I was in 6th grade ( a looooong time agao ), I still remember how hard all those complicated steps were. Well, you do your Irish heritage proud today !!! I just know you'd pick up the dance steps with no problem, so put on a nice show for all our family today !! Well, I'm having a nice dinner party for a bunch of non-Irish friends & our cousin, Kathy Missert - making the whole traditional Irish menue - so you come & join us tonight, ok ? Then we're all going down to the south side to the Irish Center. It gets really rowdy in there sometimes, but no one ever bothers me with a name like Molly. Well, you have a fun day today, Ok? Hug Gramma for me. I love you !! Aunt Molly P.S. - I did call about my car & it's getting fixed on Monday.
Molly Vaughan <MEVaughan@AOL.com>
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Just another day in Hell, my life since you were killed. I lit some candles at your memorial tonight, it was cold and windy but I got a few going.

It's been about 118 days since you walked out the front door and out of our lives. I still see your face, frozen in fear on the gurney in the hospital. Forever dead, silent but saying so much.

I miss you, Dad
Chris's Dad <afk49@aol.com>
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hey chris i just wanted to say thank you. thank you for all that you were and all that you are now. thanks for all the time we ever got to share and for being there for me when i need you most. it certainly helps to have an angel watching out for me and to listen to me. i just wish we could chill at the bean like old times. hopefully one day we will get to. i miss you so much, but i know that you are there looking out for me. thank you for introducing me to marcus... i feel better knowing that there is someone out there like me. i love you with all of my heart and i just want you to know that i always did. i love you,
sara
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Dear Chris: The picture today, (3/16/01), is of you, your brother , and cousin Billy. We used to spend Christmases together at Papa Bill's and Gramma Joan's. Those were fun happy times. Looking at that picture takes me right back to that time in life. I wish we could have those years back. Lots of love to you honey...keep watching over all of us...especially your cousin Billy.
Aunt JoAnne <jgvpri@aol.com>
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hey there chris!! how are you doing today? i just got back from play rehearsal and i decided to talk to you!! i wish that you were in the play also. we would have had so much fun. but there is not a day in play practice that i do not think about you. i devoloped a picture of you from chicago and i toned it. i think i'm going to give it to your mom. it's so cool looking. and i know that you are looking down on us from heaven, cheering us on during the play!! well chris, i will talk to you again soon as possible. i miss you buddy!! i love you!!
Jenny <dustinsangel2001@yahoo.com>
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Hi Chris :-) ...... I know we usually talk at night in my kitchen when I'm cleaning up, but I REALLY wanted to write you tonight because of Gramma's birthday. Well, just so you know......she, Bill, and I knew exactly when you came to wish her a Happy Birthday. Remember tonight when Bill & I turned out all the lights & I lit the candles on Gramma's cake ? Well, as soon as I rounded that corner out of her kitchen and into the dining room when I was carrying the cake, I said, "Mom, Chris is here ...... he's come to help you blow out the candles." Did you hear Gramma reply, "I know he is....I'm glad you're here Chris." Then we all had such a good feeling because we knew you were with us when that one candle Gramma missed got blown out !! She was so glad, and she really felt the happy birthday wishes you were sending her way. And....by the way.....thanks for helping me with my stupid car !!! It started losing power again on the Thruway, and I did get scared this time with it being at night. If you hadn't helped me these three times, I'd have been in a real jam !!! I'm going to call the dealer tomorrow.....you're probably sick of rescuing your kookie aunt & her car trouble ..... but REALLY ..... thank you soooo very much for helping me !! Oh, don't want to forget to tell you about this coming Monday night....Hey Mercedes will be in Buffalo. Aunt Jo, your cousin, Billy ( and I think some of his friends ), some of my friends, and I are all planning on going to see them and show our support. Oh, by the way, I saw Bella Fleck & the Flecktones last night. Wow !!! They were really great !! I can see why they won a Grammy this year. Next time they play, watch their show from heaven.....I think you'll like them ( and besides, you can even join them on stage if you want )!! Well, I'll say good night now .... gotta get to bed, but I'll be yacking with you tomorrow for our usual chat !! All my love always and many hugs....Aunt Molly. P.S. - As usual - please don't forget to give Gramma Missert a HUGE hug for me, and tell her I'll be chatting with her tomorrow too.
Molly Vaughan <MEVaughan@AOL.com>
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Hey there, Chris. I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you today. Not that it's anything new!! I hope you are doing ok up there! Miss ya tons!
Tracy <CheshireCat354>
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You never said I'm leaving

You never said goodbye

You were gone before I knew it

And only God knows why

A million times I've needed you

A million times I've cried

If love alone could have saved you

You never would have died

In life I loved you dearly

In death I love you still

In my heart you hold a special place

no one can ever fill

It broke my heart to lose you

But you didn't go alone

For part of me went with you

That day God called you home
Author Unknown
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Chris, yesterday Mom talked about Easter. I found it too hard to discuss, I realized again you won't be there. I know you were getting way too old for Easter egg hunts and stuff, but you and Adam seemed to enjoy the competition. The last few years hunts were closer to a wrestling match than an easter egg hunt I miss you, Dad
Dad <afk49@aol.com>
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Dear Chris,

Today is Grandma Joan's 79th Birthday.I know she will greatly miss hearing from her youngest grandchild. If there is a way, please let her know you're thinking about her O.k.? I love you.
Mom
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Dear Chris,

I went to Franklin again today. Each time it seems to get a little easier. We shared a lot of memories there too. Good and bad! I took Mrs. Stanczyk's suggestion and donated all the stuffed animals from your Memorial to Mr. K. in Student Activities. He seemed happy to get them. He asked me if I wanted them to go to the Livonia Police, The Livonia Fire Department or Children's Hospital. I chose Children's Hospital. Another good way to spread a little more of the spirit of Chris around!

The other day when Tracy came over she couldn't help notice we have your Mirrors portrait hanging. She said there was a picture of you working on it in last year's yearbook. We never got one remember? You were going to buy one on yearbook day but they weren't ready. There was a long delay. Then I guess we both forgot about it. I didn't give it another thought until Tracy mentioned your picture.

Today as I was leaving the Student Activity office who did I run right into? Jessica Cubr! We gave each other a big hug and since she's on the year book staff I asked her if there were any left. There were and I got one! I also ordered one for this yesr! I'm so happy to have it! I just feel you had a part in making us run into each other! I hope you are blissfully happy and watching over us all. I love you so much!
Mom
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When your parent dies you have lost your past. When your child dies you have lost your future.
Dr. Elliot Luby
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If I could have a lifetime wish, a dream that would come true.

I'd pray to God with all my heart for yesterday and you. A thousand words can't bring you back; I know because I've tried.

And neither will a million tears I know because I've cried.

You left behind my broken heart and happy memories too.

I never wanted memories, I only wanted you.
Author Unknown
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Hi Chris. I have been thinking about you alot lately. I always am thinking of you but lately its been more than ever. I dont know the reason for this, but its a good thing because when i think about you it makes me happy. I remember first meeting you in sixth grade and from then on we were good friends until about the start of tenth grade. We just didnt hang out as much as we used to for some reason. I dont know why that was. I guess we just got further apart. we were still good friends, but not as it used to be. I am sorry for that. I hope that i was the best friend that i could be to you, because i know you were to me. I guess this was your time and i know you are happy up in heaven. I still remember all the times we had together and will cherish them forever. I know that i couldnt have fun with anyone as much as i did with you. You always made me laugh somehow, or if not a laugh, at least a smile. I dont really dont know what else to say. I really wish we could have been as good as friends as we were, but im glad we were good friends and will always be. i remember the last time i saw you. Me, you and Mike Ledford were up at saint mikes and you guys were skating. You were grinding or something on the stairs by the door between the fence and the playground. im glad i got to see you then, because the last time i hung out with you was about a week before that and im glad i got to be with you then. You will always be in my heart and mind. I love you buddy. Keep rockin love woody
jason <avsrule1449@aol.com>
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Hey Chris, I have been thinking about you often. And i know that you are there sometimes. Well, just last weekend Shawna and I were at Magic bus and we were talking about you. We were saying how we wish you were with us and all of a sudden "Magic" by Ben Folds Five came on the speakers. Right away we knew you were there with us. I miss you and send my love to your family. All my love, ~JLH~
Jamie <JLynn3217@yahoo.com>
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Dear Chris: This is your cousin Cathy. This is the first time I've been in your website, and I wanted to write you a note. I know we didn't know each other very well and it's a shame. When relatives live in different states from each other, it's unfortunate that they don't get together too often. My last memory of you was as Grandma Kempa's funeral in September. I remember that we got a chance to talk and that was very nice. I couldn't believe how tall you were--you turned into a very nice young man. It must have been hard for you to be a pallbearer and carry grandma's casket along with Adam. It's so hard for me to believe that your not with us anymore Chris. When I heard of your accident, I was with my family in Arizona. I called my Dad to ask about the blizzard in Buffalo and he told me the terrible story of your death. I cryed very hard for you and for your mom, dad and Adam. I couldn't even imagine what they were going through. Mark and I were very upset that we could not be in Detroit for your funeral. We didn't arrive home from Pheonix until the night before and there were no flights out because of the snowstorm Buffalo had. I wanted to be there so badly to touch your hand and hug your family. It really bothered me. I really wish I would have known you better Chris--but somehow after seeing your artwork and reading and hearing all of the wonderful things you did in your life, I feel like I do know you better--more than I ever did. Your life was just beginning--but the 16 years you had I'm sure were beautiful years--full of wonderful memories of family, friends, and your art. You were very talented and well loved by everyone--I'm very proud of you for that. I wanted to tell you a little about my life--just so you can feel you know me a little better. I have worked at Buffalo State College for almost 17 years now as a Staff Assistant. My husband Mark, who I married in 1991, is a very loving and caring person. He makes me very happy. We were blessed with a little boy in April 1999. I'm so glad you got to see him at Grandma's funeral. His name is Alex. He turns two in April. We love him so very very much. We are a happy family and I feel very blessed. I hope you feel you know me a little bit better now. I am so sorry that we did not get a chance to find out more about each other. I do truly believe that you are happy with God and that he is taking care of you. For some reason, he wanted you to be there in heaven with him by his side. I will miss you cousin and never forget you. Love, Cathy
Cathy Cook <cookca@buffalostate.edu>
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the other day kendall and i were thinking about that half day we spent at bekah murphy's house and we that mystery science theatre 3000 movie and her dog was spewing "cockrum" on us. i wish i could relive that day over again, i would change so many things. especially my hang ups on "going out" with younger boys... i miss you sweetie
sara
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I've been thinking a lot about you lately to tell the truth and I really regret the fact that we kinda grew apart before you went out with Cori. I remember the day that you, me and Cori walked around Rosedale. I think you guys started going out that day. It was so adorable, the two of you. I remember so well because I made brownies that day and I brought them out of my house for you guys when we stopped there. You liked those brownies, I think. That was the last time we all hung out together. Cori and Dana stayed really good friends with you, but I started a relationship with a boy and unfortunately grew apart from you, not by choice either . I really regret that. The day that the accident happened I remember being in the choir room with Dana and Cori especially and thinking, "Dear God, why did I grow apart from Chris. Why?" and I still think that everyday. I wish so much that you were still here so that I could tell you how nice you ware and how much I admire you and your artwork. I hope you got the letter I left for you before the memorial got taken down. I still feel you here with us all the time...certain times I can just tell that you're there. It's really weird. Anyways, I just wanted to let you know that I miss you a lot. I know that I'll see you again. Then we can walk around Rosedale again together. :)
Jenny <JustCallMeTaco@aol.com>
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Hi chris, its been a while since I wrote in this guestbeek to you. It still feels weird, saying hi to this computer instead of you in person. I hate it. I dont go to your memorial sight at all, Sometimes I feel bad that I dont, but I will come and visit it in the spring when it warms up a bit, if I can. Today when I was painting a picture in my room I put on the "kids in the hall" shirt you gave me when we were going out. It made me remember all of those "good times" (as Martha Stuart would say) that we had!! I miss those times! And putting that shirt on made me feel like you were there even though I knew you were probably up in heaven with all of your new "punkrockers" playing the guitar or sword fighting with sticks and rulers. I wish that I was the one playing with you up there, But I know that it's not my time yet and that when it is we WILL be together and then it will be FOREVER! And that will be something worth waiting for, even though it may seem hard! Oh, like your mom said, yesterday night was the coming home dance at school I went with your good friend Jay, I had a lot of fun, I wish you could have been there with me dancing. I would have saved you a million dances, if you were available! :0) My dress was a deep sky blue with sequins, and my hair was up in a half pony tail with curliness. So what do you wear up in heaven.......I wish you could answer me, Ive always been curious. I still miss you a lot. So wait for me, and then we can have our own little sword fights! Later dear friend! Luv you!
Moriah <Sk8erchic02@juno.com>
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Dear Chris,

Tonight is the Coming Home dance. The event you made me promise I'd buy you a new suit for. You were hoping to go with Cori. You thought the card you made for her and were to give her the day you were killed would make it official.....you'd be boyfriend and girlfriend for the first time in your life.

Most unfortunatly it never came to be. You did get your new suit.....I just wish to God it had been for the dance.

One of your friends E mailed me today and said she wished you could come back to earth just one more day so she could tell you all the things she wanted to but never did. I wish that more than anything too. Not so much to tell you the things I never did because there was nothing left unsaid between us. I wish you could come and tell me yourself that you're profoundly happy and I shouldn't worry about you any more. Deep in my heart I do believe that. It would just make it so much easier to accept if I heard it from you.I love you.
Mom
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We still miss you more than you'll ever know. You had such an impact on so many of us. We love you and hope you continue to watch over us all. You truly are our special angel.
Some Franklin Friends <~~~~~~~~***********~~~~~~~~~~~~>
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Hey there, Chris. I know it has been a while since I wrote in here, but I do think about you all the time. I went to your house and met your Mom (and your cat too!). It was so great talking to her. It really meant alot to me that she sat and talked with me for so long. I got one of your pins while I was there too. I am not sure yet where I am going to put it. Right now it is sitting on my dresser. I think I am going to wear it on my shirt, so that whenever people see it, I can tell them all about you. I love to tell people about the amazing person that I knew. I love you, Chris. God Bless...
Tracy <CheshireCat354@excite.com>
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Dear Chris,

I went to the cemetary this morning. I hope to God they never have to experience it but to all of those cold hearted people who wrote during the Memorial controversy and said "go to the cemetary", I have this to say to them. You try driving through those gates to visit your 16 year old child and then we'll talk. I didn't have trouble finding you this time. The last time I went I couldn't find you and that BOTHERED me. You see, because you were killed after the ground was frozen we haven't been able to have your marker put in yet. Dad had made a small wooden stick with your initials on it but it had been removed. They were removing grave blankets today. They were coming along in trucks and just throwing them in the back. Off in the distance I could see a large pile of blankets where the trucks had dumped them. Then two back hoes were scooping them up and throwing them into dumpsters. Yours was already gone so i imagine it's now in a pile of garbage. Sorry folks, the corner is much easier for me to take too.

Your friend Tracy came to visit me today and brought one of her friends with her.She's on spring break from Eastern. She brought the painting that's on the web site today and Adam took a picture. She told me how she had always been drawn to that painting last year and told you how much she liked it. She said at the end of the year you gave it to her and told her it was her going away present since she was graduating. That was so typical of you. Always doing something nice to make someone feel good! She also said she told you to be sure to sign the back because she wanted to say she knew you when! And did you ever sign it! About three times in big letters.

I'm going to Franklin today to see Ms. Hillman and buy my Peter Pan tickets. It will be hard to sit through but I really want to go. Remember, you're the one who told me I had to see it! I hpoe by next year I'm able to do some sort of volunteer work at the school. Ms. Hillman and Mr. Rheault have both said when I'm ready they'd find something for me to do. I miss having kids in my life and it's very hard to accept the fact that I have no more kids. We're a household of three adults now. Your energy is so missed and will be for ever. I love you. Did you enjoy the concert last night?
Notfranny@aol.com <Mom>
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Hey Chris, i couldnt stop thinking about you tonight. Man... you rock my world. Once again, you are just there for me. I didnt think we were gonna get into the show tonight at all. Not in my wildest dreams did i think i would be seeing Weezer and The Get Up Kids. I guess we were in the right place at the right time-- no i take that back-- it was all you. Thank you Chris so much for opening my eyes to this kind of music-you have influenced me in so many ways. I wish everyone could have been there tonight... I love you and miss you. Forever Shawna
Shawna Brenner <coffeeshopgal@hotmail.com>
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hello chris. this is really weird. i saw this kid yesterday in 7-11 that looked exactly like you. i swore it was you. being the outgoing person i am i went up and i said "hello" i said " what is your name" and he replied, "jacob". i was like "oh ok." i had to find out for sure. i said "hey, can i ask you one more question" he said, "sure". i said, "have you ever heard of weezer?" he replied, "yeah they suck" generally at this point i knew it was definately not you. it was weird because for a minute i actually believed it was you in the flesh. i was gonna say hey chris but i knew it couldnt be. i love you man and i will never ever forget the times we had together. i miss you so much. take care of your mom and dad and adam please!! i love you chris. till we meet again love woody
jason <avsrule1449>
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Dear Chris,

I know you know where Adam and many of your friends are tonight. They all wish you could be at the WEEZER concert with them. As I told Adam last night, I honestly believe you WILL be there with them. I just wish there was some way you could make your presence known. I am SO GLAD I fought Dad so hard to let you go to their concert in September. It was the same day as Grandma Kempa's funeral. You and Adam had tickets and had been looking forward to it for months. Dad didn't want you to leave Buffalo right after the funeral. I argued that if the two of you were there for the entire viewing, the funeral and were pallbears what harm would it do? As part of my arguement I said, "what if it's the last WEEZER concert they ever can go to?" In my mind I thought they might break up. I never dreamed you'd be killed. So we compromised and as you know, you and Adam drove alone in his car and left Buffalo in plenty of time for the concert. I'm SO GLAD. Looking back I'm even greatful you were able to spend that time alone as brothers. I'm sure that's a good memory for Adam.

I was able to listen to music for the first time today since you were killed. I played the new BEATLES CD we got for Christmas. I always loved YESTERDAY and the LONG AND WINDING ROAD but today I heard them with different ears and they took on a whole new meaning. I miss flooding the house with music. That was such a common thing for me to do, but until today it was impossible. I was even able to play I WILL REMEMBER YOU and ANGEL. I even attempted GONE TOO SOON....That's when I lost it.

I had a doctor's appointment today. As I left the parking lot I had no choice but to drive by The Bean. So many memories....I swear I can't walk two feet out the front door with out something jarring a memory or five.

I thought the city was going to go back on their word about a permanent marker at the corner. We picked out a beautiful bronze plaque this weekend and put down a deposit. It's very small, only 4X6 inches but it says everything we wanted to say and we thought it was perfect. When Dad called Mr. Woodcox Mon. morning he gave us a new hoop to jump through.He said now we must get it approved by the Wayne County Road Comission. I was very discouraged and figured this would be their way out. Pass the buck and blame the Road Comission. I'm happy to say Dad talked to the man in charge of permits today and he sounded all for it! We do have to go through the formality of the permit but we're willing to do what ever it takes. A board member from ORGHA called today. They are looking into planting a tree in your memory in Mies Park. I was very happy with the gesture. They wanted to know if we had a tree preference but I said it didn't matter. As Adam said, as far as he's concerned there will NEVER be enough done to remember you but gestures like this are very kind and very much appreciated.

I love you more than you know and still miss you so much. I know that will remain the case as long as I live. I still cry every day and I fear that will remain the case as long as I live. I love you.
Mom <Notfranny@aol.com>
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I like looking at this site every day now since my friend yold me about it. It is such a tragedy that the world has lost such a great artist. May God bless the parents and brother.
Alicia Janiewicz <LiciaJ@earthlink.net>
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very gifted at art work wish i had as good taletn and technique as him and also very sorry about the accident and my regards to family also i found out about this site from Cathy Putnum
Ross Gargan <vibes98@aol.com>
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very gifted at art work wish i had as good taletn and technique as him and also very sorry about the accident and my regards to family
Ross Gargan <vibes98@aol.com>
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As I sit down and read this last insert by Mrs. Kempa I cried and totally understand how you feel. I went through all of this 4 years ago even though it seems like yesterday. Everything you say is almost an exact replica of my best friends death. From going to the hospital to being one of the last ones to say goodbye. And I just want to let you know that I will do anything you need me to. I never got the chance to know chris as well as everyone else but i did become his friend. He was one of the greatest, most talented people I have ever known. Believe me it has been four years and I cant go a day with out thinking about Alycia and I know there won't ever be a day that Chris isn't thought about. I just wanted to say that.With all my love, Jamie
Jamie Harb <JLynn32177@aol.com>
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My Dear Sweet Chris,

It's hard to believe fall is over,we survived the winter and it's almost spring.I feel as though I've been frozen in time for three months just as you are forever.I wasn't prepared for this .....any of this. I wasn't prepared to have the ground kicked out from under me and God knows neither were you. I wasn't prepared for the emotional rollercoaster. I thought each day would get a little better. I wasn't prepared for these back lashes. One or two days I can function and the next I feel as though I've been eviscerated again and the emotions are uncontrolable.

......It didn't really sink in that morning as we left the hospital. It would be the last time we'd see you in that state, as a whole human being. Deep down I knew that was just the beautiful shell that housed your beautiful soul and spirit for sixteen years. We were numb and in shock as we walked to the car. I rode home with Dad and Adam drove home in his car. Just the opposite of how we'd arrived. They gave us a bag at the hospital that I suspected contained your clothes but I didn't look. The ride home was quiet except for the sound of sobbing. All around us people were carrying on with their daily lives. I wanted to scream at them,"what's wrong with you people, don't you know my baby is gone!" We got home and Adam wasn't home yet. I was worried, had to protect my last remaining child. We agreed if he wasn't home soon we'd go looking for him.

We weren't home two minutes and there was another policeman at the door.He was returning your school bag. The strap was broken and it looked like it had slid on the pavement. Dad asked for details but he gave us no information.......Then I felt I had to say it...I had to say it out loud to make it real. You were scheduled to work that afternoon so I called Foodland and spoke to Annette and then I said it...."Annette, this is Fran Kempa, Chris' Mom. I'm just calling to let you know Chris was killed on his way to school this morning." She was shocked, I was crying. I called my work and said the same thing. I told them I had no idea when I'd be back. I couldn't call Franklin, I made Dad do that.We thought Ms. Phimister would be the one to tell. More shock, more tears. Adam finally came home. He had been at the scene. He had to see where his little brother was killed. He lay down in the sunroom with Charlie.

I was cold. I'd never been so cold in my life and I swear I still haven't warmed up since. I sat on the couch wrapped in a blanket and cried. The phone started ringing, people were coming over, I was oblivious. The people from Gift of Life called, I answered their questions for about twenty minutes......I still felt like you'd be home anytime. Somehow we gathered the strength to call a funeral home but which one? We decided on Harris bacause it was close. We called and made an appointment for 2:00. Mrs. Allen came over. The phone kept ringing, relatives, friends, Franklin and reporters.

When we left for the funeral home Mrs. Deady and Caleb were outside. Foodland sent over trays of food. I felt like things were just happening around me and I was numb. We got to the funeral home and it was nice. I had told Dad if it wasn't nice or gave me a bad feeling we would go some place else. But it was nice. We had to make so many decisions. Which cards to chose, death notice or no death notice, which cemetary etc. Then came the hardest part, choosing my baby's casket.When we entered the room the first ones we were shown cost ten thousand dollars. I said to the man," once you close that cover it doesn't matter. Take us to the back." We chose a beautiful metalic blue that I know you would have liked. Much more in our price range. When the man from the funeral home was tallying up the bill he asked about life insurance. I thought why? he was sixteen for God's sake.

We went home and most of that is a blur. People continued to call and come over. At one point I went up to the corner.There were so many people there. I was hugging people and crying," what am I going to do?" But noone had an answer, not even me. I didn't stay long I was so cold.I sat on the couch wrapped in a blanket. Neighbors sent over our dinner and desert. Your friends were coming over. I was oblivious. At one point Adam came home from the corner with a phone number.Someone who had seen the whole thing. I made Dad call her. We were hearing so many things I didn't believe...I had to know. She told us exactly what happened and how she held you until the ambulance came. I felt better after talking to her. Those terrible stories we heard weren't true. I was greatful she held you for me. At some point we went to bed but didn't sleep. The first thing I cried as I got up Tues. morning was, "It wasn't a Dream!"

I came downstairs and the first thing I saw was your cereal bowl in the kitchen sink from the day before. Your last meal was Peanut butter Captain Crunch. That made me cry so much to think just 24 hrs. ago you were eating your breakfast and now you were gone! We had things to do.You hated your suit.You had decided to go to Homecoming at the very last minute. We barely had time to get it cleaned let alone get you a new one. You made me promise you could get a new one for Coming Home in the spring and I did. So we decided to get you a suit to be buried in. You also always wanted your self portrait "Mirrors" framed. You would ask me from time to time,"can we get it framed Mom?" and I would always say,"soon" or "someday" but we never did. We went to the frame store first. Before we went suit shopping I asked Adam if we should lay you out in jeans or a suit.I was going to go with whatever he said. He said a suit so we went and got you a nice navy blue one I know you would like. We got one for Adam too, the same suit.

I don't remember what I did when we came home. Mrs. Allen, The Deadys and Nancy were over.Your suit didn't have to be altered so we took it with us. At one point I had to choose the shirt, tie, shoes, socks and undewear to take to the funeral home.....the last clothes you'd ever wear. That was very hard. We chose a white shirt and the tie you had worn to all three Homecomings. You liked that tie. I then had to iron your shirt....the last shirt I'd ever iron for you . I cried hard as I ironed. We dropped the clothes off at the funeral home. The Deady's came with us. When we got home I had to prepare for our out of town company. They were still coming but not for the same reason. Who could even think of Thanksgiving?

We also had to chose 4 songs for the funeral Mass. Again, I had no idea what you wanted but I had told you and Adam if I were to die I wanted Angel and I Will Remember You at my funeral. You liked them too so I thought you'd be happy with those choices. Adam chose The Beatles In My Life. All of a sudden Gone Too Soon came to mind. I couldn't remember who had done it. Then Adam renembered Michael Jackson for Brian White. We felt we had made the perfect choices! The rest of Tues. is a blur.

I didn't sleep , got up early. We had to pick up Adam's suit and your now framed portrait. People were still calling and coming over. We had so much food but I couldn't eat.Hadn't eaten since Sun. night. The actual physical pain I felt surprised me. I was prepared for mental anguish but not this. At times I felt like I couldn't breathe and I'd let out this sound I'd never heard before and can't repeat now. I called it my animal noises. I knew if I ate I'd throw up. In the middle of all this for some reason I thought about the bag they had given us at the hospital. Remember how I used to wear your coat? I had this sudden urge to wear your coat! I wasn't thinking. When I opened the bag I found it did contain your clothes and coat. They were cut to ribbons and saturated with blood. I felt like I would faint and let out very loud animal noises. Dad asked me why I looked,I tried to explain .I had to wear his coat.

The viewing started at 4:00 but the family could come at 3:00. Just as we were pulling out the driveway Grandma, Bill and Molly were pulling in. We let them in, said a few words, then were on our way. I never dreamed I'd have to see one of my beautiful boys in their coffin at any age let alone at sixteen. I couldn't go over to you right away. There were so many flowers. Mr. Rheault had set up a fantastic display of your art and Ms. Hillman made that wonderful video celebrating your life. I busied myself looking at all of those things first. I finally worked up the courage to go over to you. It was so sad. I cried so hard, we all did. But you looked peaceful. Somehow they were able to erase that look of terror that was frozen on your face. They said they had to cut and paste your hair and position the pillow carefully to cover your head injuries. You looked peaceful but you didn't look real.

Before I knew it people started coming in. So many of your friends. It was wall to wall people all night. People kept asking if we'd heard from the driver but we never did. At 9:00 we went home. I don't remember what we did that night.

Thursday was Thanksgivivg but not for us. Grandma and Molly cooked. Adam, Dad and I took Charlie to the funeral home. He sniffed around for a while then lay down in front of your coffin. We stayed about an hour. When we got home more out of town family had arrived. We ate Thanksgiving dinner off paper plates and sat around very quietly. Nothing I had ever imagined in my wildest dreams.

Friday more out of town family arrived. Again we went to the funeral home at 3:oo. At some point during the viewing on Wed. one of your friends asked if they could put something in your coffin with you. I said they could put anything in they wanted and they did! You were surrounded by toys, animals, and letters of love. Paul put a guitar pick in your hand. Before I knew it people started to arrive again. A repeat of Wed. wall to wall people again the whole night. We had to meet with Father Bondy to finalize the plans for the funeral Mass. The rest is a blur.It was soon 9:00 and time to leave you again. At home we had dinner with all of our out of town relatives. I don't remember what time we went to bed.

I didn't sleep at all. My heart raced and I felt as though I couldn't breathe. I kept dreading the moment they closed the lid on your coffin...the final end. We had to be at the funeral home at 9:00. Somehow we got ready and got there. I don't remember it though. There was a prayer service, then it was time to go to our cars. As each row passed they stopped briefly at your casket. The last three to do this was Dad, Adam and me. The final goodbye, the moment I'd been dreading was here. I didn't want to do it but I knew I had no choice. The three of us stood there for a while cried, told you how much we loved you, then said goodbye. When I got to our car behind the hearse I couldn't help remenbering just two and a half short months ago when Grandma Kempa died. I was asked to ask you and Adam to be pallbearers. The first thing you said was," We don't have to ride in the hearse do we Mom?" And I said," oh no honey, you don't have to ride in the hearse" So you agreed. Now here you were riding in a hearse for your own funeral.If it was possible, my heart broke some more. As we rode from the funeral home to the church, a Driver Ed car passed us. You had an appointment to drive that day and it made me cry more.

The bits and pieces I can recall from the funeral are fragmented. The music was beautiful. There were so many people there and it was very emotional. Even Father Bondy broke down at one point. After Mass Ms. Hillman read one of your poems and an excerpt from one of your essays. Aunt Kathy and Uncle Bill also spoke. The funeral was over, Gone Too Soon started to play and it was time to go to the cemetary. Your funeral procession was over a mile long. You were so loved by so many. We went into the chapel, Father Bondy said some prayers and it was over....over! Again people were hugging me and crying but it's all a blur. Many people came to the house after the funeral. Nancy, Donna,Nancy's Mom and many others did the food and all the preparations. I was in a daze.I really don't remember much about the rest of the day.

Sunday I made breakfast for the first round of out of town company to leave. About two hours later I made another breakfast for the next and last group to leave. Everyone's lives had returned to normal but ours. For the first time since that horrible Monday it was just the three of us alone. The redefining of our lives was about to begin.........
Mom <Notfranny@aol.com>
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Chris, I just wanted to let you know that I have been thinking about you more than ever! I dont know why it is now... but I miss you so much. I am ecstactic to hear about the memorial news--its a shame we had to take it down, but at least they have come to their senses. I know your safe now chris... as much i wish you were still here. This life just isnt fair. Please continue watching over everyone. You must be the most beautiful angel. Later Chris.
Shawna B <coffeeshopgal@hotmail.com>
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i do not know chris? but his trajedy was painful to me, i think i know him now from the people they did care about him and love him? hope to be one of those people? chris and all others young souls, will always be in HEAVEN, and God will make them happier! i wish i knew him !
chuck <chucrihaidar>
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chirs today i drove past your memorial and saw the glowing of the candles from the road, that makes me feel so happy!! I miss you chris and always will.
chrissy
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I have stopped at the memorial to light candles for the past few nights. It just warms my heart to drive by and see the glow coming from that corner. I think everyone should let the mayor know how much we appreciate this. Thinking of you Chris. ~JLH~
Jamie <JLynn32177@aol.com>
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Memorial or not we should remember chris and keep him close to our hearts.
Dan L
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Channel 2 just gave Chris' Memorial Site some coverage too on their 5:00 newscast.
MCS <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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the detroit news needs to learn to spell "Kempa". Their site says: Internet tribute To view a Web site created to remember Chris Kemap, go to www. chriskempa.com.
joe.cwik <joe@joecwik.com>
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I'm so glad about the memorial. Chris, I finally finished the poem I said I'd write you, I'll leave it for you later.
Laura Kathryn <Moon_kat13@yahoo.com>
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It is a crying shame that a memorial has to be removed. When my son was killed, it was on private property at a campground/dirtbike riding facility. It has been nearly 2 years and as of this time we have never been allowed on the property to see where it happened...much less erect a memorial for him. I say leave the memorial where it is and let those poor kids honor their friend in the way they wish to do it.
Stephanie <jarrettsmom@wowmail.com>
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Chris, I left a big fat green candle out @ the corner for you. Keep watching over your friends and family, man.
joe.cwik <joe@joecwik.com>
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this is the best news in a long time. i cant believe that the mayors office is really letting this happen. we would have gone on placing flowers and lighting candles anyway but it sure is nice to know that we can continue without the hassle of worrying what the family hears in retrospect. the friends that leave things are only doing what they need to do to feel chris in thier lives on a daily basis. thanks go out to the mayors office and congratulations to all who care for chris
franklin mom <dcronkhite@aol.com>
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Today's Detroit News story is wonderful and I was especially thrilled to see David Techner's comment. I had the pleasure of attending a seminar of his many years back and it was the most enlightening seminar I've ever attended. He is the best spokesperson on such issues and I am sorry I didn't think of him sooner. We did a great job getting our point across anyways!!
MCS <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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i am so happy to hear that the memorial will be coming back up. i know me and others have been putting candles there each night despite the order, but now we can have everything up there and not worry about it being gone in the morning. the plaque is a beautiful idea. i bet the people who complained are very angry but this isnt about them its about chris. i am just so happy that we can once again go up there and put our flowers there without them being gone the next day. thank you mr. mayor and whoever helped in this decision
jason <avsrule1449>
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I just want to say how happy i am that we got approval for candles and the plaque. It is wonderful to know that people arent all that cold. Im sure you will be seeing many candles in the future. God Bless!!! ~JLH~
Jamie <JLynn3217@yahoo.com>
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Kudos to the Mayor! That is great news about the permanent plaque. Now everyone can visit the memorial site and keep it nice for Chris in his memory! Much Love!! :-)
JoAnne and Bill
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wow. im happy as hell to find out that we can once again place candles and such at the corner. i will have to leave my candle there tonight.
joe. <joe@joecwik.com>
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I so agree Louise. It's becoming rare that tickets are issued or charges pressed. The answer to why has evaded me. They have left the job of pursuing some type of justice to the suffering pedestrian or the suffering family of the pedestrian. Justice can prevail even without tickets being issued or charges being pressed, but it leaves a very cold feeling as to how unprotected we really are as pedestrians. Sad but true. Hopefully Chris' new Memorial Site will be a reminder of that to anyone who steps off that curb.
MCS <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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I am certainly glad the city has come to an agree with all concerned. Pedestrians in MI and many other states do not have the right a way. It seems like cars have taken over and protected by the laws and the walkers are left behind to fend for themselves.
Louise Laurila <cen75721 @ centurytel.net>
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I am so overjoyed to hear that the City and the Mayor have allowed us to give Chris a permanent memorial...that's right, one that no one can complain about or take it down. It just goes to show that there are some people that aren't so heartless. A big thanks to the Mayor and the City...thank you for letting us heal and most of all, remember Chris.
Michele <Shelly613@hotmail.com>
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A group of Chris' family and friends met with Mayor Kirksey and Mr.David Woodcox of the Inspection Department this afternoon. Both men were very gracious and somewhat apologetic. It seems what became an ultimatum on Fri. 2/16 was never intended as such. We dicussed a permanent marker for the site and what items can be placed there. While the Mayor was extremely vague about what items we CAN place, he was VERY clear about balloons. NO BALLOONS! He agreed to flowers and candles but nothing too tall.

The plaque will be made of bronze, flush to the ground and read "In Loving Memory of Chris Kempa 6/10/84 - 11/20/00,and will have an angel on it. Our family will buy it, install it and maintain it... Which will be a pleasure.

Before having the plaque made I will take a model to City Hall for approval. We are very happy with our proposal, however I'm sure the people who originally complained will not be.

Now how about some positive E mails for the Mayor!
Fran Kempa <Notfranny@aol.com>
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Updated News Survey tally - 80 letters in favor of the Memorial, 32 letters not in favor.
MCS <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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I just read with great pain, Mr. Martin's entry. Why is it so often than not that these accidents are written off as "simply" tragic. There is nothing "simple" about them. A pedestrian has not a chance against a vehicle. Look at how many road workers are injured or killed every year. I recently seen a clip on TV that made my hair stand on end where a driver in broad daylight clipped a Police Officer standing next to a stopped vehicle on the highway. Luckily the Officer was not injured, but the force of the clip sent his gun flying into traffic and onto the highway. Much peace and love to the Martin family.
MCS <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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My son, Eric, was also killed by a speeding car, on October 28, 1999. We placed a small cross where he was struck. Someone in the area moved it down into the ditch next to where he was hit several times, but I just moved it back closer to the road. After I thought about how another child walking there could trip or fall on it, I compromised and moved it about half-way. It is now about 8 feet from the edge of the road, so still visible to passersby. I really feel for what your family is going through. I hope the person that hit him was caught and prosecuted. In our case, the sheriff's department called it simply a tragic accident, and there were no charges. I am so sorry for your loss.
dave martin <dmartin7@tampabay.rr.com>
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I wish to thank all the people who have left messages of support for us on this site and the Detroit News site. The response has been overwhelming! There appear to be many kind people out there. Thank You, Adam Kempa
Adam Kempa <afk49@aol.com>
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Looking at the cyber survey really upsets me. People telling us to "get over it," to "go to the cemetary," those ignorant people. Looking at the feedback, I can't help but think that a lot of people are carelessly clicking YES when they mean NO. Most of the feedback is for keeping the memorial, which makes me not understand why the percentages are so close. I can't believe so many people are so heartless and petty.
nicole <nicoliolio82@hotmail.com>
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95 letters to the News Survey not including double post or more than 1 letter from each writer. 67 letters agreed with us that the Memorial should not have been taken down and 28 letters thought it should be taken down. I am so glad that the City of Livonia has re-thought their decision on the Memorial.
MCS <mopcopsop@yahoo.com>
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Mrs. Kempa, You don't know me, but I just read your post about donating the stuffed animals. If you hadn't already found a home for them, you might want to consider the idea of giving them to a childrens hospital or something to that effect. Just a thought. Your family is in my prayers. love shannon
Shannon Cooke <shannoncooke@hotmail.com>
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like most of you, i visit this site everyday... the thing that i have noticed happening more frequently than i would have hoped is people making acusations about particular incidents and issues that really are so up in the air, that it's hard to make an accurate judgement about... this space was supposed to be a place where people who love chris could let their feelings be known, and share the personal memories and moments that made chris such a great kid... but, the internet is a public forum, and people who may not be so mournful are finding out about this site as well... when i read the messages written by the kempa family (adam, adam, and fran) my heart is greatly affected by the things they say, as well as everyone else... i guess my whole point is, that if possible (and i know i've been guilty of this as well), out of consideration of all involved, lashing out at people is not the answer to this... it's not going to make things better... attacking people is not going to make this website a comforting thing to go to... i doubt it is neccessary to be specific about all of the "low blows" taking place on this site... just please, and i know it may not make much of a difference, but let us try to use this open forum as a place that does not further taint this beautiful young man's life... to some people, this website is all they have to turn to, to become more aquainted with somebody that obviously had all the potential in the world... thanks.
ryan a. <ryanrawk@hotmail.com>
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